#i am being good at divind work case and my real life

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#it’s been a month without her #how can time pass by so fast #I have never spent so much time without seeing her #except for the lockdown #cause we sent 54 days apart #it was so stressful and scary #and now it will be this same feeling forever #there is no way i will stop missing her #i tear up every time im thinking of her #i can barely say the word and mention her now #i think think you can get used to it in the way people say #i think you will always miss them but will create this safe imaginary life in your mind #where they still are beside you and you kinda feel them around you all the time #but it wont go away #some voids are too big to pretend you are gonna replace that emptiness with something else #i miss her and I will forever wish I could have had her here just one more minute #one minute. i wish memory could help me remember what did we talk about the last time i call her #but it keeps giving me just one painful memory of her saying it was so long until we would see again’ #I wish I was there for her #i am being good at divind work case and my real life #i dont get much stressed now #but this feeling of loneliness i feel is overwhelming and i hope she will prove to me she’s here somehow #I desperately want to say to her I am sorry I wasn’t there and im sorry I left #the only thing i know is she was proud of me and that the only comfort thought i have