#but then you think about the bakers awake already and the birds outside nesting together with their little bird families and you think about

[milo-is-rambling]

Being awake in your head any time after like two thirty is just complete misery honestly

#why can’t I fall asleep !!! #the fun hanging out night vibes it’s like 5pm-1:15/1:30 am and then I need an hour unwind time where I have the opportunity to be normal but #any time after two thirty is just garbage brain time just mental health hell and sleepy exhausted and chronic pain exhausted just like sucky #but then you think about the bakers awake already and the birds outside nesting together with their little bird families and you think about #staying up for the sunrise but every time you think about it it calms you down enough that you fall asleep and sleep thru sunrise #but you still think about going to the gas station and getting breakfast and then feeding birds at the lake at sunrise and listening to bird #sounds and smoking and journalling and being happy and enjoying it all #but for now it’s four am #and I am sleepy