#don't even know why my brain wanted any revenge in the first plane it's all so absurd

[galmiahthepigeon]

Oh I'm so embarrassed about the reaction I'm having to The News

#my friends Robin and Leo started dating recently. which would be wonderful if not for the fact that i like Leo. a lot #and it's stupid for me to be upset about this bc i was not going to get into anything with Leo anyways #I don't think they like me like that and i was content with things being platonic between us #but thinking that they like another person over me is making me feel bad. WHICH AGAIN IS SO DUMB #LIKE. I GET IT. I'M NOT LEO'S TYPE AND ROBIN IS. SIMPLE AS THAT. THAT DOESN'T REFLECT ON OUR VALUE IN LEO'S LIFE OR OUR VALUE IN GENERAL #I KNOW #BUT IT'S STILL UPSETTING ME LIKE CRAZY #I'M SO EMBARRASSED I CAN'T BE THINKING ''what does he have that i don't'' THAT'S SO LAMEEE AND IT'S A FLAWED WAY TO LOOK AT IT. #but wait the story is even funnier #bc one time we went out clubbing and Leo was doing this thing where he tries to make out with as many ppl as possible #he had gotten to 7 so i sad wanna make it 8? and they said yea and we kissed for a bit #AND APPARENTLY. I NOW FIND OUT. THAT ROBIN STOLE MY PICKUP LINE THAT LITTLE GREMLIN #AND THAT'S THE WAY HE ASKED LEO OUT #I'M GOING TO EXPLODE #even more embarassing #is the fact that my first immediate reaction to finding this all out was to think ''oh now i REALLY need to get into something with Draxx'' #Draxx is a friend that I'm kinda into. Leo introduced me to him at a party recently. #Leo does not have any sort of attraction towards him. so why did my brain plot it as some sort of poetic revenge? no fucking clue honestly #I'm upset and none of my thoughts are rational rn #don't even know why my brain wanted any revenge in the first plane it's all so absurd #big stupid feelings that I'm obviously not sharing with anyone involved #jealous and for what