#especially when he speaks his old name into existence with abigail and miranda….

[fellsoleander]

oh nothing just thinking about that period between xvii and xviii where flint wakes up alone in a cell, his partner’s blood drying on his face, and realizes with a terrible clarity that nothing will be the same ever again

#I NEED TO NOT BE HERE RIGHT NOW. #that implied time makes me feel the worst things in the worst way. #i understand now why yall were saying that miranda wasn’t the only one that died that day #rocking back and forth and thinking about how hard he tried to be james mcgraw this season. #if anything the constant flashbacks to his past indicate that he’s still hovering between his two identities #especially when he speaks his old name into existence with abigail and miranda…. #he hasn’t forgotten it. he doesn’t want to forget it. he doesn’t want to reach that point of no return #and in charlestown he was willing to act the part of a muzzled dog if it meant he wouldn’t be seen as just captain flint #but a muzzled dog is still an angry dog and when you take away the thing it loves… #cries so hard i throw up #black sails #james flint