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Bad Liar

I’ve had this in my drafts waiting to release it for Grimmjow’s b-day but I want to give you all something to read while I get the one-shots done ^.^ Grimmjow is probably waaaay ooc ;-; but I hope you’ll enjoy it anyways! ^.^

"...are you really leaving?" Grimmjow asked as his eyes were glued to the White ceiling, he could feel the weight on the bed shift beside him. 

"Mhm" he heard the girl say "It's not like I have a choice..". 

"Fuck if you don't" he drawled, closing his eyes "You can say no if you really didn't want to go". 

"..yeah, I could...but I don't want to stay stuck here forever..I want to travel and see amazing places...and If i stay here..even just for another month..I end up stuck here forever full of regrets like my parents" she said softly "mm...you gonna miss me, is that why you've been so quiet lately?".

 "...tch.." He let out, ignoring the teasing tone that laced her words "Fuck no". 

"...what're you going to do when I leave then?" She asked, he felt the bed shift again, this time it seemed she moved closer than before.

 "Work" he said as if it were an obvious answer "I have a life, ya know". 

"Mhm.." She hummed softly, he felt her hand rest on his face "You're such a bad liar".

 "...maybe" he let out with a muffled voice, lifting his hand and grabbing hers, pushing it away from him "Don't touch my face like that".

 "You're so mean" she said after a moment, shifting away from him. 

Grimmjow turned onto his side, opening his eyes and resting them on the girl who laid on the bed alongside him.

 He trailed his eyes from her silky hair, down to her beautiful eyes then to her nose, lastly her lips. His eyes lingered over them longer than he'd like to admit. 

"...Y/n" he let out. 

She hummed, she had her eyes closed, enjoyed the silence and the birds as they chirped outside of the window "What?". 

He sat up, hunching over a bit "..why the fuck are you still here?". 

"..what do you mean?" He heard her say "Where else would I spend my last day?".

 "I don't fucking know" he scowled lightly, "Anywhere but here. I told you already, I don't fucking care if you're leaving or not". 

"..you did say that.." She let out, "But I wouldn't forgive myself if I left without saying goodbye to you, so..sorry". 

"...tch..selfish bitch" he closed his eyes, hands clasped so tightly that his knuckles were turning white. 

"Just this once~" she laughed softly "You're my best friend after all...how could I not spend this time with you?".

 "I'm not your fucking friend" he said, turning his head to look back at her "Never was". 

"Just someone you happen to live next to, right?" She asked, a smile on her lips but she kept her eyes closed as she laid there "No worries..if you don't think of me as your friend, then just consider me the girl who lives next door and gives you free snacks at the store she works at". 

"..shut the fuck up" he sneered, suddenly on top of her, pinning her hands above her head "How the fuck can you say that?!". 

She opened her eyes, staring right into his blue hues "...then..the girl who you're gonna miss when she leaves?" She said, almost in a whisper "The girl who's gonna miss you just as much when she leaves?". 

"..why..are you doing this to me!" He seethed, shutting his eyes "You know damn well how I feel about you! Why the fuck did you come here if I told you not to!". 

"Because of all the people I thought about..you’re the one I'm gonna miss the most" she smiled, despite the tears that were beginning to fall "I don't want to leave without spending time with you". 

"You piss me off!" he half-yelled, plopping down and burying his face in her neck "So fucking much...you knew...but you keep coming back..you're so fucking selfish!". 

"..yeah..I know" she said softly, eyes glued to the ceiling "I'm sorry..for doing this to you, Grimmjow...if things were differe--". 

"Don't fucking say that to me" he cut her off, his fingers threaded with hers now "Don't..fucking say that...if you really wanted to, you could stay..and be with me..but you're selfish and a coward..". 

"Mhm~" she said sadly, "Very much so..but so are you...you should be happy for me. Happy that I'm going to follow my dreams..". 

"..fuck you" he muttered, his lips against her neck "Fuck you and the day you fucking met me". 

"If we'd never met, we wouldn't be in so much pain right now" she closed her eyes "But I don't regret meeting you...because with you..I've always been the happiest". 

"So fucking stay.." He said, moving away from her neck to see her better "Stop being so fucking stubborn and stay". 

"I can't" she let out shakily, bottom lip quivering from the sobs she wanted to let go "I can't...because if I do..I'll end up being nothing..I..want to..but if I do...I don't want to get old and look back and think about how stupid I was for not leaving...". 

"Stupid for staying with a nobody like me?" He asked. 

"Stupid for thinking we'd have a future" she whispered "You only want me because you've never met anyone like me..who knows if you really love me..should I really risk my future on that, Grimmjow? Do you even know yourself if you really love me? Or if you just want to ruin me?".

 "...tch.." He let out, going back to her neck "What about you? Do you even fucking love me?". 

"Of course, since the beginning..." She whispered, "Ever since I met you...but I know you, Grimmjow..and that's why I can't stay". 

"Just give me a fucking chance" he growled, "If you stay, I can fucking show you!". 

"You want me to give up my dreams? College? My job?...for you?...how could you ask me that?" She laughed softly, squeezing his hand "If you really love me...don't ask me that...". 

"I don't fucking love you" he muttered. 

"...and I don't want you either" she smiled sadly "It's okay...you don't have to miss me while I'm gone...when I come back, you can ignore me. Act like I never existed...yeah, that's better isn't it?". 

"Stop fucking with me" he scowled, "Stop...". 

They laid there longer than they'd like to admit, enjoying the warmth that was emitting between them, enjoying being so close to each other. 

"...Grimmjow..I should go now" she said softly. 

"...I'm not fucking done" he muttered "Talk to me more". 

"I'll miss my plane if I stay any longer" she smiled, pulling her hands from his own "C'mon..if you're going to miss me that much, I'll call you every day if you want". 

"I don't want to fucking talk to you every day" he sighed, lifting himself off of her and sitting up "..I won't miss your annoying ass". 

"Mhm" she said, sitting up as well "..you're a bad liar". 

"Fuck you" he let out, clasping his hands tightly again "Fucking go already". 

She hummed as she got to her feet, fixing her clothes as she walked towards the door. 

"I fucking hate you" he scowled, eyes glued to his hands. 

"Yeah.." She let out, opening the door. 

"Everything about you..you selfish bitch" he closed his eyes. 

She hummed in response. 

He got up from the bed, "Fucking leave and don't even call me. I don't care what you do, what happens. I don't care if you re sad or want to tell me about something that made you fucking happy. Fucking leave me alone". 

She nodded, turning around to face him.

 Her eyes widened as he was behind her already, his hands found their way to her neck and cheek, pulling her closer to him.

 He pressed his lips to her own, hungrily and yet still gentle, as if she'd break if he put too much into the kiss. 

He pulled away, both their eyes half-lidded. 

"...i wish I never fucking met you" he whispered, eyes filled with sorrow. 

She smiled after a moment, "I wish so too..". 

She pulled away from him, stepping out into the hallway "..you're a really bad liar...but so am I.." She smiled through the tears "..goodbye, Grimmjow". 

"Stupid bitch!" he managed to say as he slammed the door behind her "...fuck you..". 

"..do you still want me to call you?" He heard her say from the other side of the door. 

"For fucks sake!" He yelled, "If you don't, I'll hunt you down and kill you!".

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