#had to look up who it even was i forgot dklgh f shows how serious i was about that lmfAO

[ranger-kellyn]

you know like. in hindsight. the biggest evidence of me being gay and on the aro spectrum was like. in elementary school when all the other girls were starting to go through the whole "celebrity crush" thing with like...dylan and cole sprouse and zac efron and like. idk. jesse mccartney. i just remember always internally being like "what the heck are any of you even tALKING ABOUT" and then actually seeing them on tv or something and being like????? i still don't??? get it??????????????? and i remember just picking someone just to have an answer bc it was asked an annoying amount of times and not because i genuinely had any sort of crush on them and like.......

#pretty sure i just picked jesse mccartney bc i liked his song beautiful soul ldkjh #then when prince caspian came out in 2008 i switched to whoever the guy who played caspian- -ben barnes #had to look up who it even was i forgot dklgh f shows how serious i was about that lmfAO #(i always lied to myself with that one saying i wanted to be in susan's spot kissing caspian #but what i Actually wanted was to be in caspian's spot kissing susan) #(which used to be a hindsight for the gay thing but now i'm wondering if that was hindsight for the trans thing too lol) #talking tag #this has been sitting on my drafts for months but i literally talked about it with besties tonight so like #might as well lol