#i cant differentiate between my joys in work atm anymore

[sappho-knight]

i need you to know i miss her so much right now i may actually go insane

#commentary #you know when you speak of the devil and they appear #so earlier during dinner i was jk about being depressed bc #i cant differentiate between my joys in work atm anymore #and now i'm up at 2am not sure why i haven't slept yet #not that im depressed. but like i cant help it if #the mood comes back in like a sledgehammer and ruins my plans #so like. theres a really cute mutual who's asleep rn #and i really really really want to talk to her soooo bad #i wanna crawl into bed n hold her in my arms #but my brain is not letting me do that #man like fuck u brain!!!!!!! #i will master the meditation eventually #and get better so i can sleep at a proper time #as long as i get to eep w her im sure things will be okay #this i am willing to fight for #fuck you!!!!!!! #🖕 @ depression real