#but oguhghhh

[benetnvsch]

ohughghhh Dread over the Unknown is really hitting heavy tonight-

#Vent #venting in tags #starting now lol: #but oguhghhh #I feel like I am just wasting time #I have two majors Neither of which I really wonna do anything with #I hardly am involved in anything at school so my resume probably looks like shit #I need to get on that... #but between school and work im far to drained for extracurricular ... #the fact that im even employed is a miracle #but I feel like all my peers are out there doing internships and labs and other cool stuff and I'm Just Stuck ... #everyone already has friends and connections but im too anxious to even speak up in class let alone talk to peers #what's it like to not have social anxiety guys #is it nice? #I feel like I just keep wasting opportunities and time and that sucks #like once school is over ig I still have my job but I have no hope in either fields related to my major #and ig im just scared #blegh

[benetnvsch]

kunikida plushie quite literally the reason yesterday wasn't the worst day of my life LMAO

#I'M FINE BTW NOW JUST feel like im in some alternate dimension oguhghhh #THE Stabbing wasn't like an attack btw just a Normal Medical procedure gone wrong </3 #nothing like almost feinting in public twice after watching someone commit medical malpractice on ur family YIPEE /lh #sibling is fine btw but Man Stressful #got light headed after and nearly feinted in a public place and completely lost my visions (it was just colors and dark swirls) and had to- #grab onto my sibling to lead me back to the car lolzz #it wasn't a Walmart either just just was Funnier to me #kite draws #kite's ocs #kitson alkaid #koi ursae #I need to draw these two more they're my everything ........ #me: wants ppl to know abt my ocs - also me: never posts ocs :manstandingemoji: #still have a migraine #and fully feeling effects of it all today which sucks suhhhghhghghg #this is like being hungover but without the fun LMAO #kunikida plushie and kunikida + Dazai mochis were waiting for me when I got home though #so thats cool #converting my sister into a second hand Kunikida fan btw #she just calls him 'Ur Guy' though cuz she doesn't remember his names