#he also said he wouldnt care if id kms so yeah

[angxlcream]

making friends is so exhausting

#every person ive met has had ulterior motives #or was just a really nasty person #the decent ppl ive kept in my life barely hmu #i dont even think i can count them as friends at this point lol #gave up making plans with them since they never wanna do shit with me #i dont wanna sound like a whiney baby but its really exhausting trying to make friends #when more than half the ppl i knew have betrayed me in really horrible ways #my so called best friend in 2019 confessed he had feelings for me #and when i told him i wasnt interested #he seemed to accept that #i found out later that he shit talked me to my other friends behind my back #and told them something personal that i didnt want any1 else knowing #he also said he wouldnt care if id kms so yeah #im just so sad because i want to make genuine connections with ppl!!! #i care and give so much love to those i trust #but i find out later theyre just using me bc im nice ): #i dont want to change and become cold hearted #i have lots of love and i always will #i guess its just gonna take time to find the right ppl