#episode 98 ?? and then black sea arc

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feeling generous heres a old Gillion thought:

his favorite color is brown. we all know this, and maybe judge it slightly. but i think theres something beautiful in that. i think about the first thing he sees that isn't blue is brown, the ship next to him, a hand reaching to him. and that starts a chain reaction for him.

Gillion loves brown because it's the color of Chip's hair, and the color of Jay's freckles. And before he knew what orange was, brown was Jay's hair and Chip's eyes, something that would remind him of the final burn of a fire, as embers flicker off into dark. And brown is the color of dirt on Chip's hands, and oil on Jay's clothes, and the color of all the ropes on the ship and somehow, such a mundane color is his to enjoy.

And when Gillion reaches land for the first time- Brown is the color of wet sand that used to look so blue. and Brown is the color of dirt and mud and trees, and is the color of houses and copper coins and rusted metal. It's the color of barrels and beer kegs. It is the color of tanned skin and he is hesitant to say he sees brown in peoples laughs, just as he saw blue in tritons.

Brown is the color of withered leaves and wilting flowers and drying grass, it is the color of dead and dying things. It is the color of Kuba Kentas stripes, and it is the color of dried, human blood, and he finds that infinitely beautiful. He sees those all as signs of life, that there once was something, and he knows that they once were something. And he will stubbornly keep those things alive to him, in his memory of browns.

When he learns what Chip and Jay's favorite animals are, their favorite flavors, he guesses that they are brown. They must be, because brown is such a beautiful thing, and his dearest friends deserve that.

(In the black sea, as he is staring at the hollowed, he can't help but try to find brown. There is none. It's ugly. And when Chip dies, he looks for brown, and when that tree dies, he looks for brown, and it's such a comfort to him.)

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