#condemns them for their absence which hits her Right in her stringent ideas of right and wrong

[jahiera]

shoutout to the old guy who stared across from me in the park while I was eating mcdonald’s in my car. listening to which witch by florence. thinking about her

#I struggled to eat an onion stuck on my face so I do understand perhaps the fascination #’her is it emrys—‘ yeah it’s emrys. #pondering her strange longing & jealousy toward Shadowheart/Gale for being so close and so assured of their gods presence + CHOSEN #that for a hot second even as she hates & resents what they endure SHE herself wishes she was in their position in her own state. #capable of seeing & wishing to aid them in what clearly pains them & considers her own sort of ugly jealousy to be a separate and Repressed #thing that she doesn’t think about too hard on or she’ll spiral. #which! is fun when astarion comes in & completely dismisses the need for a god and inadvertently #condemns them for their absence which hits her Right in her stringent ideas of right and wrong #it’s a jarring sort of totally removed point of view that smacks her out of her own— #I want to die for GOD & I want him to Tell me To Die for Him sense of being #astarion vc I prayed to them all. none of them answered #emrys: [casually has her fundamental truths reshaped & called into question as her sense of justice takes off] #he’s not even trying btw. he just gives her crises for free. corruption arc but she’s so insane on the scale of #needing to be Gods Best Boy that it just makes her normal. #anyways. I think they should make out behind the stormfront tabernacle. for kicks