#cant say im feeling best 4n

[stephanleyhes]

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#cant say im feeling best 4n #*rn #losing interest in things #like rn i only enjoy 1 show #and even reading and gifing feels hard #tbh getting out of bed is an achievent rn #i turn 28 soon and have been unemployed like 5 years now... #life really was like u gonna get nothinng <3

[s34qu33n]

> Tonight was meant to be fun.

> You wanted nothing more than to have fun.

> But you can’t ignore your feelings. Vriska messages you.

chronomania

8ut for why.

s34qu33n

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chronomania

hm. well okay. 

s34qu33n

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chronomania

i don't think it's that serious. it's just a party thing. eh. 

s34qu33n

Y--OU JUST D--ONT UND3RS4ND 

chronomania

i don't care is more accurate.

s34qu33n

1 th1nk 1m gonn4 go b4ck h1v3..

chronomania

oh i'm mm. sorry. 

s34qu33n

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chronomania

i. don't know what to tell you. uh. i. i don't. like seeing you upset, and you're meant to have fun? christ. latula doesn't come across as evil too 8ad to me 8ut may8e i'm just stupid. i don't know what to say. 

s34qu33n

i use to think she wasnt bad either i wanted so badly to look up to her but i cant not when i know so much of what i do 

chronomania

i mean. even if she is 8ad, i don't think i could care still. i'm no 8astion of morality. i wouldn't care to 8e. as i reiterate for the umpteenth time, nothing matters. i'm sorry you've lost an idol. and i'm sorry you're uncomforta8le at the party. i'd like to help you 8e more comforta8le 8ut may8e it's 8est we simply don't 8roach the concept of good vs. evil with me. 

s34qu33n

im leaving have fun 

chronomania

i okay. 8ye. 

s34qu33n

i didnt even come for the party i came to spend time with you 

chronomania

are you mad at me?

s34qu33n

im mad that i cant fuckin spend time with my best friends either of them because everything makes me think of work and i cant stand seeing this place and cant stop thinkin about how much everyone likes latula more than me 

chronomania

do you know that to 8e fact? have you personally interviewed everyone who attended, or are you making assumptions? i know everything makes you think of work. you need to learn to take a chill pill. may8e we can start with smaller things. go to a park or something. and neither karkat nor i are inaccessi8le. i am especially not inaccessi8le. i live in your hive. you are letting your emotions cloud your judgment of things. i'm more than sure karkat would love to spend time with you, too. 

s34qu33n

goodlight vriska

chronomania

goodlight.

> You return back to Alternia. This was a mistake from the start. You lock the doors to your wing and pull your clothes off. Finding your way to the flooded section. No one can follow you here. Finding your way to the farthest place to hide and hug your knees. 

> You never should have left.

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