#but no yeah i respect strong gender feels and labels but like. Eh! Im Just Me!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

That post about everything being "Nah" I felt in my core. I'll always respect people who identify differently but when they ask me "what's your pronouns?" Or "where do you lie romanticaly?" I'm just "eh call me whatever you want I guess" or *I don't feel romantically for much anything" maybe cause online people always thought I'm one gender and irl people always thought I was the other so I just responded with "sure I guess"

and it's honestly such an easier way to live ngl... like when it comes to people who Know that i use they/them, it hurts to hear my given pronouns. but when it comes to strangers and just people who i haven't told, it's like... "yeah. ok. ill put on this hat" it feels a bit like a performance. it feels Mischievous, even! ohoho, they've been Tricked!

#which is Equally funny when i get 'misgendered' the other way. actually its More So #its so delightful. the sheer joy of having genderfucked myself to the point where people get it wrong in the Opposite way #ive had moments where i was confidently referred to with the 'wrong' set until i opened my mouth #and then theres The Face Of Terror and them scrambling to use the 'correct' set while visibly dying inside #ITS SO FUNNYYYYYY #this is my gender. fucking with people Is My Gender i have just realized #my goal every time i leave the house is to make people go '?????' #GODDDDD I LOVE NOT CARING ABOUT GENDER ALL THAT MUCH ITS SO FUCKING FUN #like yeah. sure youre wrong but lmfao whatever im vibing #rambles from the bog #im a bit less excited about being aroace purely bc i know the stigma around it #and ive heard So Many disheartening stories about aro/ace folks getting rejected/shunned in queer spaces #like there's a queer bar i wanna go to but now im. less enthused because someone Will hit on me im confident about that #and flirting is fun but like... man i dont wanna lead anyone on but- #sorry sorry i didnt mean to start Worrying Out Loud lmao #but no yeah i respect strong gender feels and labels but like. Eh! Im Just Me! #i use nonbinary bc technically Yea and also the flag fucks <3