#chief among them being the tragedy of paddy being unable to make any other choice

[eoinmcgonigal]

Paddy's regret at ending up in prison that second time is just so cruel, because if he wasn't there maybe he wouldn't have joined the SAS. Eoin wouldn't have died the way he did. But Paddy, faced with a second charge and being parted from Eoin and maybe never seeing him ever again because Eoin could very well die in this war and Paddy would be left behind...

Fuck the whole missing out on the action thing, it was missing out on being with Eoin, and that forced separation with the threat of permanence, that Paddy was thinking about when considering the offer. He's a man of strong, immovable principals. He'd endure whatever was thrown at him out of spite.

But losing Eoin? He's the only aspect of the equation that makes him falter; Eoin's the one person he regretted being parted from and couldn't bear to be without. Eoin's 'if you jump, I jump', yes, but Paddy will jump out of a burning plane without thinking twice in order to be with Eoin. He will leap, and pull Eoin with him to his death.

Of course, he doesn't know that.

Not until it's too late.

#paddy mayne #eoin mcgonigal #eoin x paddy #paddy x eoin #sas rogue heroes #document type: intelligence report #look i just have a lot of feelings about that whole moment okay #chief among them being the tragedy of paddy being unable to make any other choice #you can't tell me that paddy gave a shit about some prison time he'd survive whatever was thrown at him #APART FROM losing eoin and being without him #that's what made him weak #thinking of mistletoe now