#ghost is furious - with the recruits and he demands their names - but first and foremost with himself

[natelia-aldelliz]

I just had two different thoughts (that's twice as many as usual!) :

What if Ghost decided to learn how to speak Gàidhlig as a surprise for his Johnny only to have him look at him awkwardly because "sorry LT, I only know a few words of Gàidhlig, my native language is Scots...."

".... So I can't call you maw rye?"

"..... Is... Is that mo ghràidh?"

"So you do know Gaelic!"

"I said I knew a few words!"

Or, what if it was a bad day, Soap is already feeling a bit distraught, stuck in his head, emotional, irritable, he has difficulty focusing (more than usual) and he can feel a headache coming. Remarks, teases, that he usually lets slide with a joke seem to cut him, deeper and deeper with each one.

Ghost doesn't notice. No one does. Because Soap does his best to not be a bother.

But then, Soap is talking about something he likes back home and Ghost cracks his usual "speak English" joke. But this time Soap freezes.

He wants to say "I'm sorry I'm speaking my native language, that your people, to this day, are trying to eradicate and ridicule", wants to lash out, be mean, but he doesn't.

He just smiles a little, without his eyes, and tells everyone that he's going to bed. Because he knows that it's not fair to now be mad about something he usually jokes about. Deep down he knows that Ghost doesn't mean it like that, that it's their little inside joke.

But it doesn't keep him from crying in his pillow.

#cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #meanwhile ghost is panicking #he hadn't seen the signs beforehand but now it's not like he can miss them #he hurt his johnny and he doesn't know what to do #gaz tells him that it's maybe because some recruits heard them once and started joking as well #that soap speaking scots was just slang - just an accent - and that it was weird #that he should just speak english normally #they felt in their rights to do so because lieutenant riley was agreeing or at least they thought he was #and in the beginning soap just scoffed at them and made them run more laps but eventually it started to weigh on him #but he hadn't wanted price or ghost to know so he asked gaz to not tell #but now gaz felt like it had gone a bit out of hand and clearly has impacted soap more than he let out #ghost is furious - with the recruits and he demands their names - but first and foremost with himself #because he should have noticed #he should have told soap that his joking about his language came from the fact that he knew scots was its own language #and it was why he told him to speak english #but for now the problem was resolved with some tea (“fucking brits”) & cuddling & simon lending him his noise cancelling headphones #because he was very overwhelmed & gentle kisses on his forehead #the next day soap feels better and apologizes - which ghost refuses - and eventually the jokes come back #but just between them because they know they don't mean it