#i cant do this i can’t fuckign do this yall
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Okay so basically... lets talk.
I should've seen this coming. I should've known that after such a long period of happiness, something would give.
I went to pick up my glasses from the dinner table today, because that's where I left them. When I put them on... they wouldnt stay on. I checked and they were missing the two plastic parts that hold the glasses up and still on my nose.
I check the table for them, and I dont find them. Then I ask, like hey, did any of yall touch my glasses? Both the plastic things are missing. My dad IMMEDIATELY assumes that I took them off ON PURPOSE. For some reason. And I tell him no, i didnt touch them, all I remember is picking them up from the table and seeing the plastic bits missing.
Then I spend like an hour telling them no, I didnt break my own glasses, I FOUND them that way. And my dad is like mocking me, going "u always say 'I didnt do it!!!' Like you never do anything huh? I guess you're just perfect." And I'm like... BUT I ACTUALY DIDNT DO IT!!!!???!? and hes like "you never take responsibility for anything, blah blah, you're so fucking stupid, you act like a four year old, stop fucking crying, how dare you ask us if we know what happened, why are you trying to blame us, you obviously did it on purpose and now you're acting all surprised.." and I'm just sitting there. Taking it. Thinking to myself... wow. They automatically assumed the worst in me. And THIS SORT OF THING HAPPENS OFTEN!!! I get blamed for shit I didnt do all the fuckign time.
So I'm just. Crying. Because theres a certain amount of verbal abuse i can take and it's not very much. I'm being interrogated. And its distressing, because I cant PROVE that I didnt do it on.purpose, because i GENUINELY DONT REMEBER WHAT HAPPENED!!! so they just get to assume that i broke my own glasses.
Why would my dad jump to that conclusion so quickly? Simple answer: he literally hates me. He holds back, I know, but hes done this before and he'll do it again, hes shown and said what he REALLY THINKS and he'll say it again and do it again and again and again because his mask is slipping. I dont know what I did to make him hate me but he does. That's just how it is. I can't change that. Man, my parents behave like children.
Anwyays so I'm just very upset, in distress, crying really hard, trying not to say too much so I dont make them angrier but also always telling the truth, which is that I DIDN'T DO IT AND I DONT REMEBER ANYTHING HAPPENEING TO THE GLASSES!!
He asks me, who did it then? I say I dont know but it wasnt me. He said who then, if not you. I said I dont know. He didnt believe me!!!
I hate when I tell the truth and people dont believe it. Like... this is the truth. I have nothing more to offer you. Take what little I give, cos it's my fucking blood.
Anyways in the meantime my mom is checking, looking for the plastic bits. She finds them in my coat pocket.
I am proven innocent. At what cost? Well, now I'm shaking, curled up into a ball, crying, and in actual pain. My brain cant handle so much pain so it transfers it to physical pain. So there I am. A fucking kid. Who's been punished for somehting he didn't do. And theres the proof.
My dad fixed the glasses. Left me there on the couch, still trembling. Gave them to me in a case. Said I gotta be careful. I said thank you. Because, even if I'm upset, I gotta make sure other people dont get upset. He said sorry, but he said it in this huffy way that made it sound reluctant. Then he was like, I said sorry so stop crying.
He wanted a kiss on the cheek and I was gonna give him one because I dont want to seem like a dickhead, he DID apologize... and if you dont accept my dads apologies and move on and pretend that the word "sorry" fixes everything, he gets even more angry and i REALLY dont want to deal with him guilt ripping me over it. So I lean in for a little kiss and... I cant. I cant do it. My face crinkles up all ugly and I start crying hysterically every time I get close. I try a few times but I'm overwhelmed with a feeling of like... oh god. I felt so hurt. Like a scared little rabbit. Oh shit, I was fucking scared. I couldnt do it. It made me feel disgusted.
I said, later I'll do it.
I dont know why he thinks he can hurt me so bad and make me cry, then give some shitty apology and expect me to change my mood entirely and go back to being all happy. That's not how it works. If you hurt someone, they stay hurt. Your shitty little word, "sorry", doesnt make me feel any better and doesnt fix any of the damage.... but I have to pretend like it does because if I dont you get mad, and you say I'm mean for not accepting the apology,,,
Later on, he did come for a kiss again. I was in my room, pretending to be busy so he would ignore me but he didnt. This time, I didnt kiss him but I allowed him to kiss me. I just... I couldnt kiss him. I was holding back tears, and i knew if i tried to kiss him i would start crying all over again and make him upset or angry. So I just sorta... let him kiss me on my forehead. Then I went to the bathroom fast as I could, acting like I had to brush my teeth.
I locked the door, sank to my knees, and cried. Hard.
I just wish that I had a dad who loved me, or who knew how to love me... or who I knew loved me, a dad who knew what he was doing, so I didnt have to debate if he loved me or not in my head.
God. I feel so small. Like I literally feel like a little kid right now. Fucking hell. Looks like tonight I'll be indulging in my delusions, playing pretend.
It's sad that my parents fuck me up, but its sadder that afterwards I dont have anyone to comfort me and help heal me.... only myself and whoever I bring to life in my imagination.
Sometimes when I get overly upset, when I'm pushed to the edge like this, I begin to feel... a lot younger? Like shockingly younger. I'm not even the same dude anymore, I'm a fucking five year old all of a sudden. Which makes the situation even more scary and painful.
Just imagine like, a hurt scared little kid with no one to help him. He's tryna pick himself off the ground and hes telling himself "shhhhh... it'll be okay" that's me. That's literally me and it makes me feel so fucking BAD but its true.
I've been breaking down. Earlier in the day I had trouble on a quiz because I didn't know the definition of a word in a poem and I couldnt answer the question (does character A like character B?) And when I asked they said they couldnt tell me which was bullshit but whatever. Uhm so I got upset. Like, scarily upset. I gave up, wrote that i didnt want to do the question on the paper, guessed at half the answers, crumpled it up and threw it to the ground. Then I just... spaced out for the rest of class because I was STILL upset and fuck them.
At one point I left to go cry in the bathroom, but when i went in there, all the stalls were taken and there was a huge group of guys in there, like maybe ten people in there total, so I ran back out and was like fuck now what. Now I wait. I waited and nobody came out. I double checked and they were sitll there and I ran out again. I dashed to another bathroom down the hall hoping it was empty. I was blasting metal in my ears to try and drown out the FEELINGS, I hate feeling things. Got into a stall, slammed the door, started CRYING, sobbing, talking to myself, all of this with metal music blaring out of my headphones. I composed myself. When I went out of the stall I checked my eyeliner and it was... well, you could TELL I cried. I didnt bother with it tho, i just ran out of there.
Ugh and when I got back I kept doing the stim that usually evolves into literally hitting myself, so that was. Bad. At least this time I refrained from beating the shit outta my own left arm.
God.. I hope everyone who hurts me, everyone who ever fucking hurt me, feels GUILTY as all hell. I hope whatever being made me FEEL all these emotions so hard so strong so fast, ROTS. because nobody deserves to feel so intensely upset that they resort to the worst ways of coping. No one.
I'm just glad I didnt relapse. That's a positive.
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OFFAL HUNT REMASTER LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 9
oh goody!
well this is it. the Date Chapter. the chapter, in which, the Date happens. lowkey im so fucking hype for this stupid goddamn chapter AAAAAAAAAAAA this is when the sexy got kicked up about seven notches and i know its gonna be a fucking twenty from here on out so LETS GO LESBIANS LETS GO
“Is this your date, Ms. Fall?” he asked.
Cinder didn’t look away from Glynda. “Mhm.”
STRAIGHT OUT OF THE GODDAMN GATE WE DIDN’T EVEN HAVE A SECOND TO EVEN GATHER OURSELVES JUST STRAIGHT UP HUH!!!!!!!!! ‘is this your date’ im legally dead
What the fuck.
already im fucking THRIVING im so glad this chapter’s mood got encapsulated within the first ten seconds and im definitely gonna have to re-read this chapter for the full unannotated experience OOOOOOOOOH MY GOD IM SO READY
Glynda’s thoughts ricocheted inside her head like coins left in a dryer. A part of her couldn’t understand what was happening and disengaged. The rest of her, grasping for purchase in all this, reasoned that going with Cinder was better than staying here confused, alone, and utterly displaced.
glynda ‘i aint ever had a gf before’ goodwitch at her PEAK right here. like GOD shes gone from ‘cinder’s trying to murder me’ to ‘cinder just plopped me right into a date’ like CINDER. CINDER YR CHANGING GEARS SO FAST. YOU DIDNT EVEN SEND FLOWERS OR ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
is it because shes a u-haul lesbian or
Higher, Glynda realized the dress itself was backless, revealing the black tattoo she’d seen so often before, perfectly centered between sharp shoulder blades.
this gay energy is BONKERS, quite frankly??????? where did cinder get her dress from? why does she have it? did she buy it just for this fuckery? or will she pull the ‘i just had a this lil number laying around’ line????????? does she wanna seduce glynda to death?????? was this PLANNED OR DID SHE JUST DECIDE SHE WANTED A DATE AND WTH LIFE REALLY IS SHORT ON REMNANT THESE DAYS?????????? cinder fall please explain your workings to the class
maybe Glynda wasn’t the only one who’d become adept at reading her opponent.
👏 when 👏 will 👏 they 👏 kiss 👏 already 👏👏👏👏
me: this is a slowburn
also me: if u assholes dont give me this in the next ten seconds-
“Unarmed? As if you could be so helpless.”
cinder’s style of flirting is just. commentating on a person’s deadliness. that’s IT it’s the only TRICK SHE HAS and its working, is the thing,
im reading the description of the table and remembering the shitpost and oh my god i have to draw this???? hell IS real!!!!!! COULDNT YALL JUST TOSS EM IN A PLAIN BOX,
Cinder eyed her from her bastion of dark cushions,
cinder, ass-deep in cushions: this is peak cuddle territory come and join me
Cinder, for her part, seemed delighted Glynda had noticed. Touching the pendant more gently than Glynda might have ever thought her capable of, Cinder said, “Yours? You didn’t seem to mind parting with it.”
im still deeply enjoying this powermove the novelty NEVER wears off (and at risk of light spoilers i do enjoy its place in this story 👀)
Cinder let the necklace drop, settling against the swell of her bust once more,
/lightly coughs
👀👀👀
im losing my MIND at how gay this bit is i physically cannot HANDLE IT and if they even describe the meal once im gonna pop off cause i am. SO HUNGRY RN. AAAAAAAAAAAA
Cinder indicated a dish of lamb and vegetables, served on a bed of rice and drizzled in some sort of sauce.
SRY THIS ISNT GAY BUT OH MY GOD IM SO HUNGRY I WANNA E A T I T THAT SOUNDS SO GOOD UGHGHGHGHGHGH WHY DID THIS CHAPTER HAVE TO BE TODAY OF ALL THE DAYS,
Glynda cleared her throat, working out: “The Grimm.”
like. GOD WE KNOW GLYNDA IS JUST SO FUNCTIONALLY BAD AT CONVERSATION BUT OF ALL THE THINGS glynda please just. just. stop thinking abt her sexy tattoos for a fifth of a second,
“You can control them.” A sedate blink. For all the world, Glynda might have just commented on the weather.
which is a faux pas for a date!!!!!!!!!!! at least tell her the DRESS IS SEXY WE ALL KNO WHATS WHAT YR THINKIN ABT
Glancing down as though it were being pointed out to her for the first time, Cinder shrugged and adjusted the end of the glove a little higher on her bicep. “And?”
a quick aside im enjoying how like... visually expressive cinder is in this remaster! i can see her facial expressions and her motions really clearly in my mind’s eye which is a fun little boon if only because i have to redraw this nonsense hjsgdfjhfksgd but cinder’s got a Good Face this time around! A QUALITY FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You should know by now, there’s something about you that’s simply irresistible to Grimm.”
HERE COMES THE PLOT (and a single surviving line so far... this one sentence has survived all the world could throw at it... we stan)
Cinder straightened, and Glynda saw that this was what she’d been waiting for.
“It isn’t every day the great Glynda Goodwitch kneels before her adversary, is it?”
HELLO??????????????????????????? WHATS THIS WORDING????????? honestly tho for a second i thought she meant like. quite literally and i thought id missed some PROPER SHIT RIGHT THERE BUT YEAH WTH!!!!!!! C I N D E R
“You cheated. You can’t beat me on your own.”
yes glynda we gathered that yr a top
“Really, Glynda? Poison?” she sneered, something like offense simmering in her expression. “After all this?”
looks at the camera
anyway,
god im literally losing grasp of words to say because theres such a charged mood in this scene............. theyre brushing fingers............ trading jabs.......... im slurpin it up babey!!!!!!!! this rly is the BEST remaster of this whole scene it DESERVES this wordcount!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“Beat you,” Cinder corrected. “And call it a point of pride.”
yes cinder we gathered yr a brat,
this dynamic is why this fic is so fuckign good when will winter have a swift return to add even more fuckery to this wild ride
Then, with a heavy-lidded look, Cinder found Glynda’s hand between them, the touch so sudden and daring that Glynda flinched. The fabric of those gloves was smooth against Glynda’s flesh, and for all that cruelty had marked every other instance of contact between them, Cinder was surprisingly gentle.
whomp there go my nuts
WHAT IS THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO MADE THE EXECUTIVE CHOICE TO ADD THIS LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO???????????? im losing my BRAINCELLS
What she wasn’t ready for was for Cinder to guide her hand to her own throat and hold it there.
THERE IS IT THERE’S THE KINK IT’S BEEN SPOTTED
oh my GOD what even IS THIS WHO ADDED THIS SECTION WHO ALLOWED THIS TO COME TO P A S S WHAT THE FUCK EVEN IS RN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO????????? HEWWO??????????
Now… Now Cinder interested her.
tbh how can i liveblog this? what commentary can i POSSIBLY add that we arent already all THINKING. we just launched into a level of hell so deep that lucifers gonna have to pull some goddamn tricks to follow us down here!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS SCENE! THIS MOMENT! IM SCREAMING
Glynda mirrored the expression back at him, and finally, he coughed, not making strong eye contact with either of them. He set their plate before them and hurried out without so much as a check-in.
i just KNEW that was gonna happen JHGDSFGJHKSDF he was gonna walk in on SMTHNG but i didnt think itd be CINDER’S CHOKING KINK,
okay i took a break and ate my weight in roast chicken and we’re back babey
Almost nervously, her fingers carded through her own dark hair, and there, among the locks, Glynda spotted a glimpse of something white, structured and ridged.
AND I AM INSTANTLY KNOCKED BACK UPON MY ASS 👈W👈H😨A👈T👈
It was easier to ignore the rest of it—whatever it was.
glynda you are a fool and a moron im withering into DUST
On no level had she expected those to be Glynda’s words.
then what... did she expect... well probably -- and rightly so -- ‘bitch WHAT ARE THOSE’ TBH
wait sorry i have to jump back because i forgot customary fingerguns on the most brazen bit of Shit yet:
Cinder was occupying herself with something else: the head of a dragon, perched over the door and staring down at the two of them with red, glossy eyes.
👈👈👈😎👈👈👈
okay BACK TO THE FIC
Fangs snapped together around the word.
aka back to me horni
/chanting TEETH! TEETH! TE
okay but the reason i doubled back to catch that fingergun is because we’re getting ass-deep into plot now!!!!!!!!!!! WITCHES AND DRAGONS BABEY......... HERE’S WHAT OFFAL HUNT IS ALL ABT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant rly drop more fingerguns than that because any astute reader will start realising the dots im shouting abt and honestly half the fun of this fic is the ride so >:3c
“Funny. I was sure he would have told you.”
that blow was so low i think cinder hit the concrete with that one
oh god theyre gonna get to the bit and i-
“Is that what all of this has been about? You called me here to remind me that I'm autistic?”
/SCREAMS
The words were delivered firmly, calmly, but Cinder’s response was the opposite, sudden upheaval seizing her. Her expression opened in something akin to panic. “Wh—no? What? No! That's not what I—”
/SCREAMS
oh my GOD CINDER YOU HAVE FUCKED UP LEGENDARILY!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD SHE WAS FELL ASS-FIRST ONTO A LANDMINE OH MY GOD
offal hunt v1 cinder: im totally in control and im playing glynda every step of the way
offal hunt v2 cinder: OH JESUS OH FUCK OH NO THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEANT-
Cinder seemed genuinely stressed now, speaking quicker as though trying to bury the last sixty seconds.
i knew this remaster would have sections that would blow me away but this bit really took the fcuking cake DGHSJFSJHFDG holy SHIT this is AMAZING
It was difficult to tell in the low light, but if Glynda wasn't mistaken, there was a bright flush of embarrassment coloring Cinder’s cheeks.
this is SUCH prime content hey remember in one of the early liveblogs that cinder would descend into full dork? WELL THE DESCENT CAME EARLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /pops bottles
“Cinder.” There was a very real line of threat in Glynda’s tone. “Don’t.”
oh this whole scene just keeps getting better i am LOVING this dynamic now!!!!!!! before it was all pretty one-sided so having the conversation rock back and forth is 👌👌👌
That Witch soul of yours—it was designed to void out everything but the prey before you. To be numb to all human emotion. To focus on the hunt and nothing else.
finally the fruit of 50% of my fingerguns COMES TO LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! PLOT PLOT PLOT
“This is bullshit.” Jabbing an accusing finger at Cinder, Glynda said, “You’re a liar. You’re a criminal!”
i LOVE glyndas pottymouth in this its such a good like... change from her being strict and formal and teachery and now shes full on gremlin huntress hell YES BABY!!!!!!!!!! GO OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“There’s all kinds of things I bet he never told you.” Cinder continued. “Did you know he was close to your predecessor? The Witch who came before you—they were inseparable.”
SRY IM LIKE STRUGGLIN TO COMMENTATE because so much of this like. speaking as an Old-Ass Reader this is like. a LOT! A LOT HAS CHANGED and yet,,,, stayed the same,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, yall kids WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL CHAPTER LIKE................ 15 FOR THIS SHIT (but like. chapter 15 was different because this chapter used to be like chapter 7? so now everythings moved along so chapter 15 doesnt sound that impressive but trust me it was a different fic back then)
When they fell away, burnt and ruined, she could see Cinder’s bare arms for the first time. The red lines drawn across her skin sloped down the entire length of her arms, circling her elbows, carved into her wrists. They ended right at her hands, ensuring any long-sleeved garment would hide them. Every covered inch of her was filled like a canvas, like abstract art.
lets pause the fight scene for glynda to be gay!!!!! god im. okay look i said this earlier but im so glad we have more cinder like this tbh. the first version was rly lacking w/ cinder content until late-game when the plot sorta. got itself going? but now we’re eye-deep in this content i LOVE cinder i love this WEIRDO who is a HUGE LOSER and IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And Glynda could not dispel the fear that she had been telling the truth.
and after committing Some Amount In Damages, we’re at the end of the chapter!
okay so i really enjoyed this version SO MUCH MORE. everything abt it was polished and worked together so much better and it really needed the space to breathe in its own chapter. its been horny, gay, intense, hilarious, and way more in one chapter and its SO good this really is PEAK offal hunt!!!!!!!!!!!! good job diesel and kc but im still going to murder you both,
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what got7 are like in bed
obv this is just my opinion, i’d happily discuss them w you if youd msg me or send me an ask but yeah
warning: smut (obviously)
mark:
probably a little flustered at first
but the more he warms up to you, the more of a tease he becomes
not exactly a hardcore dom or sub, just a top since he’s pretty lowkey
but would bottom for you if you asked
just likes being on top bc he likes doing all the work
giver > receiver
he gets off on whatever you get off on, not really any major kinks or turn ons on his part, except one i’ll get onto later down the list
knows how crazy his voice can drive you and takes full advantage of it
so therefore; dirty talk
doesn’t really know what to say tho so just focuses on how good you make him feel
“fuck baby you’re so tight” “mmm that feels good”
uses “baby” or “babygirl” a lot
relatively quiet apart from dirty talk, occasional quiet moans
but if you pull his hair he won’t be able to help a louder moan slipping out
now onto the part you’ve been waiting for, his one major turn on:
hickeys
have you fuckign seen his teeth?? his lil canines?? perfect for hickeys im tELLing you
loves marking (pun intended BAD UM TSS) all over your neck, collarbones, and inner thighs
not into like super dark large bruises but more like lots of small lovebites scattered all over the place
the reason why he’s mostly quiet is bc if his mouth isnt whispering dirty things in your ear, its on your skin
doesn’t really have a fav position as long as it gives easy access to your neck
can only go once but can last a looooong time; best at self control apart from jinyoung
pretty needy, doesn’t like vocalizing it tho
so he’d probably try to give you the hint subtly like casually rubbing your inner thigh and giving you that look with dark eyes as he bites his lip subconsciously
usually that’s all it takes but if you decide to tease him he’ll break eventually, he’ll lean close right next to your ear and whisper “please baby,” and move your hand to his bulge and fffuck you can’t resist that
jaebum:
sigh
yall know he’s a daddy
sorry if you dont like the kink but have you seen jaebum,,, hes a daddy
HELLA DOM
might sub for you like once a year but he won’t be a good boy
probably a huge brat that keeps trying to take control again so you’d probably have to handcuff him or physically restrain him from taking over somehow
if not, he will flip you over and fuck you into the mattress for even attempting
but anyways if you dont like daddy he’d settle for master or sir but if you’d rather just use his name he’d still want to be very in control
whatever name you’re using, you’d be screaming it
tells you to be quiet and not make a noise, but actually loves it when you’re vocal, he just tells you off so he can have an excuse to punish you or just tease you and see how far he can push you
loves pushing your limits
groans loudly when you clench around him
dirty talk
“you’re such a good girl for daddy” “don’t make daddy punish you” “i own this pretty little cunt, got it?”
likes marking you where everyone can see, the smug bastard
bondage (giving)
edging!! hes such a tease
orgasm denial if you’re being a brat
will not let you come unless you’re begging
if you come early he’ll rile you up again only to leave you hanging or with a dry orgasm
wants you to be his good girl but enjoys the challenge of a brat
“babygirl” “baby” “kitten” “pet”
prefers giving oral because he likes watching you squirm
makes you cum multiple times from his tongue
won’t deny a blowjob though
threads his hands in your hair and pulls harshly, letting out low grunts
likes to come inside you
jackson:
oh boy
switch but probably won’t be a whiny sub/good boy
very vocal either way
sweet talk and praise aaaaaaaaall the way
“you’re taking my cock so well baby” “fuck princess you’re so good to me”
pet names!!
“princess” “baby” “angel” “babygirl” you name it
b o d y w o r s h i p
treats your body like a temple; loves every inch of it
kisses eeeeverywhere
likes marking your thighs
just loves your thighs in general hes a thigh man
thigh highs??? o o f he’s wrecked
loooves lingerie, will move your panties to the side and leave it on if you decide to wear it
sobs tHIGH RIDING have you seen this mans thighs
and the way he lowkey gave jinyoung a lap dance when he said he wanted to feel his “manly thighs”? he would so get off on watchin you get off on his thigh
loves receiving head but always insists on repaying the favour
shameless moaning; will tell you what youre doing good
likes it when you tell him what he’s doing right or just tell him what to do, he wants to do anything in his power to please you
im sobbing he’d treat you like a QUEEN
you’re more vanilla? he got it. you wanna be rough and kinky? gladly. you wanna tie his to the bed post? fuck it, sure. want it slow and romantic? any day of the week. wanna call him daddy? why not. the list goes on
would be okay with threesomes if it was with someone he was close to/trusted enough to know they’d treat you well, maybe even a poly partner
doesnt mind if its ffm or mmf i get the feeling he’s bi anyways
very caring and attentive to your needs
is quite needy himself tho
always dtf
“princess i’m so hard for you...can you help me out?”
king of aftercare
would clean you up and cuddle you
probably end up going for round four in the shower if you clean up int here tho
this man has stamina and WILL go multiple times, wants you to do the same
jinyoung:
soft dom
probably the most vanilla out of the group imo
really romantic
when he has time, likes to set up the mood by putting rose petals everywhere and like mood lighting maybe with some scented candles and like music??
wants the full experience yknow
not a huge fan of quickies but will do them if he gets a boner he cant get rid of at a bad time
still tho, a huge tease
intense eye contact
will smirk at you and just hover over you, waiting for you to cave in and beg him to touch you
always goes down on you before going in, he knows foreplay is important, plus he loves being in between your legs
mainly bc he lives off the sounds of your moans and whimpers
music to his ears
likes giving it to you nice and slow until you urge him to go faster
tends to only go once or twice himself but if you want more he’d happily go down on you again afterwards or use his fingers
body worship; but probably not to jackson’s extent
also quite quiet in terms of moans, mostly just low grunts and lots of erratic breathing
always asks if you’re okay
sweet talk sweet talk
literally the definition of whispering sweet nothings into your ear as he makes love to you
how pretty you look under him, how good you’re being, how much he loves you
most of the time loving and gentle but if you prefer more rough sex he’s down for that too
will leave hickeys in places where people can’t see, he likes knowing that you hide a dirty little secret under those clothes
has the most self-control in the group, can hold back for a long time because he always insists on you coming first and refuses to come before you
youngjae:
im already dying
ultimate sub
fucking fight me youngjae is the biggest sub ever he’s babyboy culture
might top for you if youre a hella sub too but never full on dom, ever
would be really blushy and flustered and always asking if he’s hurting you
seems pretty vanilla when he tops, lets his inner freak out as a bottom
extremely, extremely vocal
just can’t help the moans and whines tumble out of his mouth when you make him feel so good
he starts off biting his lip to try stay quiet but it does’t really work
eventually just lets it all out and is very loud
his moans would be the most delicious noises in the world
loves it when you talk dirty to him
just do it
talk dirty to him
it makes him feel so filthy and he basks in it
CALL HIM BABYBOY he’s so weak for that
likes being completely powerless and surrendering to you and letting you have your way with him
just loves it when you tell him what to do
pull on his hair pull on his hair he will go w i l d
won’t bring it up or suggest it but if you used toys on him he’d go crazy
would love to use a toy you’ve already used on yourself, again it makes him feel dirty and he loves it
degrade him or praise him or a mix of both, either way he’ll love it
probably would struggle to form proper sentences so just moans a lot and lets out strings of curses and moans your name,, loudly,,
unless you havent gotten the message already HE LOUD
will ask you for hickeys, he loves when you cover him in them, he’ll just look at them in the mirror the next day in awe
pretty low self control but can come multiple times
highkey likes being overstimulated
needs aftercare; clean him up and give him lots and lots of cuddles
and food bc who doesn’t like food
tell him he did well and he’ll melt into a puddle if he hasn’t already
im so wrecked for sub youngjae oh y god
im not ok
bambam:
FUCKING HELP ME BAM IS MY ULT BIAS THIS IS GONNA GET LOOONG (much longer than the others im sorry im biased)
like his dick ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
no but fr
bambam is big
think about it ok on live tv he publicly said his iconic how do you know line then looked down at his dick like any horny teenager, and in the same episode, pointed at his dick repeatedly as his “sexy version” of just right and hip thrusted when meant to do a cute version of if you do
do you really think he’d be that confident if he didn’t have anything to back it up??? no ok BAMBAM IS BIG
anyways getting to it - bambam is the Ultimate Switch™ dont even @ me
he will be all cocky and say he’s a dom and heck he’ll be a dom and a damn good one
but he will jump at the opportunity to sub for you any day of the week
probably would start off really awkward leading to lots of giggly and playful sex
even once he’s gotten familiar with you, there would probably still be a fair amount of giggly and playful sex
has lots of turnons, likes both giving and receiving for all of them
he is a freak im telling you lemme just list a few things
hair pulling - moans really loudly if you pull his hair and probably swears, also pulls on your hair w/out realising it but once you respond by moaning he will take full advantage of it to hear you
hickeys - second to mark on the hickey loving list, only he loves receiving as much as giving, loves finding your sweet spot and concentrating on it
scratching - rake your nails down his back as he tops you, he loves the burning sensation it gives him, also will probably do the same if you’re topping
bondage, probably just restraining hands tho but i mean. if you whip out a harness or some kinky shit he wouldn’t be opposed to it
honestly he’s really livin the yolo life he’d try anything once bc why the fuck not
dirty talk dirty talk
his mind his filthy; his mouth is filthy
“babygirl you’re so tight around my cock” “do that again princess” “fuck you look so hot under me”
“babygirl” “baby” “princess” “kitten” again, you name it, he’s down
won’t ask for it, but will get a hella ego boost if you call him daddy
but still not as into it as jaebum
does anything he can to make you moan, he could listen to your moans all day
very observant of all the little things that make you tick so you can have the best experience he can give you
very shameless moaner after passing the initial awkwardness of the first few times
second loudest moaner next to youngjae fffuuuuck imagine his moans for a second just hjdksjk
as a sub: he loves it when you tie him up and overstimulate him with assorted toys and yourself, obviously
give him a vibrator and a vibrating cockring and ride him and pull his hair he will go absolutely insane, it overwhelms him so much and he loves it
says he hates being overstimulated but actually enjoys the pain
as a dom: he likes fucking you hard and fast, secretly loves when you’re a brat because he sees it as a challenge and loves the thrill of battling you for dominance (but sometimes lets you win bc its hot)
will probably use toys on you and make you come over and over again for him bc he cannot get enough of seeing you come, he’ll overstimulate you as well
either dom or sub: he loves oral, both giving and receiving, you could argue he likes it better than penetration
have you seen his lips oh my godddd those were made for giving head (and making out. or just kissing in general. help me i love bambams lips)
he loves the way his mouth can make you moan and writhe so much, he could probably live between your legs if you let him, making you come multiple times
also hella into face riding sit on his face oh god just sit on his face
pull on his hair pull on his hair pull on his hair he’ll moan into you
looooooooooves receiving head too, moans loudly and grips your hair harshly
doesn’t fuck your face but just pulls on your hair and moves at whatever pace you set
also loves coming inside you, but second favourite is on your face
also super needy, probably has the highest sex drive
his cocky ass would send you nudes if you weren’t around
if you were around, he’d come up to you and give you a back hug, pressing up his boner against your ass to not so subtly hint his problem
if you ignored him, he’d start kissing your neck and humming
and if you continued ignoring him, he’d whisper really close to your ear, his voice all raspy and low and say something like “don’t play hard to get babygirl, i know you want this dick,” then proceed to tell you in explicit detail all the things he’d do to you
at that point you wouldn’t be able to hold back anymore
this is way too long already but i hAvE to adD
r i s k y s e x
he would be so into the thrill and adrenaline it got him he’d get off to that so hard
it would be like a game to him, see how many different places he can do it and get away w it
probably would do it in the same room as his members ngl
maybe even with his members, i also see him as the type to be open to threesomes or polyamory
loves making out w/ you which usually leads to sex unless its a rlly soft loving moment
probably still gonna lead to sex bc believe it or not, the kinky fucker is still capable of making love to u hdsjsk
ok i think i just wrote an essay here im so sorry ill stop
yugyeom:
97 line? maknae line? more like Ultimate Switch™ line
openly admits he’s a switch unlike bambam who tries to say hes a dom
actually i think he shares a lot of things with bambam
not even gonna lie they’ve probably hooked up once or twice when they got wasted
still friends tho with no regrets but it was a thing
either hella intense dom or whiniest sub with no in between
goes from daddy to babyboy in like 0.0002 secs
(probably not into being called daddy tho)
proooobably has a noona kink when he’s subbing
the only member who can beat bambam in his hair pulling kink, he love love loooves it when you pull his hair he lets out the softest moans
in general, his moans are high pitched and whiny and ughghhh h o t
will go crazy if you call him babyboy or pet but mainly babyboy
even if he’s subbing he likes to be the one doing the work bc he’s fast and damn those dancer hips so he’s probably too impatient to let you do it lol
but you like to tease him so sometimes you’d tie him up and ride him real slow until he’s begging you and whimpering to speed up
peg him he loves that shit
honestly he may be a hella switch but as soon as your mouth is on his dick he is a babyboy there’s nothing he can do about it
he will moan and pet your hair and pull it when he comes
doesn’t like blowjobs bc he’s embarrassed at how fast he loses it compared to his usual stamina
which is a lot btw, he can go on forever istg
perks of being a main dancer
speakin of main dancer
his s e x y d a n c e s
would gladly give you a lap dance beforehand of just a full on fucking strip show this boy is wild
would gladly accept any lap dances or strip shows also lolololol
overall very rough and impatient bc he’s a horny boy
probably second highest sex drive next to bams
gets all pouty if you deny him too long
then fucks you into the wall out of frustration dAMN
unless you plan on punishing him for being so needy ohohohoh
okay im gonna call it quits before this becomes a novel
hope y’all enjoyed bc damn i sure did
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hi hello guess whos back with another annoyingly sentimental post? yeah it’s me bc i’m an emo bitch who’s been listening to sott on repeat for four hours now and its got me feelin some type of way. it’s like the same old same old stuff i say basically but i can’t say it enough so i’m gonna say again.
@eversincencwyork @onedirectionwho - you two. god. sometimes i can’t even put into words how much you both mean to me. we’re reaching our second? third? anniversary idek i’m shit at remembering numbers and dates but?? whether it’s two years or three, it’s not a whole lotta time not rlly and we’ve thru so fuckng much together? like holy shit sometimes i look back at everythign that’s happened to us and it makes me wanna cry bc as shitty as some of it was, it’s only brought the three of us closer and i would deadass fight the whole world for u if i ever had to. no joke. you’re always always always there for me when i rlly need you and now i can’t imagine not having you in my life.
@leemihno - i just. you know what i found today? that super gorgeous drawign you started of me and then misplaced the notebook. and all the other art you’ve made of me and for me and i teared up. you might be a kpop blog now but in my heart you’ll always be daggerau. loueh to my harru. i cant wait for louis to go on tour so you can come to new york and we can see him together. it boggles my mind that we became friends through something that has absolutely nothing to do with 1d and yet it’s something that brought us so much closer. also im sure i said this before but im gonna say it again - im so so SO proud of you for bringing ur bi flag to niall’s show and being the first one to bring it to his meet & greet. i honestly get so emotional when i think about it bc you got to have that moment with him and you allowed him to have that moment and i just,,,, everything that happened after that too i’m so fuckign proud of u and love you so much. and i miss seeing oscar show me more of him pls
@liamau @louisau - you know i was gonna write smth super sentimental for u both, esp bia bc shes my kid, but i literally cannot bc u just killed the mood with that video of pulling ur sister’s bra strap. how rude
@liarbgc - i know i’ve been kind of a ghost this past week or so but it’s mostly bc i’ve been feeling kinda shitty and i hate bringing yall down with me so i’ve been in and out but all of you?? are like sisters to me like genuinely i’m so so glad to have you guys in my life. i know i basically forced my into the chat and i’m not even sure how many of you knew i was making tina add me, but i’m glad i did it bc u all make my day so much better. even if i dont say anything, even if i just read the messages and look at the snaps, you always put a smile on my face. you’re all some of the funniest and smartest ppl i know, and so fucking kind and understanding and loyal and i’d do anything for yall.
@rainbowsboa @harrysingingstilltheone @iconichalo - i’d say stuff to yall but i can’t bc reasons and i dont wanna spoil. love u
and everyone else. all my friends that i cant possibly name here but @steviestyles @webeattheodds @niallacoustic @tightropeofhope (i would put u in a gc but im dumb and didnt do our gc :/ sorry) @rainbowharru @onlybird @runninwotah @stillhisone @velvetsharry @velvetslouis @trianglefreckle @fireproofs @babyhoncy @blushiin @lovesuran @itstomlinson @ot4tat @roguecurls @homelouis @hipchub @harrv @sammysstevens and so many more - you all make my days better i’m so so happy to have u all ♡
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88 qn tag meme
thank u 2 the lovely @jiminieboi for tag!!
holy shit this was long,,listen i tag no one but my wife @wingjk bc im literally too lazy to breathe rn
the last:
1. DRINK: passionfruit red tea. it was too sweet i wish i’d gone w green but that’s too sour,,,,honestly a representation of my personality as a whole
2. PHONE CALL: school friend who was wondering where i was
3. TEXT MESSAGE: if messenger counts, @wingjk bc i was going to sleep
4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: come back home by bts
5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: i don’t recall!! perhaps a couple weeks ago?
have you:
6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: don’t call me out like this
7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: not really? i dont regret many things
8. BEEN CHEATED ON: ha
9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yes
10. BEEN DEPRESSED: listen
11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: i don’t get drunk
top 3 favorite colors
12. black
13. pink
14. in your area
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yes and i love them
16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: L I S T E N
17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: rarely, but yes!!
18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yall. assholes. love to gossip. and i love finding out about it so it’s a mutually beneficial thing
19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: doesn’t everyone change me to some degree?? yes, though i do think a lot of the char dev ive undergone was internally motivated and not bc of a specific person,,,i just want to treat people better.
20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: yes and i Love Them
21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: ppft no who the fuck even facebooks in the year 2k17,,,tho,, @wingjk hmu ;(
GENERAL
22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: none
23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: a kitten !! listen he’s an asshole but i love him
24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: as in legally?? i wish!! hopefully soon
25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: ha ha dont talk to me
26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: i overslept today bc my sleeping schedule is,,,,,very good,,,,,,,,,,,
27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: readin fanfic rip
28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: hobi. wheres. ur. mixtape. where. also MY BDAY IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH !!! LOVE ME !!!!!!
29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: uhm yesterday
30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: listen,
31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: the sweet sound of everyone being loud as fuc
32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: i dont think so ??
33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: people breathing around me
lost questions
34. MOLE(S): ya
35. MARK(S): scars ?? i fell into a ditch once and i still have the scars from that,,also depression isnt ideal
36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: to be a lawyer
37. HAIR COLOR: brown but im gna bleach it someday
38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short-ish
39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: not romantically but i am currently interested in someone, yeees
40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: sometimes the planets alighn just right and i say something quotable that im proud of
41. PIERCINGS: that havent healed completely already ? 2, in my ears
42. BLOODTYPE: red
43. NICKNAME(S): q, ‘that asshole’, kyu
44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: not looking
45. ZODIAC: leo
46. PRONOUNS: im agender. i strongly prefer it/its for Reasons but some of yall fucks take offense bc ‘but u are not an object!!’ and like. listen. if u think that using ‘they/them’, which i do not want to be called, is somehow more respectful to my identity ??? ? ? ? i dont rly have much to say. in spaces where people are less tolerant and presentation overrides id, i go by she/hers.
47. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: i dont watch them anymore but ill always have a special spot in my heart for hannibal and my earliest experiences w bbc sherlock (ahahah can u believe i used to be a sh blog tho)
48. TATTOOS: not yet!! i want to get mine right the first time
49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: technically ambidextrous but ive been using my right hand for so long (bc u dont rly realize how inconvenient literally everything is w left hand until u try it skdfjgfg) that it’s now my dominant one
50. SURGERY: yes, but minor
51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: nop but ive shaved it all off once
52. SPORT: used to sail, used to kayak, now i possess no skills. i actually ish i did have a sport i play regularly, but, i am a Lazy Fuck,
53. VACATION: aksdjfd i dont rmbr !! i travelled a lot when i was young. now we just go to neighboring countries over breaks sometimes.
54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: not converse low, that’s 4 sure
MORE GENERAL
55. EATING: nothing, but hopefully about to
56. DRINKING: nothing, but hopefully about to
57. I’M ABOUT TO: eat, drink, go home
58. WAITING FOR: senpai to answer my anon ask. senpai pls. senpai im dying here i only get wifi sporadically for like 10 min at a time senpai plsease
59. WANT: see hoseok irl someday, to not fail my year end exams, to have a good future after this. if we’re going wildly unrealistic, give me financial stability and the power to play piano proficiently.
60. GET MARRIED: honestly i think this would depend on where i am in life, where my partner(s) is/are in life, and what we want out of our relationship (plus, my generation supposedly killed marriage, so)
61. CAREER: listen i used to want to be a lawyer real bad before i grew up and realized im a fuckign depressed idiot who cant do shit so now im just hoping for some kind of stable job that i wont hate,,,,,,i lean towards the social sciences, and they’re what im best at, but my fucking dumb ass is currenly taking natural sciences instead because ????? no fuckin clue, past me, what the fuck,
62. HUGS OR KISSES: i dont like hugs much, so kisses. though i do like to cuddle ??? i think ??? theoretically ???? normally i just dont let ppl touch me
63. LIPS OR EYES: lips
64. SHORTER OR TALLER: couldn’t care less but theres smth hot abt someone being taller than me (unrelated news kuroo is 187cm holy shit fuck T O W E R O V E R M E)
65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: as in ?? romantically ?? to be friends with ?? if it’s the former, almost definitely older. for the latter, i prefer older, but personality matters more than age does.
66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: dont care. tho if u have arms that could snap my neck,
67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: as in me ?? listen im both. im both. but if we’re talking partners, i imagine kuroo is plenty loud, so that,
68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: listen i dont care as long as it’s enjoyable and mutually beneficial
69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hm
have your ever:
70. KISSED A STRANGER: nop
71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nop
72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: yes, but found them
73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: ya!!
74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nop
75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: not intentionally ??
76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: : l i s t e n
77. BEEN ARRESTED: nop im a good upstanding citizen
78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: as in irl ?? i dont think so
79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: hm, no, i,
do you believe in:
80. YOURSELF: ya im great. im a piece of shit but *insert trash can not trash cannot meme*
81. MIRACLES: nah
82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: nah
83. SANTA CLAUS: nah. attraction, maybe
84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: do what u want !!
85. ANGELS: @wingjk is one so i can confirm
86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): van, iv, jess are u a best friend or am i reading u wrong, id say drea but she’s my soulmate, id say nastya but she’s my wife and will complain i friendzoned her
other
87. EYE COLOUR: greenish
88. FAVOURITE MOVIE: casino royale !!! also all the ghibli things were my childhood
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