#but rn my hair is grown out enough from my last trim that was maybe a little too short so now it’s more mr moving castle and less bowl cut

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the hanfu set i ordered for my ren faire getup just got here and aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh i wish my hair was still long i haven’t regretted cutting my hair for even a second til now but now i’m like tjejfhsbshsn it’d look so freaking good with my long hair

#the pressure of the western standard for what qualifies as androgynous or gnc vs i’m hot and chinese and my hair is gorgeous #i don’t watch c dramas bc i suck at reading subtitles but i did try watching the untamed at one point and i wanna finish it someday #but the point is i like their hair. and i literally can have that hair bc i’ve done it before. #but rn my hair is grown out enough from my last trim that was maybe a little too short so now it’s more mr moving castle and less bowl cut #ultimately the point is i wanna be pretty like a man in a c drama and handsome like a girl disguised as a boy in a shojo manga #personal ramblings #tho to be fair i still have the hair i cut off in a bag lmao i could get extensions made fhsjfhshsh #that is a problem. perhaps a symptom. don’t worry about it #but also that hair is partially dyed blue bc idk crisis means dye ur hair bc it’s less permanent than a crisis tattoo #western standards for beauty and queer aesthetics release me from your grasp challenge