#he's kind and compassionate and literally just a Perfcet Guy™️

[maybebi47]

sometime i sit there and think, will anyone ever love this body of mine? will anyone touch this body of mine before it rots away? will anyone ever look at it with love? desire? and see what i do not see in it? will i never be this lucky?

#im thinking about this lately its killing me #i have only ever loved and been loved by long distance people #there is this particular couple online #i have been watching the guys content lately and he is absolutely perfect #he's kind and compassionate and literally just a Perfcet Guy™️ #he has a wife that he adores more than the whole world #his instagram is literally just her pictures from his pov #perhaps the most loved woman on earth #and there is this odd pang in my chest this heaviness every time i see their love which is soooo strange to me #as im not the kind of person to parasocially fall in love with someone i dont even have celebrity crushes #but then i realized why #she has my body type she's fat like me she's an ordinary girl #i thought no one fell in love with girls like us #so yes eventually i realized im not jealous of her im jealous of how lucky she is to be loved by someone good #how lucky it is to find someone that looks at your body and desires it more than anything #but to also look at your soul and want you even more #i wish that for me more than anything #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk #personal