#captainderyn plays cyberpunk

[captainderyn]

*CYBERPUNK 2077 ENDING SPOILERS*

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I really cannot decide what I want to do with V’s ending in Cyberpunk for my personal canon.

Because, in game, the ending I did and chose seems to be the “best” ending. V gets to stay in her own body for however long she has left, she gets out of Night City, she doesn’t lose Judy. She’s with her found family. Johnny encourages her, in a way, to take her body back.

But idk, something about it doesn’t feel right for the way my V has evolved throughout the story. None of the endings truly click tbqh. For a few reasons that I’m going to ramble about, probably not super coherently.

*All of this is about what I think works for my V, not how it Should Be btw, below a cut for length*

(I’ll probably toss the tag “captainderyn plays cyberpunk” on these types of posts I don’t want in the main tag, if anyone wants to not see Cyberpunk content)

1. I think Judy needs to leave V.

Maybe its because that’s the ending I was first exposed to before I played the game myself. Ideally you’d think them getting to stay together would fit, as that’s usually what I go for but...it’s just not clicking.

They have a great dynamic, they get along like a house on fire. To Judy, V is fiery, has a sense of humor like a whip, is a little dumb like an excitable golden retriever, and makes her feel safe and secure for awhile. She’s so intensely V in a Night City that tries to squash anyone who dares to live that vibrantly. And, V sticks with her through the worst days of her life after what happened to Evelyn. Which is the thing.

V starts to change, as the Relic’s malfunctions get worse. She starts adopting mannerisms, ways of speaking, that aren’t entirely her. They’re Johnny. The cadence of her voice is off sometimes, she starts wearing different clothes--that ratty replica Samurai jacket Rogue found for her. She starts smoking more--the old V never would’ve touched a cigarette with a ten foot pole. And I think those subtle shifts raise alarm bells, raise some walls for Judy. Especially after the incident while diving and seeing exactly what V’s time running out looks like.

Because while Panam’s messages, who is a dear friend to V, are very ride or die, with V to the end no matter what, Judy seems to...back off a bit for lack of better word. I think so soon after losing Evelyn so traumatically, Judy is able to stomach the thought of losing V. And because of that I’m not convinced she can totally open up with V. I think there’s always an element of being held just a tad at arms length. So when shit starts to get really serious with V, as her clock is ticking down and she’s trying to get to Mikoshi...I think Judy taps out. I think that need to get out of Night City that she talks about takes over, those walls come snapping up as a protection, and she’s out. V can’t be another Evelyn to her. 

2. I cannot for the life of me figure out what I want from V. I know she’s kind of trauma-bonded to Johnny at this point, she really can’t imagine being alone in her own head after this long with the scrappy asshole stalking her thoughts. I still think she’d take her own body back, at Johnny’s insistence. But I don’t see her doing that final mission with the Crystal Palace either. I guess I just kind of see her...taking the days as they come in Night City? Living as best she can? I don’t know. Leaving Night City also feels wrong for her.

*Frustrated noises* I! Don’t ! Know! What! I! Want! To! Do!

#captainderyn plays cyberpunk #oc: V #I think I put a liittttlee too much cinematic daydreaming into ceilings #and now anything that doesnt follow the plot I made up in my head to that song doesn't feel right #and that involves Judy leaving V and V dying eventually

[captainderyn]

The mental battle of “I haven’t had the time or mental energy to be into Mass Effect, LOTRO, or Cyberpunk so do I have the material to do 31 prompts”, “if my job doesn’t change I won’t have time” and “hehehe 🎃fictober🎃” is STRONG

#captainderyn rambles #Deryn can’t you just start it and if you don’t finish it it’s nbd NO it’ll haunt me #I haven’t played any new lotro content since finishing Lothlorien because it wants me back in Moria #(and also haven’t had time lollll) #which means I don’t have a ton of new content to play with with Raenor and Wulf #I couuuuld do Ryn and Garrus again but don’t want to be repetitive #and I don’t think most of my readers are interested in Cyberpunk 😂 #and if I’m undertaking 31 days of prompts I know myself I’ll need some sort of engagement and knowing that people enjoy my work

[captainderyn]

Trying to get anything creative that’s tied to video games is like playing whack-a-mole sometimes with the way my fixations go 🙄

Can’t get that Shakarian fic done before that week’s Mass Effect fixation? Better luck next time.

Hella inspired for that Moria fic? Well, that’s cool I played Cyberpunk for one night because I was too tired to write and now that’s what my brain is latched onto 😭

#captainderyn rambles #same thing w swtor hella into it for like one week at a time #my partner is like wHy cAnT yOU JUST FINISH THE GAMES YOU START I #idk my darling dearest love the squirrels in my brain don’t like that #I can’t sit down and play lotro if all I can think about is cyberpunk #it’s how I end up doing nothing of what I want to do lol