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#cant believe I wrote this shit listening to a song from the god damn doll movie
0rionz-belt
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9 months
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I don’t know how to explain that I’m not me in a way anyone can fully comprehend. I’m so tired.
#vent
#I can’t just keep saying all of this stuff again. but I’m going to.
#I look back on my life and it feels like I’m remembering scenes from my favorite movie.
#or better yet. you know how if you tell someone something enough they eventually believe it? like in criminal justice shit?
#I look back. and it feels like that wasn’t me. but they’re my memories. somehow.
#this is the same body. same brain. same voice.
#but I can’t remember more than an audience would. I’ll never know what I was thinking. how my brain worked.
#and I can’t help but wonder if I’m still seeing my life like that. if I’m exaggerating everything.
#if I’m exaggerating how amazing I really was.
#I spend every day of my fucking life mourning over what I perceived myself to be.
#because back then? back then I was building the skills needed to be a person in this world.
#everything feels fucking broken with me. I’m in so much anguish.
#I miss being a person more than anything.
#I feel so horrible. not just for everything I’ve done but for everyone I’ve met. for my friends.
#I feel like I’ve let everyone down. No one understands just how true that actually is.
#If you could see the life I lost you would think I let you down too. I guarantee it.
#this is the worst death one can have. Everyone loses the you they know. But you still have a body and brain that has to face the aftermath.
#I’ve been in agony for so long. so much of me is dead. I just pray that the rest of me goes painlessly.
#cant believe I wrote this shit listening to a song from the god damn doll movie
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