#good harmonia above some of those plans and thoughts are truly truly sickening to consider

[randaccidents]

Downside of rping such a messy, complicated, utterly insane maniac of an asshole of a character like Host: I cannot touch thoughts related to what Host might think about doing or planning when I want to wonder about the future of the rp with a ten foot pole unless I am already in character. Because his thoughts are so violently disgusting and disturbing that its begun to make me Physically Ill recently

#rambles #rp chatter #Im ok guys dont worry I noticed that it was hurting me after the first time #but I am sad that I cant plan his shit unless Im In A Session #like the point of the character is how insane and illogical he is #but at the same time good lord almighty #good harmonia above some of those plans and thoughts are truly truly sickening to consider #and thats what makes his eventual actions and decisions so fun to me #because its both easy and not easy to understand where he is coming from #you might know why hes doing something but the way he does it is just inane and doesnt help him in his goal