#explain myself bcs i cant create any drama in this class bcs of xyz reasons

[ghostdog1999]

so i had an assignment for the class with that girl in it today but after that msg yesterday i literally felt physically ill and i havent been able to do it. i fell asleep while working on it and i woke up at like 2:30 am bcs of such a horrible violent nightmare i was like crying and shaking and just couldnt get myself to continue. class is at 6:30 anyways so it's not like i got much more sleep and now i'm in class and idk what to do the assignment is a presentation and people are presenting and i first of all dont have anything to present but i also really dont feel comfortable presenting in this class rn like she's saying such stupid shit and like knowing she's......you know. racist. doesn't make me feel very comfortable in this class i don't feel safe even tho she assured me i should feel safe because uhm idk? she said there's no issue so why would i ^-^ a person of color ^-^ not feel safe in a class where a white woman used blackface and has a history of being racist ^-^

#anyways i've handed in literally every single assignment on time this semester i've done everything but i was at my limit yesterday #and i'm still going to have to do it but idk if my teacher will even be able to understand and i'm just constantly thinking i cant even #explain myself bcs i cant create any drama in this class bcs of xyz reasons #i'm saying drama bcs that's how other people see it #it's not drama to me obviously #personal #racism #antiblackness #<- for blacklisting reasons