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WHAT IF CHAPTER 5 DIDN’T END WITH KOKICHI’S DEATH?

WHAT IF KOKICHI SURVIVED THE KILLING GAME?

I’m not joking when I say I am still writing this AU out. It has passed over 3000 words. BUT I thought that to accompany my D.I.C.E group artwork I would include at least the first part for you guys! It’s under the cut.

SPOILERS - OBVIOUSLY

After learning the supposed “Secret of the Outside World” Kokichi’s already latent obsession with the killing game and unearthing its mastermind went into overdrive. He wanted to find the true identity of the mastermind, and kill them so that the rest of them might not have to commit murder again. But he was also aware of Miu’s plan to have him murdered in the virtual world, and as such conspired with Gonta to kill her, ultimately leading to Gonta’s execution in the fourth class trial.

The trial, however, has a profound impact on Kokichi, who already has a fractured mind as a result of his troubled “past” (as he believes his past to be real), and he decides that to rat out their mastermind he must take drastic action. Just as the trial ends, he lets his grip on sanity loosen, allowing his mind to wander into madness and despair just enough to convince the others that he is the true mastermind. Using the exisals to his advantage to further “prove” his role in the game.

But everything changed the moment Maki interrupted his plans for Kaito. Kokichi’s delirium was shattered the moment he was shot in the arm by Kaito’s crossbow, taken by surprise that he had gotten a weapon in without him noticing. It’s further broken as he takes a second arrow to the back, laced with powerful strike-9 poison, courtesy of Maki. His focus turns away from the mastermind, and to his own life and fear of death. Kokichi’s mind begins to deteriorate, partially due to the poison and also due to the overwhelming fear of his own mortality. So caught up, he almost fails to register Kaito blocking Maki from killing him by taking the arrow himself. Maki had intended to kill Kokichi for killing Kaito, but now faced the possibility of becoming the blackened for both Kokichi and Kaito’s murders.

She left to fetch the antidote, leaving Kaito and Kokichi alone. Knowing that Maki will save Kaito over himself, Kokichi confesses his plan to create an unsolvable murder to Kaito, forcing him to be compliant and showing him all of his preparations. Even if it means dying, Kokichi remains determined to end this killing game. He’s ready to accept death, already feeling the effects of the poison taking his system.

However, just as Maki returns and throws the antidote in, Kaito succumbs to the poison. Unable to take the antidote and marking Maki as the blackened. Though he doesn’t show it, Kokichi is furious his plan has been ruined, now the killing game will only continue. Determined to at least not make it a double murder, and with the hope that he might get a second chance to end the game, he snatches up the antidote and drinks it. Thankfully no longer dying, but badly wounded and internally damaged.

The event leaves him with a scar in his arm from the first crossbow bolt, a deep round hole. The one on his back is far worse thanks to the poison. A deep circular scar with a spiderweb vein pattern across his shoulder blades from where the poison began to spread through his system. Kokichi doesn’t ask for help from any of the others with his wounds, however, barely speaking to any of them until the class trial.

During the trial all fingers are pointed at him, including Maki who is desperate to defend herself, Kokichi is overcome with survivor’s guilt. Even to the point where he begins to agree with Maki, lying cheerfully that it was he who killed Kaito, to take the blame. At that moment all he wants is to get away, even if it means he will die in the process. Throughout the trial his grip on truth and lies slips further, and by the end he dissolves into quiet giggling - the others assuming that he has actually lost his mind completely now. They’re not far off.

Shuichi, naturally, uncovers the truth of the situation and Maki is voted as the true blackened correctly. This marks the second murder that Kokichi has been complicit in and the guilt overwhelms in, especially during Maki’s execution. In a moment of genuine emotion after her death, Kokichi confesses everything to his surviving classmates - including his feelings towards Shuichi and his plans to outwit the mastermind. He’s overcome with regret that he failed and it has cost everyone so much. Crying out that he knows the others must hate him, it is the last words he gives the others before he storms out of the courtroom.

Kokichi is forced out of his purposeful solitary confinement when K1-B0 begins to destroy the school, taking cover in the main entrance it is the first time he has seen the others since the trial. Instinct keeps his optimistic, lying persona alive and he pretends to be just fine despite the ongoing destruction around them all. Kokichi agrees to assist Shuichi, Tsumugi and Himiko in finding the truth and helps with the investigation. The discovery of his Ultimate Lab actually brings him immense comfort, and he’s almost distracted until dawn looking through all of the items left for him. D.I.C.E felt real, and that brought him comfort.

Unfortunately, this changes during the sixth and final trial. As, along with the others, Kokichi learns his entire past was a fabrication by Team Danganronpa. Including D.I.C.E and, supposedly, his talent as Ultimate Supreme Leader, Kokichi’s entire existence is called into question. His already shattered sanity takes another hard hit, as Kokichi begins developing a disassociation from reality and severe anxiety and paranoia about what is real and what is a lie in terms of his existence. It is present throughout the trial, as he has to rely heavier upon lying to himself and to others in order to keep from breaking down. His anger is directed heavily at Tsumugi for her betrayal, calling her a liar and proclaiming again and again that he hates liars.

Like the others, Kokichi abstains from voting and thus is able to escape the fabricated world of Danganronpa and reach the real world. Though anxious as to what exactly awaits him outside, he agrees with the others that they must make the real world real for themselves. To Kokichi, this means he develops a strong obsession with reality, and feeling real. Fuelling his desire to possess things that make him real, be they objects or even people. He knows that he can never have Shuichi, and that Himiko won’t forgive him for what he has done, and as such he cuts himself off from his former classmates. A part of him believes there is little reason to assume that they are real to him anyways, and he feels no regrets putting them behind him as he leaves Danganronpa.

For a long while, Kokichi simply wanders about the real world trying different ways to cope with his madness and trauma. First is alcohol, one he assumes as the obvious means of escape. But one drunken experience swears him off it for good, loathing the loss of control he feels under the influence. Its for the same reason he does not consider drugs or any other means of escape through mind alteration. If there is one thing he can hold onto as being truth, is that his mind has been played with enough and he will do nothing to harm it further.

After much thinking, he arrives at his conclusion. Here in the real world he does not exist at all. There has never been a Kokichi Oma, no Ultimate Supreme Leader, and no D.I.C.E. All of it was a lie. As such, he decides that he must make himself real. Create Kokichi Oma in the real world and prove to himself and to everyone else that he has a right to exist there. That he is real and needed and wanted. This becomes his new obsession and from that moment he begins establishing himself in the real world step by step.

The first discovery, of all things, is fanta. At a little corner store he happens to see the bottles lined up in a fridge and has to hold himself back from shouting in delight. Something that was written about him exists, something he always believed himself to like could be true. With the little money he has gathered from pickpocketing (for the moment he does not see himself above such a thing, he is simply desperate to survive) he buys a bottle of grape fanta. Kokichi’s hands are shaking as he tries it for the first time, so determined that this must be something real about himself he’s excited to be able to prove it. He adores it, and the discovery gives him a much needed shred of hope and confidence that he can make himself a reality.

Thus begins his larger project. To become the Ultimate Supreme Leader and to establish D.I.C.E as a real organised group. Kokichi decides to begin with a base, so that his group has a foundation to be built upon, and a safe place for those without homes of their own. On the outskirts of the city is a large abandoned warehouse that he stumbles upon, along with the added discovery that the warehouse has several service passages under the city to key points. It’s perfect, and Kokichi immediately makes it his own. There are enough rooms for members to have their own room, for a kitchen, storage rooms, common room and more - Kokichi is filled with ideas upon finding it and feels his hope that D.I.C.E will become a reality increase. He also tries every passageway, painting the D.I.C.E logo on each entrance and directional arrows back to the base to help himself find the right ways. It begins to feel like it is his now, and that brings him immense pleasure.

Next, comes membership. Something that turns out to be very easy for Kokichi, as he convinces many of the city’s lost and forgotten that he wants to build a safer place for all of them. His personality, even if filled with lies and mystery, is appealing to those looking for security. D.I.C.E, while still a criminal syndicate, becomes a safe house for those escaping pasts that haunt them, and the members are quick to accept Kokichi as their Ultimate Supreme Leader. Even going as far as to explain that Ultimate Talents do exist in the real world, so there is no reason to believe he doesn’t have one himself.

D.I.C.E has five rules:

No killing unless it is an extreme circumstance. D.I.C.E is to be a peaceful organisation.

No weapons inside HQ. They are to be stored along with uniforms and masks whilst inside.

Kokichi’s orders are absolute and not to be disobeyed.

Tea breaks are at 11am, 2pm and 5pm and are mandatory.

Breaking any of these rules, especially rule 1, results in immediate expulsion and punishment.

Kokichi becomes content that he has achieved his goal. Though he continues to hoard items to decorate his base and his room. He even, somehow, manages to get ahold of the waxwork of Rantaro and bring it back to hang in his office. He takes the biggest room, which the others are fine with, and works hard to fill it with the creature comforts he needs to cope. Including a personal fridge of fanta.

Though he still suffers from a long list of untreated mental health problems (Psychosis, Mania, PTSD, Depersonalisation disorder, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, OCD and NPD), building, or indeed rebuilding, D.I.C.E is an excellent coping method for Kokichi.

#My Darkest Secrets ✨HEADCANON✨#Petty Criminal ✨D.I.C.E VERSE✨#this has legit taken me #ages #and i still got more to write #for Tsubaki and then also Komaeda

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