#he really loves marine biology and hes trying to volunteer w the salt water team

[lady-ika]

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#ika's rambles #idk if it qualifies but just in case #ika's self pity corner #i cannot believe i have a crush on my coworker i need this gone #esp since today was my last day like i probs won't see him again bc im terrible at remembering to text people #like we exchanged numbers despite having teams #but i think bc we're friendly #but also i think about how he bought me a whole bag of lil stuffed animal keychains bc the one he was originally gonna get would be #expensive for just one and he wanted to give me more than that #and how he hugged me really tightly #and see him look at me often from the corner of my eye #but i also know he is just a friendly guy and v kind #but i also know hes not looking for anyone bc he said so #and got out of what sounds like a traumatic relationship #he is just the most guy guy ever bc he's like? the most average person ever /pos #he really loves marine biology and hes trying to volunteer w the salt water team #he also really loves video games and wants to get into cosplay #and i mentioned we should go tk an arcade sometime or maybe i could meet him at a con #he sounded interested #but i dont really want to think about what ifs #i just know im really lonely and fucked up and my brain attaches to anyone nice to me #so i want these feelings gone #but also. i want to hold this little frog keychain as tight as i can #idk i like him a lot but i also. dont know him #id never make a move bc im a coward and also bc he said hes not looking #but sometimes when we'd sit next to each other he would smile at me and id feel different #idk im just rambling im hoping this will get rid of those feelings #anyway i feel like i cant talk about this to anyone bc like. everyone has actual issues to worry about #they don't need to worry about my stupidass