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#debating the Morality of even tag-venting on my own blog bc i don't want anyone to assume this is targeted
hellpupp
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11 months
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Big Sad
#kicks dirt
#idk how many times i can openly ask for what i need & just. not get it. before i've just gotta Stop bc it starts feeling pathetic
#and potentially even bordering on emotionally manipulative.
#debating the Morality of even tag-venting on my own blog bc i don't want anyone to assume this is targeted
#i just feel Deeply Lonely and like i have absolutely nothing going on in my life except work
#and just lowkey like.... Unseen.
#sometimes i try So Fucking Hard to have a conversation with people only to have 100% of what i say completely ignored me
#* in favor of a random meme.
#it starts to fuck with you after a while! makes you feel Uninteresting and Foolish and Annoying
#idk.
#i mean i also ran out of my (Extremely Rough Withdrawal) SNRI last week so like. that isn't helping.
#but it's more than that. i've been feeling like this for a while.
#it just. really sucks when you move & have no irl friends. no energy to make any new ones.
#and all of your long distance friends have A Lot of shit on their plates so you feel shitty and inconsiderate for even thinking of asking
#for. well Anything really. let alone some of their extremely limited time & energy & attention.
#like who tf am i to ask anyone
#let alone people who are all Very busy and struggling w/ their own shit
#for their undivided attention for a chunk of time they could be using to take care of themselves
#i don't want to feel invisible anymore
#but i also don't want to be a drain on the people i care about
#i hate Needing things
#i wish the depth of my love and devotion to the people i've chosen to care for was fulfilling enough on its own
#so i'd never need to ask for things
#having emotional needs is like. sooo gross & selfish of me tbh. :/' go the fuck to therapy holy shit u would Never say this abt Anyone else
#anyway. watch me delete this in 5 seconds bc the need to be seen & the mortification of being Perceived can & do coexist
#χ.txt
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