#helpppppppp I’m just so [redacted lest I get the cops called on me]

[tchaikovskaya]

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#I’m like mostly recovered tbh but the irreversible physical changes of weight gain are triggering the fuck out of me rn #and it’s worse bc I know they’re in large part due to [redacted] and it’s like my fault pretty much so I got no one else to blame! 🤡 #and knowing that every day I get older and every day it gets that much harder to lose the weight again bc that’s just what bodies do #I wanna d*e like. knowing I’ll never look the way I did before even if I never eat another morsel of food ever again #I know I don’t wanna go back to the way I felt and behaved when I did look ‘good’ like that but just. idk something about knowing I can’t g #*get that back no matter how hard I might theoretically try to in the future. I will always look inferior to that now #helpppppppp I’m just so [redacted lest I get the cops called on me] #ed tw