#for a long time I've been constantly repeating that there's Nothing morally wrong with xyz abc whatever

[mothy-moo]

Genuinely freaking out a little bit while trying to process that idea that i am, in fact, a person. And that lying to and being a dick to a person makes you an asshole. And that that would make someone who would be an asshole to me. Also an asshole?

#idk if that makes sense #saw a post earlier and it's difficult to process cause idk. #i cant process the idea that someone being unpleasant towards me would make them unkind? #like. it was a post about why assuming your friends are secretly lying to you is insulting and just. #idk. I'm probably not making any sense but. honestly when I've freaked out about thinking people secretly hate me it's never been like... #about the person being a bad person #because like. lying to a rock doesnt make you a bad person. because a rock isnt a person. #for a long time I've been constantly repeating that there's Nothing morally wrong with xyz abc whatever #and that people are allowed to behave however they want to me #and like. idk. i feel bad cause i feel like that may not be how my friends see it. #cause they wouldnt see me as a non-person. would they? #idk. I'm just really confused and struggling to figure things out right now. #it's not that I've been not mad when people are unpleasant to me. cause i have been. #but. i think maybe me refusing to view it as like. morally not okay. has unintentionally hurt the people i care about.