#guess what catagory all these men fit into | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

linktc86 · 3 years

Text

Mental Health Awareness ‘Lies.’

So i was on my way home last night, walking down miracle mile, enjoying my tea because somehow, winter allergies are a thing, and i got to thinking of my friend-count, my mental health and some of the things i’ve had to deal with because of me being different from everyone else.

you see, here’s how it is.

if someone needs to talk to me about their mental health. if people need someone to talk to, i’m the first one to offer, but the problem with me is, i go ‘if no one else will listen.’

Apparently, they’re willing to listen.

i deal with my depression differently than other people.

i sit down, in front of this laptop, or with my phone or tablet, write while watching a show or a movie and if someone wants to talk to me to help me through anything, i’ll talk to them.

but it just seems...like in a world were now people are starting to take a focus on mental health, their only solution is only focusing on the ones who can get any guy/girl they want to get. only focusing on those who could have a ‘Reason’ to be depressed who have peer councilors.

here’s an example. i work with a guy whose secondary job is a councilor at the community center for LGBT+ youth. out of all my coworkers i have, he’s the one i have the upmost respect for.

here’s the reason why.

a kid who comes out to his parents can often be disowned, thrown out, or ostrichized by their family simply for finding a member of the same sex attractive or because they identify as the opposite gender.

being in your teens is a transition between being a kid and being an adult. there’s going to be problems along the way with them personally because they can feel abandoned.

That’s where the councilors come in. they’re Angels. heroes. they take the hand and say, “Okay. i’m listening.”

however, my depression didn’t come from that.

no.

I’ve always been ostrichized for being different.

For my Imagination during the worse times, a career choice i wanted to follow. girls i’ve liked, how i lived, where i lived, what i’ve lived in and what religion i was a part of.

i grew up in a time where bullying was still a thing and where if you fought back you looked like the bad guy. i grew up in a time where if you fought back you got expelled, i lived in a time where if you told what was happening to you your parents and teachers said ‘Tell a teacher.’ and the teacher didn’t do jack.

i grew up in a time where if you had questions or were confused about your own ‘Personal’ identity you couldn’t confide in anyone.

heck. i still went through that in my 20′s because people would act like they were still in high school.

i grew up in a time where people had to tell you where you fell on the ‘Hot Scale’. where people had to tell you what they thought your life had to be like because of how you looked.

you had long hair you were creepy.

if you had glasses you were a nerd.

if you were a nerd you were going to be alone forever.

if you were creepy you couldn’t be told ‘Hey i’m here if you need someone to talk to.’

i tell people all the time ‘in the time of body positivity people still want to tell others how to look.’ everything from ‘Get a haircut cause with the glasses you look like your going to rape someone.’ ‘get contacts cause not many people find glasses sexy.’ ‘grow out a beard cause real men have beards’

i’ve had to spend nearly 30 years of my life feeling like i wasn’t good enough for anyone.

i’ve had to spend nearly 20 years of it feeling like if i didn’t fit in with anyone, then i had to fall into the negative catagory.

writing and gaming was the only outlet i have where i can write my words, pour my heart out and deal with different outcomes of my depression without people knowing what i look like.

that’s why i think it’s important for people to focus on mens mental health also. we go through a lot. we feel like we’re not good enough for anyone, like we can’t have anyone love us and instead we need to get the ‘leftovers that no one else wants’ and everyone’s word is final. if someone say’s ‘You’re a creep’ you have to be a creep. if someone says anything negative about you you have to listen to them. even when you don’t they decide to go back to school and treat you like you’ve got the plague and you’re sitting by yourself at the table while others take the chairs away just to sit with their friends.

so i guess the biggest lie i’ve heard when it comes down to mental health awareness, is that ‘someone will always be there for me.’

0 notes

ramrodd · 6 years

Video

youtube

WHY ARE THERE NO ROMAN RECORDS OF JESUS?

COMMENTARY:

donwharrison

Like Jesus, Cornelius and me, you know Yaweh, Queen of Battle. If, in the line of duty, you have ever run to the sound of guns, you were responding to Yaweh, Queen of Battle. It's the nature of duty: Instant obedience and self-discipline. The sacrifice of Isaac is a study in the nature of obedience.

Everything Jesus does is in the context of dudy "For I, too, am under authority. I tell my soldier "Go!" and he goes. I tell his buddy "Come!" and I tell my Gunnery Sergeant "Do this thing" and it is done". Authority = duty.

Jesus is totally a "Be All You Can Be - Semper Fe! Do or Die - Ranger: Lead the Way" kind of guy. You have far more in common with him and Cornelius than you do with wimps like Richard Carrier or candy-ass Christians like John Piper, as a proxy for all the Salvation-Prosperty Spiritual-candy-ass-Pro-Life/Creationist Christians. And that is exactly the theme, tone and emotional quality of Hebrews: Jesus is the real-deal, the process theology He represents is the best religion of all religions and, well, it could get you killed, but get one for the Gipper.

I have been in a sky filled with helicopters and my recon platoon was ordered to secure the LZ until the next larger until began to flow in and begin to enlarge the perimeter so that more than one slick at a time could get in underneath the triple canopy. Another day in Paradise.

I was in the third slick. I wanted to get an intact squad on the ground before I got into the mix and that took two slicks with Charley Funk's squad and "Preacher" the shake-and-bake lay minister squad leader and his RTO and a crank and maybe a thump gun from his squad. We were hot and high about a month after the 4ID got back from Cambodia and everything in Vietnam was wearing out and everything we were going to leave behind would be scrap metal, but that was a bit in the future and on this particular day, some of the slicks could barely get their crew off the ground with a running start and the loads varied. I was in the third slick to see what was going on from the air before I got my nose into the mud and had to everything by sound. I had me, my RTO, my 4.2 FO and his RTO and a medic. That would put two medics on the ground and my medics could fight their way in and out of some incredible shit to get their guy doped-up, plugged up and on his way to dust-off. My squad leaders didn't need me if the shit the fan and I got to shot all the wounded prisioners we couldn't back haul and couldn't wait to turn over to our relief. My morphine was for my men and if killing prisoners was to be done, that's why they paid me the big bucks. Rusty Calley was being courtmartialed for wet work at the time and if anybody was going to be court martialed for battlefield management, here am I.O Lord: Thy Will be done. Dying by the sword beat dying by the cross, any day.

Do you remember how rifle fire from out of the swadows of the tree line looked like fire-flies on a soft summer evening? Or how the NVA tracers came up in a lazy slow motion arc until they whip past your toes, looking like fat green beer cans in the center of a green haze. Did it ever make you think of Jimi Hendrix? Fire a burst of six, right Gunny? Fire a burst of six and spit a little spear of fire every 5th round.

Getting shot at makes me crazy. It opens a little door of white hot rage in my consciousness and it doesn't go out until everybody shooting at me is dead. Combat was everything I hoped it woutd be. After I got back to the World and left the Army, I played rugby just for a taste of the intensity an hour a week.

Now, that's an example of a war story.

We've done some of the same stuff, you and I and you just got to do it longer. It is impossible to overstate how fucked up the Army was between Tet 68 and 1973, when Gen Sullivan authorized Task Force Delta which produced the "Be All You Can Be" slogan. I'm in the same business as the guy who coined the phrase and was the Army's Organization Effectiveness guru. He and I are the only people in the world doing what we do and he's dead. He was a Green Brreret and one of the writers of The Port Huron Statement, which was the organizing manifesto of the Students for a Democratic Society. If you were in Vietnam in 71, you would remember the SDS, a Trotsky-insurgency process in action. Frank Burns was in his senior year in ROTC and almost got thrown out. Frank and I were both Army brats and, growing up then, Counter-insurgency was the sexy career path and Frank just wanted to see if it worked as advertised. Remember the Police Riots in Chicago '68? That's how it works. Newt Gingrich was an army brat Frank's age and he copied the tactics of the SDS to become Speaker of the House and I've been dealing with that shit since I got back in 71 while you got to play USMC Gunny, and I'm trying to cut through some of the crap in the civilian world that is fucking with all combat vets to the tune of 22 suicides a day but if you'd rather cop an attitude because it feels so good to roll out your best Full Metal Jacket tap dance on any handy Jesus freak, you've earned the right. Just take your Richard Carrier anti-theist apologetics and Jesus-as-myth drivel to the Chaplain because I'm not interested.

The Gospel of Mark is a war story by a guy who was there and was a very skilled observer and intelligence network manager. Cornelius. Like Theophilus, Cornelius is probably an operational name. You know, a British general used the Bible to mount an infiltration of an army in a sneak attack and T.E. Lawrence refered to the Bible for similar clues throughout his career against the Turks. That's where Paul wandered around for thrity years or so. Richard Carrier ever mention that?

In your resonse that this post actually responds to, you compain that I called you out as an anti-theist without you mentioning it and tried to slander me as a psychic. Fuck you. First of all, I am, in fact, a little psychic. I learned to read cards from a Richmond psychic, Wray Parks Pearman. Before the crypto-Nazis who came to town with Reagan fucked things up, there were a lot of gypsies in DC and a huge wicca population in Northern Virginia and I just sort of picked this stuff up from some of the women I was partying with.

But that's another story. I couldn't major in ROTC, so I studied English and German Literature and Epistemology to fill the time between Leadership Lab and rugby pracice. Content analysis is the essence of Literary criticism and psychology the basis of character development. Looking at what someone writes and considering the texture of communication involved is all you do. "

So, when I run across an asshole statement like this "This apologetic is so flawed as to be almost laughable" in a forum generated by the content of of that video, bells and whistles go off. Just scanning it left the impression of an autodidact with an attitude I associate with evangelical anti-theists schooled in the apologetics of Ken Humphries and Christopher Hitchens and the sermonizing of Richard Carrier. I wasn't even guessing. I was interested if you would continue to try to disguise your orientation. You're the first jarhead lifer I've ever flushed out but it don't mean nothing.

Richard Carrier likes to brag that he can match SEALs with stories of sleeplessness. I'm an Army Ranger and I can't match their stories of sleeplessness. Sleeplessness is a design feature of SEAL training. It is merely a consequence of Ranger training. Carrier's essential tool of protocol for historic veracity is, basically, "Fake News" for anything that doesn't fit his narrative.

For example, you dismiss Tertullian as a 2nd century Christian apologist because he completely out-flanks Carrier's historical protocols on about three things and, well, vitiates Carrier's entire library.

The most interesting to me is how the lable "Christian" got to Antioch when it did. Like Slope, Gook, Dink, Slant-eyes and the other names we called the Little People, "Christian" was an invention of the Roman soldiers, referring to the organizing principle of that group of people as they saw it, in the same way the Roman soldiers call the Israelis "Jews" because they were from Judea or you called Arabs Ragheads and Camel-Jockeys when you were in the sand box. The followers of Jesus didn't call themselves "Christians" because they didn't think of themselves as Christians. They saw themselves as People of The Way. So, it was a very local slang for the amusement of the troops in the two legions stationed around Caesarea patrolling the trade routes in and out of Africa across the Gaza land bridge. And the Jews probably ignored the soldiers as much as possible and the soldiers spoke in Latin, tactically, and in pidgen Greek like our "beaucoup dinki-dau" Vietnamese we used to do business with the little people.

But the intelligence report that came out of Palestine and caused Tertullian to propose Jesus as a legal deity included the catagory "Christian" to differentiate these people from the rest of the Jews in the world. So the term "Christian" gets to Rome sometime between 33 and 37, when Tiberius dies and Pilate is recalled. Now, Pilate could have taken the term back with him Rome when he was recalled by Caligula, but the important thing is that the term was created by the soldiers in Palestine and it became current in Rome before it becomes current in Jerusalem, because, according to Acts, it doesn't show up for Christians and Jews until 45 or so and it shows up in Antioch, which is a very cosmopolitian city not unlike Tel Aviv, today and it isn't, yet, a common term among Christians in that region. And doesn't gain much currency any place but Rome in Roman records and not the Book of Acts or the letters of Paul. They term, Christian, is extra-scriptural, and the way it gets there is through Roman military channels.

In terms of Hegelian dialectical processes, that's pretty compelling history. Amen.

0 notes

ramrodd · 6 years

Video

youtube

Crucifixion of the Warrior God - Overview

COMMENTARY:

I know The One in 6 aspects, which correspond roughly with the 6 aspects of The One in the 19th chapter of the 19th book of the Protestant Bible. By The One, I refer to Revelation 4:2. I know The One in this aspect but without all 4 Living Creatures and so on. Just floating out there in space. It was an awesome experience I'd just as soon not reprise. The difference between fear and The Fear of the Lord is an important calibration in the Personal Pucker Factor. The fact that you can discern the difference is a result of the wisdom that was initiated in your personal experience by The Fear of the Lord.

Cornelius is the only person in the entire Bible I identify with. As an example of devotion to duty, Jesus and John McCain are in a common catagory of miliary virtue and, in the Epicurean habit of thought of combat soldiers, better them than me. I abandoned a military career because I was confronted with the probability that, if I was in John McCain's position, I would have taken the early out and never looked back in the example of MacArthur's escape from Corregidor. I was raised to be a professional soldier and I became one and I was confronted with a moral insufficiency in myself that the better part of valor counseled a civilian career.

Anyway, I have been convinced that Cornelius is the author of the Gospel of Mark and it is an update on the original intelligence assessment on the nature of Christianity as a military technology that compelled Tiberius to propose elevating Jesus to the status of legal deity, but the Senate refused for reasons not unlike McConnell's obstruction of Obama's efforts to fix the damage to the US economy from 36 years of Reaganomics which he inherited from GW Bush. According to Tertullian, this happened sometime before 37, the year Tiberius died. My guess is that the intelligence upon which Tiberius acted is the Roman content in the Gospel of Peter. The Gospel of Peter is the fushion of that intelligence, as a subject of intense interest throughout the Roman legions, and what Peter and the other Disciples were doing during the time in Mark 15 - 16:1 - 8. The Gospel of Peter is actually what became Peter's preaching after the encounter with Cornelius in Acts 10.

Cornelius is probably the centurion in Matthew 8:5 - 13 and Luke 7:1 - 10 are the same person, but not the centurion in Mark 15:39.

Both Pilate and Cornelius are creatures of the Praetorian Guard, Pilate on the same career path as Jules Caesar and Cornelius a career military servant-leader, the centurion class from which the modern republican NCO originated. In the Marine Corps, the centuriate class of soldier begins with the Gunnery Sergeant and tops out at Command Sergeant Major of the USMC. All the US military have Masters of Trade in this catagory. The centurion is a unique element of military structures at the time of Jesus and an essential component of Rome's operational cohesion. It's still true, today. After Tet 1968, the senior officers in the US Army were running around, bumping into each other like the Marx Brothers meet the Three Stooges, but without the choreography. The credibility of McNamara's Whiz Kids, whose agenda a particular coalition in the Army's political culture tied their careers to and, when that agenda blew up entirely in 1968, so did these guy's moral authority and what might be called orthodox orientation. They had been led astray by Robert McNamara and the Harvard Business Model and, for about 4 years, the US Army was without senior leadership. In Ken Burn's Vietnam, this period is reflected in the quote by the Army general that the Army was in the worst shape in his experience and then the segue about the troops being mostly draftees, with the editorial implication of the Oliver Stone version of Vietnam being that the draftees were the problem, which is why we now have an All Volunteer military: it is a monument to the failure of command during this period and the on-going slander of the devotion to duty of the young men who answered their country's call to arms in the true meaning of the 2nd Amendment kind of way. I was leading a platoon in the Central Highlands composed of almost entirely draftees just back from Cambodia. I was not drafted, my platoon sergeant wasn't drafted and a sergeant-sniper on his second tour wasn't drafted. My biggest problem was that I thought they were too agressive. I changed my mind.

And all during this turmoil at the top of the US Army food chain, it was just another day in Paradise for the US Army centuriate. When I say it took 4 years to turn things around, it didn't take the Army 4 years to know something was broke. A reason why I left the Army was because what was broke was a disaster waiting for me. I've had 47 years to chew this over and I did the wise thing to leave. If I had known then what I now know about myself, I wouldn't have missed Vietnam for the world, but I might have stayed in for another tour or two. Combat and the teams was the only place fit in seamlessly, but I left as soon as I could to avoid any possibility of staining my dad's service.

And all of this is context which informs my conviction that Cornelius was the executive editor of the Gosple of Mark which he prepared for a presentation in Rome. There are parts that are missing that suggests to me this was presented personally by Cornelius in Rome. The Lord's Prayer, for example. The format of the Lord's Prayer is the same as the Think Globally, Act Locally of the Army 5 Paragraph Field Order, which is a primary structure of the US Army Ranger School as a training process. Why isn't it in Mark? I think Cornelius wanted to keep it a proprietary secret of the Praetorian Guard until they understood what it was they had. Caligula was Emperor in 40 and regime change was already in the pipeline, but it was wise to be circumspect.

So, this subject the Warrior God interests me at a professional level. I am a commercial process consultant and my approach as to Bible, generally, is as a pagen professional soldier with a strong Counter-Insurgency background and combat experience. I agree with the observation regarding the Old Testament's martial flavor. Moses had a similar military education as Prince Harry and Queen Elizabeth and the books of Moses are obviously the product of a military staff as a field manual for cultural transformation. I don't know if the synagogue in Capernaum used the Septuagint or Hebrew, but Cornelius would have recognized Yaweh in the Bible from his own experience. Yaweh is the Queen of Battle and She is a feminine aspect of The One. When soldiers ride to the sound of guns, it is the ululation of Yaweh they obey. It's one of the things Cornelius understood about Jesus and authority. "For I, too, am a man under authority...".

I know Yaweh. I know The One. Jesus, not so much. He is opaque to me. He has assured me at several moments that I love Him, which comforts me. The Holy Spirit is male. Until I began to dig into the origins of Mark, I thought the Spirit of God and the Holy Spirit are the same thing, but they aren't. The Spirit of the Lord is pure, undomesticated spiritual energy that is part of the processes of Earth, especially weather systems. The Holy Spirit is male, as I say, and is very available to employ the Spirit of the Lord constructively for those whose faith is stronger than mine. I am content to accompany the Holy Spirit on the vision quest I began when I left the Army.

So, I am intrigued by the facial premise of the Warrior God, but I have been listening to this video for 44:31 minutes and he hasn't hooked me yet.

#transformingamerica Indivisible

0 notes