#but post incident when i lost a nice chunk of my fucken intestines and then dropped from 170 to 130 lbs over 2 months

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im also getting the muscular definition back in my arms, which is nice

#venting abt body image in the tags idc u read im just warning u #i guess it’s kind of? funny? bc ppl will swear how that’s the ideal body type or w/e #but post incident when i lost a nice chunk of my fucken intestines and then dropped from 170 to 130 lbs over 2 months #honestly the scariest experience of my life. rly thought I’d be dead in a few weeks and there was nothing i could do abt it #i knew of the archetype of fear of starving to death in human culture but i didn’t really like. UNDERSTAND it lol. #not to be a hipster but i don’t think most ppl truly will either lol #and also it was the grossest I’ve ever felt. like i don’t wanna touch or look at myself. i was always wearing hoodies and pj bottoms #i was VERY conscientuous to never sit in a position where I’d have to touch my knees or otherwise be aware of my skeleton lol #genuinely a gross feeling. in the future any time I’m writing body horror im calling on that experience lmfao. sry skinny ppl #yay muscle yaaaaayyy 💪💪💪