what am i supposed to do?
is this my first lester-centric bit? maybe it is (even though i cant help but talk bout the terrible twins). i love @early20sfailingplenty dearly which is why i am inflicting this on her. this is a sort of dark!lester i guess? a lester who knows the twins are fucked up but isnt going to do anything about it. warning for angst and murder mentions.
Lester loved his brothers, he supposed, as much as anyone loves their family.
The sun is still barely above the horizon as he leaves Ambrose, having left the twins with a racoon he'd scrapped up off the road about 10 miles outta town. It was still in fairly good condition and not even close to the meat spoiling in the sun. It'd feed them for a day or so.
Lester had to skin and debone everything for Bo and Vincent or else they'd never eat it, both too squeamish to even go near the carcass let alone prepare it for cooking. So, Lester does it, out in the yard while the twins watch from the back door. Bo gags and Vincent laughs, before catching sight of the entrails that Lester is pulling from the inner cavity and turning away.
He warns them about cooking the meat properly and they grumble in response.
(We're not children, they say.)
Lester smiles cheerily and hops down the steps of the front porch, jumping in his truck and pulling away. Bo and Vincent watch him from the door, absently elbowing each other as they struggle to fit both of them in the door frame.
Lester glances up at the rear-view mirror a few times as the house fades into the distance and finally his smile can drop. He leans back heavily in his seat, hands clenching and unclenching on the steering wheel.
The shit he puts up with.
There was a long day ahead of him. Hours of back-breaking labour, and for what? Minimum wage and the pick of the roadkill?
It was a shitty job, for shitty pay, and people always had to voice their shitty opinions on the matter. But it was more than that, always had been. He got this job when he turned 18 and he couldn't stand being at home anymore. He worked for six months before he saved enough to buy a run-down trailer and get the hell outta dodge.
Even when he ached to the bone and his electricity got cut off, it was better than Ambrose. Better than the loneliness of a dwindling town and a house that felt like a foreign land.
Lester loved his brothers, he supposed, but more than anything, he felt sorry for them.
They weren't ever going to get away. Ambrose had a hold on them, like it did for anyone who stayed too long. But Lester wasn't stupid, not in the slightest, and he got out while he still could.
After the twins finished high school, Bo was borderline agoraphobic. Whether he couldn't leave town, or was just happier not to, was up for debate. Either way, he never strayed more than 20 miles away, unless Vincent came with him. Vincent himself wasn't much better, moody and sullen for weeks after he dropped out of college, but glued to Bo's side all the same.
When Lester was a kid, he hated the twins as much as he loved them. It was always Bo and Vincent. And then Lester made three. Except it was never three. Three was a crowd.
Now, he was ambivalent at best. Now he had a life of his own and he didn't need to third wheel with his brothers anymore. What did they have that he would even want?
They lived in a goddamn ghost town, surrounded by corpses and barely surviving. They were letting themselves rot away and they didn't even notice. Or didn't care. Happy to while away their days, talking in a language no one else could understand and making plans they knew they'd never be able to fulfil. Lester didn't know anymore. Didn't care anymore.
How could he?
He did his bit to placate them. Lured people in and kept the twins fed, in more ways than one.
Lester could spare them some time, he supposed, safe in the knowledge that he wasn't trapped. That the town hadn't gotten him. That the twins, in all their ruthless, reclusive, self-sabotaging glory, hadn't got him.
No, they'd never bring him back. Not now.
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