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#dat fearful avoidant attachment style
depraved-gf · 5 months
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You crave love and connection but you're also scared of being hurt again so you isolate and run at the first sign of emotional danger
...true.
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wanderinginksplot · 3 years
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Loved your Hondo and Aurra one, can you write something with cad bane being enamored by a new bounty Hunter or something of the like?
Okay, so this ended up almost a thousand words longer than I meant it to be! Still, I hope you enjoy!
The Bounty
Bane hated Coruscant. The whole cursed planet was a city and the teeming life made the reptile in him want to get as far away as he could and just curl up in the sun. But bounty hunters - even the best ones in the galaxy - had to work sometimes, and the Triple Zero had more prime targets than any other planet.
He was walking down a side street on one of the mid-levels in search of his current bounty. Despite Todo’s fretting, he and the droid were safer here than anywhere above or below. He had to give his target credit: they knew how to hide. The level was high enough that there was no need to watch your back just so no one would stab it, but disreputable enough that someone hiding from the authorities wouldn’t stand out.
Still, Bane was in a foul mood, and it was only getting worse as he continued to be unable to find his target. After he circled the same filthy block for the fourth time, Bane let out a blistering curse.
“Are you Cad Bane?” 
He whirled, hands resting on the butts of his blaster pistols as he cursed himself. How long had it been since someone had managed to sneak up on him? Too long to start making stupid mistakes now. 
“Who’s askin’?” he growled, scanning the dark alleyway. His red, slit-pupiled eyes adjusted better to the gloom than those of most other species, but even he had trouble picking out the speaker until they moved.
As the shadowed form stepped closer, Bane noted with some distaste that it was a human female. Duros had invented hyperdrives and had settled all across the galaxy, but it was the humans who were the most prevalent species. Nothing in the universe was fair.
This particular human looked to be nothing special. Her hair hung in limp strands - probably due to the humidity from the steam vents several buildings away - and her clothes looked like they had seen days in levels a lot lower than this one.
“I have some information for you,” she said, her voice pleasantly low and pitched to avoid being overheard.
“I’m sure,” Bane snorted.
“It’s good information,” she assured. “Worth a credit or two?”
“Dat’s not how dis works, girlie,” he said with a menacing chuckle, drawing one of the blasters and aiming in less time than it took to breathe. “Tell me da information an’ I’ll decide what it’s worth.”
She looked frightened, but nodded. “Th- There’s another bounty hunter after your target. I was sent to warn you that the guild gave out t-two biometric fobs.”
“Who sent ya tah warn me?” Bane demanded, absolutely livid. First, he was ousted as the Fett brat's godfather, and now the guild had issued another fob for his target? Ridiculous and insulting. Maybe that's why he was pressing the human female so hard, and why he hadn't put his blaster away yet. 
“I don’t know, I swear!” she answered quickly. “He just pointed you out to me, gave me some credits, and told me what to tell you. Please don’t kill me!” She fell to her knees with the plea. Her actual skragging knees. 
Bane shot her a disgusted look and holstered his blaster. In a few steps, he was at her side and tugged her roughly to her feet. She was heavier than she looked, but he had no problem getting her to stand - or keeping her close, even when she had started to struggle in an effort to get away from him. 
"Are ya lyin' tah me, girl?" She shook her head frantically, but he noted with a spike of deep-buried interest that she had glanced at his mouth. It wasn't uncommon for people to mix up fear and interest, especially on a lower level of Coruscant. 
Bane knew he had nothing to fear from this small human. He could read her every thought in her wide eyes and the expressions on her honest face. There was no reason not to have a little fun.
He pulled her closer, so close that the brim of his hat brushed her forehead as he continued, "So ya just thought to trick some extra credits outta me?"
"Uh, Master?" Todo chirped irritatingly.
"Shut up, droid," Bane snapped irritably as her gaze slid over to the techno-service droid instead of being fixed on Bane's own red eyes. He missed their weight, their heat. "D'ya know what I do tah people who try tah trick me?"
And there it was, her gaze flirted to his mouth again and lingered, just for a moment. 
"How ‘bout ya earn those credits a different way?" 
Offense crossed her face. "I'm not a-"
He lunged in for a kiss before she could tell him what she wasn't. 
Duros didn't put much stock in kissing as an expression of anything, but it was the best way Bane knew of getting humans in the right headspace for more… inter-species recreation. 
"Master," Todo said urgently and Bane fought a sigh. He hated the droid sometimes, but it was right. He had a target to find and now, there was a deadline.
He nipped at the human's lower lip with his sharp teeth and pulled away. "I've gotta go take care-a dis. See ya around."
She blinked up at him, looking rumpled and more than a bit confused. "But-"
"Master!" 
"Shut up, droid," Bane snapped. "Can't ya see I'm goin'?"
When he turned back, the female was leaving. Bane spared a single thought for her, wishing momentarily that he had gotten her name, but he had bigger things to focus on. He had to find his bounty, cause some pain to the guild member who had issued a second fob, and figure out why he couldn't feel the vibroblade in his boot.
Wait…
Bane patted himself down and found that he was missing the pouch with his credits, the vibroblade from his boot, and the tracking fob. 
"Master," Todo said again. "I've been trying to tell you: that girl was stealing from you!"
Bane hissed, whipping around to fix his gaze on the female. She was just rounding the corner of a building and saw him looking her way. Rather than the fearful look she had worn through their interaction, she grinned and sent a triumphant wink his way.
"Next time, just tell me!" Bane snapped, running after her. "Now I gotta track an unknown through da planet!"
"I traced the water from her hair while you were… occupied," Todo volunteered. "I believe she came from the steam vents three blocks west."
Bane changed directions and picked up speed, Todo soaring through the air beside him giving directions. At a certain point, he slowed, “I cannot go further. The steam will short out my circuits.”
“Fine, just wait dere,” Bane ordered over his shoulder. “Dis won’t take long.”
When Bane got to the steam vents, he immediately recognized the female's silhouette standing next to a nondescript, illegally parked ship. She was facing the opposite direction, speaking into a comlink hidden under her grimy sleeve. 
"Well, keep me updated," she said, clearly disappointed with the person on the other end of the line.
Bane was on her before she could lower her arm, twisting her around. However, her reflexes were better than he had expected, and she turned and kicked him away in the same moment. Still, Bane hadn’t lived this long being taken by surprise. He grabbed her shoulders as he was pushed back, and levered her along with him. In the end, his balance was caught by a wall, and his grip pulled her against him until there was not an inch of space between their bodies. 
"Gimme one good reason I shouldn't blast ya to pieces right now," he snarled in her face, one blaster already drawn and pressed to her temple.
Though this was a lot less friendly than the last time they had been so close, she wore a crooked little smile. “Because I can give back everything I took?”
“Yeah? An’ how is dat gonna make up fer da fact dat ya thought it’d be smart tah steal from me?”
The smile widened and took on a saucy look. “I think I more than made up for it back there. And there’s more where that came from. But first! Credits, fob…”
She hesitated before handing over the vibroblade. “I really like the knife. Any chance I could keep it?”
“I could shoot ya right now an’ no one would blink - least of all, me,” Bane hissed.
She pouted a bit, but passed the blade back. “Now, where were we?” she purred, moving as if to slide her hands up Bane’s arms.
Bane knocked her hands away and her comlink went off. She hit the button that allowed it to transmit, and Bane was less than thrilled, “I didn’t tell ya tah answer that.”
“We’re clear,” the comlink said.
“Who’s clear-a what?” he asked suspiciously, the end of the question muffled by the human female’s lips meeting his mouth once more. He obliged her, taking control of the kiss with a hand in her hair, holstering his blaster so he could use the other to angle her jaw.
“Bane,” she moaned at the contact.
Bane broke the kiss and tried not to pant as he said, “Ya got me at a disadvantage, darlin’. Ya know my name, but I never caught yers.”
“Oche,” she told him, giving a mischievous little smirk. “And that’s not the only thing you didn’t catch, bounty hunter.”
He was already furious by the time he tried to reach for her and found his wrists caught in magnetic binders, attached to the wall behind him. 
“Well, that was lovely,” Oche said chipperly. “I do wish I could stay longer. I would love to see if all the rumors about you are true.”
Her gaze drifted downward and Bane growled at her, knowing full well what she would find if she looked too closely.
“Anyway, looks like we’re both done here.” 
As she began to root through his jacket, Bane glowered. “So, ya were tryin’ tah steal my bounty all along.”
“Not really,” Oche said after a thoughtful pause. “It’s more like… a partnership. You found the guy, I got the fob, and Embo got the bounty.”
Embo. Bane should have guessed that the Kyuzo would be one to steal a bounty. He had already tried to steal Bane’s signature wide-hat style. Aloud, he just said, “And when am I gonna get my share-a da payment fer this little partnership?”
“Well, your portion was done on more of a volunteer basis,” she hedged.
Before Bane could tell her how little he cared about volunteering anything, she said, “I’m taking some of your credits, the fob, and the vibroknife. I really did like it.”
As she stepped away, Oche added, “Embo said to tell you thanks for the bounty. He didn’t know if he could find them alone, but you were a big help. And don’t worry, those cuffs will come off as soon as my ship leaves the atmosphere.
With that, she scampered off, climbed into her ship, and blew him a kiss goodbye through the viewport. Bane bared his pointed teeth at her in return.
Oche was right, though: the binders fell off only minutes after her ship had risen through the air. Bane spent only a moment glaring at the sky before he walked back in the direction of his own ship, lost in thought. 
Fett had Wesell, Embo had Oche, even Ohnaka had Sing. Was he the only bounty hunter left in the galaxy who still worked solo? Where was his apprentice?
“Master!” Todo cried, hovering beside the Duros’s face. “Did you find her? Did you get the target?”
“Oh, I gotta target, all right,” Bane said darkly. “An’ I’m not gonna stop ‘til I get ‘er.”
He would find Embo and Oche, he would get his money for the target he had found, and then… Bane and Oche would finish what they had started. 
Whether it would be finished with blasters or something more primal, he wasn’t certain, but it would be finished either way.
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depraved-gf · 5 months
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Would you date anyone on tumblr ?
Prrrobably not? There's maybe 1 or 2 mutuals I'd talk to, but long distance isn't really my thing. Been there, done that.
It's also incredibly difficult for me to get close enough to develop feelings. Best not to attempt for your own sake.
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depraved-gf · 5 months
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Ngl after you said how hard it is for you to get attached it makes me want to fight more to get your affection. Kind of like a challenge. Is that fucked up lol
AHAH FUCKK okay 1. nothing is fucked up to me, the challenge part is actually kinda hot but 2. also pls be careful because dat fearful avoidant in me can be majorly turned off by neediness and clingy but only if I'm not already getting attached myself. (and if we interact, you'd know. I get a lil clingy too and respond fast). I hate being this way but I'd rather be honest.
So no, you sweet anon, I'M the one that's fucked up. Not you. It's honestly not worth it, pls save ur affections for someone good :')
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depraved-gf · 5 months
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Do you have a crush on anyone off tumblr ?
Not really?? There's like 2 or 3 mutuals I'm attracted to but it's rly rly hard for me to get attached enough to develop a crush.
Plus the last time I actually crushed on someone a couple months back it ended horribly and I'm still attached fml
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