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Haha I admire your comittment to the theory, I stuck with it for a long time but I've been really down the last few days. I've been here from the beginning and I've never before been this worried that Robron would get over something, I mean I'm sure they will but will it be in a way that still makes me see them as the Robron I know and love. I'm praying for any theory right now tbh haha. -Puts in gif of Castiel praying for ages-.

Hi, anon. Haha thanks! I will happily admit I may just be in complete denial, but there is still logic there so until the time it becomes completely illogical, I’ll keep clinging on. I’m sorry to hear this storyline’s making you feel down, though. I know a lot of people are feeling this way, and I have to admit I was feeling pretty down after Tuesday’s episode myself. Although I haven’t been on tumblr that long, I’ve been with Robron from the beginning too (lifelong ED viewer and Robron are my favourite characters individually) and, as you say, it’s not the worry of whether Robron will make it through - because we know they will - but how. And how it will feel to us, because it has come to mean so much to all of us. I feel like my own positivity has been revived after tonight’s episode, though, so I hope at some point the same can happen for you.

The main reason I’m clinging onto hope of The Theory (or some variation of) is because I refuse to believe ED has suddenly become this uncharacteristically predictable, clichéd and messy. As I say, I’ve watched ED for a long time and this just doesn’t feel like them. There’s a lot of holes in the plot, as so many people have pointed out, but more than that it just feels like it’s lacking the depth and substance that we’re used to. It’s almost like the whole storylining and writing team couldn’t agree on the direction of the plot so they went on strike, and were hastily replaced with people who are now having to get to grips with that and the characters. Because that’s how inconsistent it feels right now, as much as it pains me to admit that. It doesn’t make any sense, and that’s why I just can’t accept it. Not yet, anyway. But I completely acknowledge that it may just be my long-term loyalty to, and love for ED in general that means I have too much faith in them, maybe. (I hope not, because I find that prospect more disappointing than the actual storyline, really.) But that still doesn’t change the fact that there is something missing, and just really random things - clues, even - that must surely be connected..?

There’s the silence. The silence is odd.If the storyline was really going the way the narrative is leading us to believe, and the fandom was falling into disrepair with many choosing to stop watching the show altogether, surely there would be some message to placate the fans? They were more than happy to put a placating tweet out when the fandom was stressing over the spoilers, so why not now the storyline has actually become fact? Unless it isn’t fact… Unless there is something more… Unless there is a twist… And the fact that we haven’t had any quotes from Emily or Ryan, or even Danny, is extremely odd. All right, maybe there will be quotes from Danny and Ryan with the reveal - but that would imply the reveal is the big part of this storyline, not the pregnancy. I honestly think it is this silence which is making us all find this situation so perturbing. We’ve grown used to ED interacting with the fandom. And maybe it had become too intense and the lines had become somewhat blurred, but to go from continuous - almost non-stop - interaction with the fans to nothing? That’s a major factor in why we’re all finding this storyline so unsettling. And I can’t really understand the two extremes - unless something big is underway?

The pacing is just ridiculous - are we honestly supposed to expect a storyline this fast-paced to go on for months? I can’t see it, myself. Then there’s the actual narrative itself. We could discuss The Theory and what even may or may not have happened on the night of The Incident until we’re blue in the face. The fact is, things still don’t add up there. And probably won’t until the final pieces of the puzzle slot into place - if they do. But even beyond that, there’s holes. Rebecca’s adamant it’s Robert’s, fine. I’m not even going to bother discussing that. But we’re slowly getting to see more of what’s going on in her head, but vitally, we have never once been shown any of the action from her perspective. There’s a complete difference between seeing her emotions and seeing her point of view, and I’m wondering if this is intentional? We’ve found out about what she’s been through in the past; it’s now abundantly clear that there’s more than one reason she can’t just let go of Robert. Crucially, aside from Rebecca’s scenes with Ross and Vic, we’re seeing the whole of this storyline from Robert’s point of view. And that gives me hope - that potentially this is leading to the breakdown that so many of us want to see because it’s what he needs for his emotional development as a character. And that fills me with even more hope about what I believe is the whole point of this storyline. Because the one thing that has been indisputably clear throughout this storyline while the rest of the plot has become hazy, is the reaffirmation of Aaron and Robert’s overwhelming dependency on each other. Their entire happiness and wellbeing depends solely on each other. We’ve seen it in so many ways, even the counselling session where Aaron couldn’t stop looking at Robert. He needed him, he takes his strength from him, and the suggestion of doing something he enjoys or which makes him happy simply made him think of Robert. Because his happiness is entirely dependent on that man. And while I know many are unhappy with the inconsistent writing of Robert and feel like his wondrous character development is in jeopardy, I have to disagree with some of the thoughts on this. Yes, I have some concerns at times because I love this Robert, I love Aaron’s Robert. But to me, what we’re seeing with his behaviour now is his dependency on Aaron. The idea that Robert might lose Aaron? The one person he’s ever needed himself? The one person who enables him to be himself and like himself? It’s unthinkable to him, and he’ll do “whatever it takes” to stop that from happening. Because nothing has ever mattered more to him than Aaron. And he does keep trying to change, to be better, because he wants to be the man that Aaron makes him feel capable of being, truly the best version of himself. And fundamentally, I believe this is the point. We’ve seen the boys can’t cope without each other, at all. We’ve seen that they’re both literally only half a man without the other. I believe the point of this whole thing is to break them down and establish who they are on their own so they can then work out who they are together. They’re both incredibly complex, multi-faceted, three-dimensional characters, but I believe the difference is the audience (general, of course) is able to understand Aaron better. They’re able to sympathise and empathise with him. With Robert, it’s not that easy. Aside from his own idiosyncrasies of bottling up his emotions and never allowing his true intent beneath all the layers to match what we see on the surface, Robert’s characterisation has been inconsistent since his return in 2014. He was, essentially, brought back in as a two-dimensional villain. The show has gradually - and authentically, I feel - fleshed him out as a three-dimensional character. However, a certain level of inconsistency remains in that we’ve primarily only ever been allowed to see one side of Robert at a time. So I genuinely believe - whatever direction this goes in - the aim is to break Robert (and probably Aaron) down and rebuild him, showing us that all of his complexities co-exist, just like Aaron’s. To make them equal as individuals, characters and within their relationship. And then to rebuild that relationship on stronger (and healthier) foundations than those built during an affair, marking the beginning of a whole new era of Robron 2.0.

I don’t know how the Rebecca thing will go, whether there will be a baby or not. We can argue a case either way - because there are still options (yes, multiple) for twists. Like I said, we haven’t seen anything from her perspective. We didn’t see her take the test - could she have faked it? We didn’t see her inside the clinic, but we saw her outside so why not show us that scene?? Unless there’s something else going on… The month comment was weird, I don’t know how it works but having seen this situation portrayed in ED before I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the case with Kerry or any other female character… Maybe she isn’t pregnant. Maybe she’s further along than she thought. Ross made a comment to Pete “You’ve never been good with maths” while looking at Rebecca’s name on his phone - maybe this was a sign? And then there’s the Adam theory if anyone’s still into that… Out of the three young couples, the only person who wasn’t there for the reveal, who doesn’t know, who happened to find the test and think it was his wife’s, whose said wife hasn’t yet told him that the test wasn’t hers and is actually Rebecca’s, who we’ve seen apologising to his wife etc etc., is Adam. Who knows, there might be something in that yet. Particularly now Ross is out of the equation, so it would actually be a triangle…

There’s so much more I haven’t even mentioned, but I realise this has got ridiculously long and I don’t even know if my ramblings are remotely helpful to you?? So sorry haha! All I would say in regards to the future of Robron is that while my faith may waver occasionally over ED and the plotty storylines, I 100% believe in the magic that Danny and Ryan create. And I wrote a post to this effect after The Incident, but while Danny and Ryan are still doing what they do best, I don’t believe that magic is going to go anywhere. And I do believe Robron will get through this, stronger than ever. Ultimately though, we all have to do what’s best for ourselves - whether it’s taking a step back from the fandom or the show in general, surrounding ourselves with like-minded blogs on here, draining ourselves by trying to work out what on Earth this plot is, or just plain old living in denial and theories. And if this ramble hasn’t been too much, you’re more than welcome to message me again. Even if you just want to discuss daft theories because laughing about the mess makes us all feel better. I’ve recently ventured into sci-fi parallel universes and time travel to try to make sense of this plot, so pretty much anything goes really. :)

#Robron speculation #The Theory speculation #honestly I'm so sorry this became so long #and I've no idea if it even makes sense or is any help haha #Robron

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