#hlvraitagging

[nbenrey-real]

Presenting a several-week effort, here is my Sweet Voice Translation Guide (with ability to commentate if you wish to contribute or clarify! also free 2 use)

 Features:

list of confirmed speakers & proposed fluency

proposed & canonical color meanings

proposed & canonical color flavors

canonical translations, in brief

proposed possible translations

an in-depth act-by-act sweet voice record & analysis

#hlvrai #hlvrai benrey #sweet voice #black mesa sweet voice #I HAVE SPENT SO LONG WORKING ON THIS #MY BRAIN IS SO FRIED #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #hlvraificing

[nbenrey-real]

for no unicorn was ever born who could regret, but now i do. i rë̴̯̩̠̍gr̓͐̅ͦ̔͡e͈͚͓̳͔͓̎ͨͦ́̀̽ͅt̹͙͔͙̖͓͌̏ͅ.

#hlvrai #hlvrai benrey #hlvrai au #watsonian au #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #hlvraiarting #eyestrain #do you ever think about how fucked up it'd be to be the first sapient person in a world of npcs? #did i use the barney models instead of drawing them by hand? yes. shut up

[nbenrey-real]

autistic gordon is relatable because i, too, get inexplicably annoyed about dumb technical definitions of things like if chuck e cheese counts as a restaurant or iF THERES A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CANDY AND PASTEL TONES- and get way too into it even though it doesn’t really matter 

#hlvrai #hlvraitagging #hlvraiposting #(yes it fucking does i will die on this hill)

[nbenrey-real]

powerade serenade

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #hlvraiarting #watsonian au #frenrey #blood #i put effort into gordon but benrey can perish im sleeby #its 100% in character for benrey to look worsely drawn ok #bitches be using mspaint and a mouse (im bitches) #this is the first time ive actually drawn my gordon and benrey dsfg #the powerade is really shallow ok

[nbenrey-real]

there are certainly posts going around today /:

#hlvraitagging #am i vaguing in tags bc i forgot to eat for several hours and then saw a mildly upsetting post? yes #you know what i dont think some people understand that born sexy yesterday is like #a VERY SPECFICIC kind of trope that requires certain traits #like you can have a LOT of similarities and still have it not be that trope #like as someone whos chronically low energy and gets hyperfocus nuked #if im writing about haha funney alien or funky ai havin problems existing in real #its not born sexy yesterday chief thats not the appeal here pal #its bc a scenario where someone who cant shower on their own is still respected as a person and loved and cared for is kind of nice? #like you know what YEAH i DO want benrey to not know how soap works and STILL be considered an adult capable of complex thought and emotion #benrey DOESNT remember to eat just like i dont and thats FINE because their friends GET IT and love them and im GONNA keep writing it #i am unreasonably annoyed by this i have been getting got by hypersomnia for 2 weeks #delete later #i havent updated my fic since last year and i am physically withering

[nbenrey-real]

bc the HEV suit is SUCH a pain to draw and looks kind of... not good, i drew a ref for the highly simplified version i draw my Gordon, using the turnaround for the in-game HEV suit! this is free to use for art, fic, or ect purposes!! please link me if you do though bc i would love to see it, it’s free serotonin :3! 

Features of the Mark VII Hazardous Environment (HEV) Suit include:

Enhanced maneuverability and lessened weight without compromise of armor integrity via Black Mesa proprietary polymers, both Inflexible (Orange), & highly maneuverable (dark brown).

On-board computer system that monitors the user's vital signs, reacting to any changes in the user's condition or outside environment, as well as munitions. Incorporates Geiger counter, Morphine & Neuroantidote administrator, EHAES System, Heads-Up-Display with identification database, Energy charge level, and Munitions monitoring. 

Emergency Radio & tracking devices, as well as silent-running mode which disables all sound & allows user to selectively activate lighting & mute incoming transmissions. Also features ‘Black Box’ recording.

Back of suit contains filter apparatus, in-set well-armored vents, emergency lighting for rescue operations, and a battery charge display for the Electrically Hardened Armor & Energy Shield [EHAES) System, which is fully charged and activated on usage. 

Arm-based bar-lights monitor munitions on the users primary hand, heath & armor on their non-primary hand. These also have the auto-emergency-lighting function.

Lambda symbol acts as suit flashlight & automatically activates emergency lighting if the user is unresponsive for a certain period of time

Optional modular helmet comprised of detachable protective plating, filtration mask, & ergonomic visor containing the HUD display. It is formally Recommended that all employees retain the visor and/or mask at minimum.

Accessibility options for disabled employees that otherwise qualify for HEV Suit Training- please inquire with HEV Operations Administration and remember to use the Black Mesa Approved Aids provided to you rather than your own from home.

Full user customization, including base bodily & accessibility accommodations, gender affirmation accommodations, convenience options, and color-selection. Please contact HEV Operations Administration for further alterations or concerns.

#hlvrai #Black Mesa #half-life #HEV Suit #hlvraiposting #hlvraiarting #hlvraificing #hlvraitagging

[nbenrey-real]

you ever just accidentally an entire character perspective based on a headcanon you cannot let go of?? 

anyways a lot of people had the concept of Joshua using an Artificial Larynx, which when combined with the fact that Gordon's canonically only 27 and a graduate of MIT with a PHD in theoretical physics- i was like holy shit jesus christ?? 

I started writing this just as a concept for a discord angst discussion and i accidentally wrote too much asdfg

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #hlvraificing #this is literally the first fic i have ever wrote and posted PLEASE do not call me out i am so embarrassed #screams in rejection sensitive dysphoria

[nbenrey-real]

bitches will be like *finds gordons neuroticism anxiety and constant confusion with others actions combined with the sheer amount of rage he holds for the police and desire to fuck shit up relatable* im bitches

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #god i cant stop thinking about the acab stream #*dr coomer voice* gordon i crave violence #fuck it *kins gordon* #i dont know if i actually count as a kinnie but like #u can only project so much onto ur au versions of characters #before they're either an original character entirely #or just semi-kinnie bullshit #cells is banned from kinnie club 3:

[nbenrey-real]

various hlvrai headcanons

everyone on the science team (+gman & forzen) are autistic. whos gonna stop me, god?

john freeman is canon. hes the one babysitting joshua during all this wondering what the fuck is going on

gordon is trans & bi

benrey is something between nb and agender. they/themry rights

genderfluid tommy & coomer

bubby does not vibe with gender. agender it is fellas

darnold is probably nb but hes just vibing

gregory ‘gman’ goodman is tommys bioparent. he wasnt sure how to raise a half human child without fucking them up, and time passes weird for him so he didnt realize how long it really had been. tommy is understanding given his experiences with time fastness on soda, but gman owes him so many birthday bayblades and he WILL use that power for guilt-tripping 

joshua is in and will never outgrow his mlp phase because i love those funky ass plastic horses

Gordons first language is actually ASL! both his parents were deaf and he’s partially deaf in his left ear. he switched to the black mesa hearing aids because they worked better and kinda slap with the orange, though.

he spent most of his childhood not talking and then most of teenhood dealing with being selectively mute. still prefers sign tbh but cant have shit in black mesa

since he really hates being left out of communication- this also makes things like inside jokes or references irk him, so hes just. very annoyed, most of the time. this really only made the hand thing even more distressing, tbh

speaking of the hand, his new one is a really sick ass high-tech prosthetic courtesy of gman. it has texture and heat sensing and everything, but he still gets phantom pains like hell and sometimes needs to shake it a few times to get it to re-calibrate to his nerves

gordons always been neurotic as shit and had high anxiety, but dealing with a shitty ex and raising joshua by himself really kicked it into high gear right before the whole. resonance cascade thing.

knows he tends to get aggressive when he’s afraid or panicked but has just gone absolutely off the rails after black mesa because hes sick of the varying bullshit thats been going on just. in general. he can have a little ultraviolent crime. as a treat.

ended up becoming friends with chell as a kid, since they were both in the deaf community, lived in the same area, and had a huge interest in science. 

black mesa actually has really good work culture when it comes to lgbtq+ folk and suspiciously good benefits, and aperture science is just happy to have more warm bodies to throw at portals- gordon heard some of the rumors about cave johnsons weird ass tests though, so he elected to go with black mesa. now hes starting to wonder if cave johnson just ran both, because what the fuck 

somehow he keeps ending up with more and more of the science team living with him whereever hes staying, even after he moves to a bigger place for joshua. eventually they just. buy a house specifically to live together. theres an entire seperate house connected by a path thats just for joshua because gordon is paranoid someone will leave out something dangerous

can and WILL have a panic attack at the drop of a hat, this is a THREAT. also please install more battery-powered night lights, the power went out and it scared the shit out of him guys hes serious please pick up more from lowes-

craving ice cream 24/7 because GOD do i want to eat that entire container of cherry vanilla hagen daz right now SDFBGN

benrey is dissociating or spacing out 98% of the time and really has no idea whats going on dude. they just follow the script. or sometimes the skeleton does for them. the audio processing bs really doesnt help with any of this.

will i project my shit memory, audio processing issues, general-spaciness, and inability to tell when ive veered from ‘playful joking’ to ‘oh wait im actually being annoying and making them mad’ on to benrey?? yes. yes i will. 

legitimately has only ever been in black mesa. why hasnt everything reset yet. do they just have to live here until it does so they can go back. he just kind of sits in the bus-stops for the lines that used to go there after he reincorporates, occasionally joining in on heists or hanging with tommy, and just. waits.

after the like 5th night in a row, of the second week of gordon having to drive tommy to pick them up from a soaking busstop at 3 am in the morning, because ‘its storming really bad and they dont have anywhere else to sleep mr freeman and he gets so worried its so cold’- he just says fuck it and makes them join the rest of the household

gordon promptly ends up actually being concerned about this dumb asshole because jesus christ, they dont even know how to microwave things. did they just live in the breakroom at black mesa all this time??

benrey: yeah gordon: gordon: what the fuck is wrong with black mesa they haVE DORMS. WHY DID THEY-

between benrey and whatever the fuck is up with doctor coomer hes starting to think black mesa might have been causing some serious memory issues in their workers. he makes everyone do tangrams just to check, encourage neuroplasticity 

benrey spaces out halfway through one and starts playing terraria on their phone instead. gordon gives them a b- for effort

benrey and bubby are single highhandedly the reasons behind the banning of both tnt and all firespread from the house minecraft server

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #hlvrai au #watsonian au #it doesn't have to be but this is the earliest hcs that influenced it #YES i am autistic YES i will project onto characters from my newest special interest NO you cannot stop me

[nbenrey-real]

in other news i have been obsessed with rping on pony town because hehe hyperfixation machine go bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb-

#hlvrai #pony town #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #watsonian au

[nbenrey-real]

Benny reference!

#hlvrai #hlvrai benrey #watsonian au #hlvraiposting #hlvraiarting #hlvraificing #hlvraitagging

[nbenrey-real]

realizes ive never made a ref for my benreys work uniform even tho its their iconic look

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraiarting #hlvraitagging #yeets this sketchy thing out there

[nbenrey-real]

"The only me is me. Are you sure the only you is you?"

#hlvrai #hlvrai au #watsonian au #hlvraitagging #hlvraiposting #hlvraiarting #blood #NAME YOUR VESSEL #this quote from the silent hills pt has been stuck in my head all day #the concept of gordon being a real character and not just a player avatar really interests me #and makes me think about those interpretations of undertale & deltarune where the player characters are real people semi-possessed #forcibly dragged along on the ride without realizing how much of their actions aren't really theirs to begin with #this took so long #i started coloring the sketch at 6 and its now 10

[nbenrey-real]

i forgot i made casualwear horsies!! gordon is in dad khakis and fingerless gloves bc hes the sort of nerd who likes those. benrey meanhile has fuckin thigh high stirrup socks because i am projecting my desire to own cute socks and also theyve got clawsies.

#hlvrai #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #watsonian au #pony town #where are my fingerless gloves #i love those dumb things #god i wish i could find cute socks in fat people size

[nbenrey-real]

Everyone immediately stretches upon exiting the car, and you have to shake your prosthesis a little to catch feeling in it again. You, Dr. Coomer, and Tommy all take your respective boxes while Bubby closes the top and messes with something in their hotwiring job so no one else can steal it while you’re all gone, and Sunkist helpfully pops the trunk with a deft paw.

Dr. Coomer is the one to take the initiative on the presents front, choosing to carry as much as they can reasonably balance and still get up the stairs. You, yourself, insist on taking the majority of the rest, citing the HEV suit excuse again when Tommy questions it- you’d feel bad about lying like this, but he just looks so tired when he picks up the box he packed for Sunkist that you can’t help it.

You drop off Tommy's stuff near the couch, for now, and let Tommy get to sorting it out how he needs, instead making a beeline for the kitchen to grab a soda from the cupboard and pass it off to Bubby, hoping it’ll help them calm down before they burn a hole in something. Bubby grumbles something incomprehensible but sounding enough like a thanks that you smile at them anyways.

Next is the hard part.

#hlvrai #watsonian au #hlvraificing #hlvraiposting #hlvraitagging #i forgot to post this last night #i'm so sorry its been like 3 months but theres been a lot happening ha haa

[nbenrey-real]

hlvrai projection headcanon #72:

gordon doesn’t know how to open cans he’s been doing it wrong his entire LIFE HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW YOU DONT OPEN ALL CANS LIKE TUNA CANS OKAY??

#hlvrai #hlvraitagging #hlvraiposting #THEY DONT TEACH CAN OPENER IN MIT OKAY #top ten gordon epic fail moments