#i can't keep going on like this but i'm still financially and healthcare dependent on them

[dafodilion]

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#i told my mom that I wasn't planning on coming home for spring break #and I wanna be sick #and i have all these reasons for why i logically can't go back #but like #the main reason is cause i get hella depressed anytime I'm home #and i don't really snap out of it for a week #and my grades can't take that rn #but i can't tell her that #cause she'll guilt trip me or say i'm being cruel to her for not reason #and that i don't know what depression really is #and i just #can't #cause i know that if i go back then i'm actually gonna drive myself into an underpass at two in the goddamn morning #and i can't #i can't do that #i can't keep going on like this but i'm still financially and healthcare dependent on them #.. #i may need a hug #or to go to sleep cause its already one in the morning #but like i still feel like i wanna be sick