#i do like the pitons tho...

[oneiroy]

#ffxiv #gpose #ryssrael #femroe #fish knife and carabiner :) just for her!!! #these mashed up pants are now my favorite thing #i need to try to do the same thing with the skyworker pants #i'll keep toying with them... probably turn one of the pitons into a rusted key #maybe there won't be any pitons at the end vkfdvbsdfjkb i'll see #i do like the pitons tho...

[huckleberrysclutterbucket]

GMW-Harry Potter Crossover - Part 4

At Gryffindor Common Room

Riley: where were you?

Lucas: Hi Riles. What are you guys doing still up?

Riley: Did you found her?

Farkle: Did her friends hurt you?

Lucas: No. Why would you say that?

Farkle: well, your lips are swollen. So you either had a fight or-

Riley: or what?

Farkle: You found her did you?

Lucas: I did found her. And we talked and yes, we kissed.

Farkle: I knew it.

Riley: Wait a minute. She mocks you, makes a fool of you, makes you fail potions and now you kiss her? Are you crazy? Why would you kiss her?

Lucas: I didn’t fail potions, at least not yet. And I kissed her because... I think I’m inlove.

Riley: You can’t be serious!

Farkle: You don’t choose who you fall for. Is like your heart makes the call. Your brain doesn’t get a say in it.

Lucas: Exactly. I mean, I was so mad at her, like an angry bull, and then she looks at me with those eyes and I turn to this fluffy loving bunny and all I want is to be close to her and kiss her again.

Farkle: lets go to sleep. Is late and we have early classes tomorrow.

At transfiguration

McGonagal: Today you will turn this toad into a bunny. Is a gentle movement. Up, circle and down while you chant “cuniculi”.

Lucas: Seems easy.

Farkle: For you maybe. You know I don’t like transfiguration

Riley: Just because of the animagus blood on your family. I would kill to be animagus.

Farkle: yeah yeah. You wouldn’t say that if you turned into a toad or a worm or something gross.

Riley: Yeah... you’re probably right. I would love to become a bunny tho.

Farkle: Please, you wouldn’t last a day. Bunnys are food.

Riley: They are not

Lucas: That’s what my brother’s piton used to eat.

Riley: what does it eat now?

McGonagal: Would you three please stop bickering and focus on your task. I would hate to take points off from my own house.

At lunch Maya and Lucas keep on glancing towards eachother. They both smile and blush.

Zay: What are you doing?

Maya: Eating. What else would I be doing at lunch?

Zay: Don’t play dumb. I’m talking about you all smily and cute. You’re flirting!

Maya: I’m not. Shut up!

Zay: So... you and Texas muffin?

Maya: Maybe...

Zay: Has he asked you to the Yull ball?

Maya: Not yet. But I bet you he will.

Riley: I can’t believe you. She treats you like a pest and you still go after her. You must be under the influence of something.

Lucas: She’s so beautiful. And she’s not that mean once you get to know her.

Farkle: C’mon Riles. Cut him some slack. The man is inlove.

Riley: Please... I bet you she’ll put a hex on him. If she hasn’t done it.

Farkle: You are not sugesting...

Riley: Maybe she used a love spell or love potion.

Lucas: She wouldn’t do that.

Riley: Like she hasn’t mess with your potions before...

Farkle: She does has a point Luke. What if it’s true?

Lucas: I can’t believe you guys. I’m inlove and if you were really my friends you would be happy for me.

Farkle: We are your friends. That’s why we worry about your safety.

Lucas: I’m gonna ask her to be my girlfriend.

Riley: I can’t believe you. That girl has been nothing but trouble for you. I find it hard to believe you’ll fall for a bitch that fast. She’s playing with you.

Lucas: I’m not even going to answer that. Don’t you ever talk like that about her. I’m not hungry anymore.

Lucas left his table very angry. Maya notice and followed him, they reached the owlery.

Maya: Hey. What’s up?

Lucas: Owls. Of all shapes and colors.

Maya: I know dork. I mean, what’s up with you? Why are you upset?

Lucas: Have you talked to your friends about me?

Maya: Not really. Just Zay knows. And I didn’t even told him.

Lucas: When are you going to tell them about us?

Maya: I guess I was hopping they’ll notice on their own... you know... at the ball...

Lucas: Oh yes. The yull ball.

Maya: So... are you gonna ask me or should I ask you?

Lucas: Would it look bad if I wanted you to ask me?

Maya: No. Do you wanna be my date to the yull ball?

Lucas: No. I wanna be your boyfriend at the yull ball.

Maya: Wow. That was unexpected.

Lucas: So... is that a yes or a no?

Maya: Don’t you think is a little soon?

Lucas: Seriously? After everything I’m going through? Is this some sort of game to you?

Maya: Why are you acting like this? What’s the rush?

Lucas: I just ditched my friends for you! What more do you want from me?

Maya: I didn’t asked for anything! I really like you Lucas, but this is new for me. I need time to figure things out.

Lucas: what things?

Maya: I’ve never felt this... this things for anyone before. I don’t even know what it is. All I know is...

Lucas: what?

Maya: I wanna kiss you... all the time. And I think about you a lot and you make me blush. And I don’t blush!

Lucas: oh gosh. I wanna kiss you too. All the time. I go crazy thinking about you. I wanna kiss you right now so bad.

Maya: Then do it. Kiss me.

Lucas: Only if you say it.

Maya: Say what?

Lucas: That you’ll be my girlfriend.

Maya: Are you seriously not gonna kiss me until I accept?

Lucas: Yes.

Maya: That’s just mean.

Lucas: I learned from the best.

Maya: Fine. I give up, you win.

Lucas: What do I win?

Maya: I want to be your girlfriend, and I want those lips of yours on mine right now.

Lucas: your wish is my comand.

Lucas kissed her for a little while and then they parted ways to attend their next classes. Lucas didn’t speak to his friends all day untill after dinner.

Farkle: You’re still mad at us?

Lucas: A little. Is hard to be mad when you are so happy.

Riley: What’s got you so happy?

Lucas: She said yes!

Farkle: Yes to what?

Riley: The Yull ball of course.

Lucas: Not only the ball.

Farkle: You asked her! Didn’t you? You have a girlfriend!

Lucas: Yes, the most beautiful there is.

Riley: This is ridiculous.

Farkle: This is amazing. We have to celebrate this.

Riley: I’m too tired. I’m going to bed. See you guys tomorrow.

Lucas: At least one of you is happy for me.

Later that week, at breakfast

Farkle: So, what’s with your girlfriend?

Lucas: What do you mean?

Riley: He means that she’s acting like she doesn’t knows you.

Lucas: Well, she hasn’t told her friends about us yet. We’ll wait untill the yull ball next week to make the anouncement.

Farkle: oh... So, is a secret relationship for now?

Lucas: Yes. Well not so secret. Some people know.

Riley: Yeah... just us three I bet. You deserve better than to be someone’s dirty little secret Lucas.

Lucas: Its not like that

Riley: Yes it is! She hasn’t even look at you all morning. She’s been talking with that Billy guy all the time.

At potions Billy comes near the table where Maya and Lucas are doing their porions quietly

Billy: Hey Hart. Do you have an answer for me?

Maya: I already told you No.

Billy: C’mon. You gotta dance with someone

Maya: I will dance with someone. A very special someone.

Billy: Everyone knows you and I are going together to the ball.

Lucas: Dude, back the hell off. She already said no.

Billy: And what is the lap dog gonna do about it?

Lucas: How about kicking your ass?

Snape: Mr Ross, Mr Friar. My office, dettention after class!

Billy: This isn’t over Friar!

Lucas: You are in for hell a surprise!

[ddontyyoukknow]

I've been having those intrusive thoughts and feelings, where I decide ehwta I'm experiencing doesn't feel real so I go into soft npoanic mode and start questioning what the piton life is anyway and all that nonsense thugs is exactly what the guy on dp recopy talks about tho. I guess I'm just super impressionable and a guy I was liteingin to an audio book about said that some people believe that dp Is the distancing of the soul, thats a thought I use to have, and what makes western psychology so much better than then amazon people logic anyway? like it s that shit that I fight awaits so why chalk it all up to be savage thinking. there is a reason, and although I had negated that thought in the past, it persistently comes back. Iwhat is real anyway? and what is my obsession with it? why am I so persistent on wanting this ocndiotino subconsciously? in what ways does having dp benefit me? I get to detach from unwanted situations, I get real, concerned attention, I get to feel like a victim of my parents. I get to seem interesting to the outside world. the reality is,,,

1. I am safe and with a plethora of things to be grateful for in the present moment. 

2. I am surrounded by love and light always. I am loved so much by so many people. regardless of how they show it. 

3. I fully forgive my parents for inadequately caring for me as they were doing their. best and I have moved forward. they love me and I really love them. 

4. I am lovable receive lots of love and light from everyone and have lots of light and love to share back.