#heyyy i'm just feeling weird it's nbd

[lurkerviolin]

i mean i was fifteen and learning not to hate myself and he told me i was beautiful every morning for over a year of course i loved him but it’s been over five years since the last beautiful text and over four since the last text period and i don’t want to feel fifteen again because i don’t miss him i don’t i only miss the way it felt to wake up to his words before anything else, thinking he actually thought i was beautiful before i knew i was just one in the harem of insecure girls he manipulated into feeling special i don’t want to be manipulated into feeling special why did you message me what do you want why did i answer what do i want he ghosted after and i’m mad at myself for waiting for a response

#personal #do nut re bagel #heyyy i'm just feeling weird it's nbd