#he is just stuck living in a place where he isforced to never get “better”

[sanjarka]

listen, as someone with a father with bipolar disorder, who at certain times in my life, especially when i was quite young, like at 10 or 14, wasn't able to be there for me because he wasn't there for himself, i need you all to be kinder to katniss's mom. the woman wasn't cruel. she needed help. katniss is forever going to be traumatized by that experience but there is a path to forgiveness. she grows up at the end and so does her mom.

#was seeing my dad manic easy #no #did he say hurtful things to me my mom my sister #yes he did #was i scared and at times wanted him gone or to hate him #yes #i am ashamed to have ever thought that #but i did #because i didn't understand and the adults around me were unfortunately uneducated in the topic #but i laugh with him now and i love him and i know he wasn't cruel on purpose #is it the same like it was before #no there is pain and trauma and things we will probably never get over #but our relationship is alive and important #he is just stuck living in a place where he isforced to never get “better” #allowed to either be extremely depressed or extremely manic #with no in-between #he deserves more than a five minut talk everythree months with a doctor that doesn't care causehe isn't being paid enough to #so it can't be fair of me to expect more than what he can offer #and is this situation fair to me? #well i guess not but what am i supposed to do #he's my dad and i love him and miss him #thg #katniss everdeen