#chapter 2 in contrast has some super sweet Bobby flashbacks and I want to be there. I need healing

[thelostboys87]

at this point im just speeding through chapter one of lover boy like im trying to get through the perfume department

#ON A LINE LEVEL NOT BAD!!! NOT BAD ON A PLOT BEAT LEVEL EITHER!!!! #I definitely know I want to completely rework the opening but want to wait until I’ve written more #but also it’s just like im not used to this balance yet #of the grief but also the earnest silliness etc etc….it’s my own experience of grief but it takes getting used to #definitely hard to strike the balance from a writing pov #i have not been this consistent in a novel draft in a while but the last time I was the story was like. thematically + emotionally simpler #I think it definitely is a case of writing the first chapter closer to last but I’m gonna get thru the plot beats you know #also we’re deep in the tags so I’ll get mildly over sharing I need to be DONEEE with the bobby death flashback #I won’t detail what it looks like but it’s a scene that def takes from my experience of seeing someone dead and is very cathartic #VERY proud of what I’ve already written #but absolutely not a scene I can dwell on I need to be past it #chapter 2 in contrast has some super sweet Bobby flashbacks and I want to be there. I need healing #I don’t want to think about his dead body anymore :( #like it’s not triggering. but I need to be in the right frame of mind to write it #and the longer it takes me to get there the less I am in the right frame of mind bc I’m like anticipating it