#dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side

[storm-of-feathers]

damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence) #since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word. #he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank. #dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/) #but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!! #which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings. #WHO want to run in the forest naked with me