#emmerdale is a trash heap

[echofades]

Charity and Vanessa were one of the only f/f couples on television raising children together. It was the kind of representation desperately needed for wlw to look up to and see that families like that could actually exist. 

I cut Emmerdale a little bit of slack for having to undo some of that work when they had to write Michelle out - but I at least had hope that they chose to complete the adoption before the breakup for a reason. That even if Vanity were apart they’d still make sure to treat Johnny as Charity’s child, to give some consideration to the family that they build together. But no. Johnny’s adoption was relevant for all of a week (to give us scenes of Mack crying about it, I guess), and aside from a throwaway line or two it may as well have never happened at this point. Not a single general audience member would list Johnny as one of Charity’s kids if asked. I don’t know what will happen when Vanessa leaves for a second time but if she goes by choice I don’t even expect them to give Charity and Johnny’s connection a second though. And Vanessa’s relationship with Moses, or Noah, or Sarah? Well those bonds never existed at all I guess. 

And now, just to really rub salt in the would... Charity might have a baby with Mack instead!! The fact that it is wildly out of character for Charity to want another baby at this point in her life, when she can barely keep track of the kids she already has, should have me believing that she will go through with an abortion, Mack will be angry because he wanted it, and it’ll split them up. But this is Emmerdale in a post-2020 world. So I can’t wait for them to have her decide to keep the baby, and get emotional about how she wasn’t in a good place when she had her other kids, and now she finally gets to bring a kid into the world in a happy wonderful stable relationship. 

When Johnny was supposed to be the child she chose. The family she created with Vanessa was what she chose.

I have no words :)

#the way they had robert cheat on aaron with a woman so they could give him a baby was vile enough #and then had aaron think of seb as his own child only for him to be taken away never to see him again #now this #because fuck lgbt people and the families they can create together amirite #not to mention everything going on in the world right now in regards to abortion rights #if she decides against getting an abortion because he wants it....... #emmerdale is a trash heap #and hates women #<3

[butyouknow-iknow]

i think it’s just important to remember that they are both in self-destruct mode right now, like they have both hit their respective rock bottoms and the only way to go from here is up (putting the remainder under a cut because it ended up being longer than i thought it would be)

the last couple weeks speak volumes to aaron’s mental state. he’s being relentlessly abused in prison, and doing what he does whenever things get bad and he feels like he has no other escape - he hurts himself. we saw this when gordon showed up at the end of 2015. it is, unfortunately, how he’s coping - it’s an unhealthy, awful coping mechanism and i wish it wasn’t that way. but it is. and aaron’s done the worst thing he could do to robert - he pushed him away and essentially walked away from his family, their family.

and robert has turned to his coping mechanism - he got drunk, and he made a mistake. the worst mistake possible. he trashes his future home, and he reaches out to rebecca because he knows she’ll come, knows it’ll be easy to manipulate her into sleeping with him. because that’s how robert seeks comfort. he thinks he’s lost everything, his drunk brain has him convinced that there’s no hope for him and aaron, and he tells rebecca everything she wants to hear in order for convince her to sleep with him. we saw this back in 2015 as well (although, that time, it didn’t go nearly as far)

(and i do not want to put heaps of blame on bex here - she did try to do the right thing. just not as hard as i hoped she would.)

aaron’s coping with drugs, robert’s coping with sex.

now, hopefully, aaron is going to come completely clean about everything that is going on with jason and stop keeping things from his family, and i fervently hope that robert will come clean to aaron as well, regardless of whether or not they actually ended up sleeping together (something tells me there’s more to what happened today than what we actually got but i won’t get my hopes up). we already know he regrets it and tells chas, which is something he wouldn’t have done six months ago, and he wants to tell aaron - but whether or not he’ll actually get to next week remains to be seen.

and obviously, aaron is going to be livid, when he finds out (and unfortunately this is, i think, where those fight coordinators come in), but i do not think this will be the end of the road for these two. the emmerdale writers and producers are not suicidal. i think they will, eventually, overcome it. the worst case scenario at the end of all this will be robecca baby that they break up for a while, but i truly believe that these two will come out this stronger. i just really hope that this whole storyline will be the catalyst for aaron getting help with his mental health, and robert finally recognizing that he does have some issues with monogamy.

i read a post earlier that mentioned how robert was not remorseful at all during the affair - in fact, he was incredibly arrogant about it. we saw a glimpse of 2015 robert tonight, but i think 2015 robert ends tonight. reformed character robert sugden recognizes the gravity of what hes done and immediately tells the first person who will willingly murder him in aaron’s defense. he knows he’s done the worst possible thing and wants to fix it, wants to tell aaron.

and, in this, aaron is not entirely blameless. tonight it seemed like he was either going through withdrawals, or he was high, but either way he was volatile and angry and not paying attention to anything robert was saying, and he rejects him, coldly, before telling him he was useless to him and storming off. and i believe, fervently, that was just the drugs talking. that wasn’t the aaron we know and love.

and i do NOT in any way think that what robert did is excusable, but it is understandable. shit has hit the fan for him, all in the last 48 hours. he turns to the drink to cope, and he seeks comfort from the one person who he knows he will be able to easily manipulate into giving it to him, just to numb the hurt of everything going on, because robert feels like he’s failing. hes failed at keeping liv out of trouble, he feels like he’s going to fail at getting aaron home and aaron’s not doing anything to help himself, and he’s failed at keeping aaron as safe as possible on the inside. it’s not an excuse, but i genuinely believe that was the alcohol talking. sober robert would never have done this. reality (and a hangover) will hit him in the light of day, and we’ll get the full version of events tomorrow. i’m dreading it, and i’m furious, but i’ll get through it, and i’ll get past it. and i know they both will too. i don’t think it’ll be fast or easy, but i genuinely think there is light at the end of this tunnel.

#seriously though maybe it is just wishful thinking but i genuinely believe that there is going to be more to it than we think #idk what yet but i think there will be #robron #emmerdale #robert sugden #aaron dingle #rebecca white #free aaron dingle