#how long have I been a second or even third priority to myself for lmao

[eyecide]

Rather unsurprisingly I have not actually been stress vomiting, at All since mr “guilt tripped me into letting him basically cheat on me with other people online, chronically unemployed, lived in literally filth BY CHOICE, checked himself into the psych ward bc I needed space from the constant fighting for a few weeks, treated me like an object constantly and barely even tolerated being around me if we didn’t fuck but somehow was so convinced he was The Good Boyfriend” and I broke up

#I could keep going but that’s all I’m comfortable posting online #I’m not going to pretend like I was an angel in that relationship or never did anything wrong but my god the more time goes on the more #upset with myself I get for putting up with all of that for so long and prioritizing myself so fucking little #I remember at the end of our relationship we were fighting and he said something to me essentially to the effect of #‘why are you prioritizing your feelings’ and I just laughed and was like because someone fucking has to #all the shit I put up with for him and his feelings #like fuck even the shit I put up with for money and keeping my career moving forward I don’t ever wanna hear ANYONE tell me I’m selfish for #putting myself first ever again #how long have I been a second or even third priority to myself for lmao #ANYWAY yeah I’m in a mood tonight may or may not keep ranting later