#how they long for touch. how their monents of touch are always a few degrees removed into Hell.

[widowshill]

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#smoking tw #CAROLYN IS A REAL ONE. #never to be as we began / one lonely girl‚ one very lonely man. #AND. #''we've got a bond in common you and i. we are both alone in the world. oh‚ i've got a sister [...]'' #➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery. #➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters. #➤ re: carolyn stoddard. ┊ never the same girl twice. #➤ re: burke devlin. ┊ i am stranded in a hungerland of great prosperity. #man I really. am obsessed with their relative loneliness. it’s also like 2 am and I’ve had a few drinks as I’m typing this so like #Vicki who was lonely and surrounded by peers but longed for family. Roger who is surrounded by family but nonetheless feels an acute #loneliness — and very few peers! #how they long for touch. how their monents of touch are always a few degrees removed into Hell. #vicki pulling at and sobbing into his lapels after she’s seen a ghost. his hands over her mouth to silence her. grabbing her on the #staircase to interrogate her. the only time he ever even kisses her on the cheek to my memory is in front of Jeff #when he’s conceding he won’t tell her about his little moment of infidelity. #(and … maybe also demonstrating that they’re close enough that he can stroke her arm/kiss her cheek) #he’s always grabbing her but. a proper long hug when. #… ‘for 20 minutes straight. they don’t pull away‚ they don’t look at your face‚ and they don’t try to kiss you.’ #and of course touching hands only within the boundaries of a séance. though there are a few tantalizing moments almost on the bannister!