#cause like might have schizophrenia or smthn

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Geniuniely not sure if im still sane anymore, but anyways how are y’all doing?

#/j #sorta but not really #ren talks #fun fact i actually do not know if im sane! #cause i have this thing where i fall into like.. actual delusion #i’ve been having it all my life #like when i was like 4 i geniunely belived my bestfriends mom was trying to kill me #why? idk man i was delusional #and everytime she would go up to get something from the house i expected her to either 1. abandon us 4 year olds and let us just kinda die #or 2. come back w a knife and kill me now that i was outa view #when i was like 8 i though there was someone living in my house waiting to kill me watching everything i did etc #there where a bunch of thoose #like my intire life #and i like actualy can’t tell the difference between these like delusions or whatever and reality #like at all #it doesnt matter if it includes real people or things i dont belive in or whatever #like i cant seperate it #i should probably see a therapist #cause like might have schizophrenia or smthn #…im sure its fine tho