#especially aince neil is suicidal In Text and thay lends to a lot of... idk ways to flesh him out or whatever

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Man I haven't watched The Young Ones in so long but I clicked on a link to an episode and as soon as the theme song started playing I felt over the moon.

2 thoughts I had -

1) the way vyvyan interacts with Mike is honestly my favorite dynamic on the show.

2) I feel like... idk if it's fair to say, but at least back in like 2014/2015 I was a Recognizable Name in the TYO fanfic crowd and I'm not sure if people still read my fics but for a glorious little while I was The Neil Guy

#of course i now want to delete all the fanfic i wrote possibly ever but deifintely before the age of 24 #except my Reverent Neil Deep Dive: Heavy #i think i had some fun ideas for things to write and i had a good time writing them but ALSO #i think a lot of it is cringey to me now as the person who wrote it either #because it absolutely doesnt go with the show at aaaaalll for genre reasons or otherwise #or because like.... i think its weirdly written and the subject matter isnt something id write anymore if that makes sense #honestly its probably a mixture of both #needless to say the only one i still like is Heavy and even that is pretty rife with flaws #but most of them are technical #i dont think its inherently dumb to write a serious fic for a non serious source material #especially aince neil is suicidal In Text and thay lends to a lot of... idk ways to flesh him out or whatever #but yeah. i just know that if i qas approaching it now it would be a lot different #i think i handled it well for what i knew at the time #the character appeals to me for a lot of reasons #but rhe main draw to me as a teenager was using him as a proxy to think about depression suicidal thoughs panic and anxiety and .. #and more things if you read Variety or one of my other series #but yeah anyway i dont even properly remeber what im talking about anymore #i could have honeslty juat made a post talking about rhe disconnect between me and my old works but #i dont think anyone wants to see that so #im making it volumtary by putting it in the notes of my own post lmao