#erm uh. i havent worked on anything in a while cuz unfortunately for me life is happening all at once rn BUT hopefully in a few weeks ill

[styxpenz]

not to be a little bit self obsessed but i just reread one of my wips and AOUGH....... i dont remember if the double meaning was intended but god....

"It takes a great deal of trust to lose it like that in front of someone, and Gatsby likes to think Nick would do the same if it were him.

(He thinks back to tea with Daisy. How anxious he’d gotten that he’d rather run out into the rain than to face her, and how Nick had *still* let him in.)

He decides to stay the night."

like. yes nick still let gatsby in after he ran outside and got Soaked, but he still. let him in. nick saw gatsby at what was, at that point, his worst, soaked to the bone and terrified at the notion of seeing the woman hes been obsessing over for 5 years again, and nick still let him in. he let him into his house, he let him into his life, enough to trust him enough to have a *panic attack* in front of him.

and realizing this, gatsby spends the night. its the little things, like your neighbor letting you back inside after you run away, but its also the big things; like your friend *trusting you* to see him at his worst after hes seen you at yours.

this might also be the moment gatsby realizes hes in love with nick but were not there yet

#IM SO INCREDIBLY REGULAR ABOUT THESE TWO. ITS BEEN EXACTLY 3 MONTHS BTW. #styx says #snippets #and the poor get laid off #fun fact this fic was Also gonna just be a one shot and then it turned into this. this is like the 3rd or 4th chapter idk yet but. augh #erm uh. i havent worked on anything in a while cuz unfortunately for me life is happening all at once rn BUT hopefully in a few weeks ill #have Something done. maybe. #erm uh. sorry if this ends up in tags btw. it Shouldnt but tumblrs a shitty website so i wouldnt be surprised. looks at my gay people pleas #nick even says a slur in this chapter..... 2 actually... pspsps.... sdhfjs sorry. anyhow