#but like the one ep they did they had a guest on whi had an ED at two different points in her life and the second time
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The most fucked up thing I've learned about recently, when I really sat down to think of it, is how fat people with eating disorders are treated. When a person is very thin and has the behaviors we associate with anorexia we would know that telling them they're too fat for treatment is just. Fucking evil, it's an evil thing to do to someone, but that's exactly what people with "atypical" anorexia face if they seek treatment and the atypical part in my understanding is just being larger than the BMI "regular" anorexia has to qualify for having the disorder.
Like instead of using the same fucking term we decided fat people with eating disorders were built wrong somehow and thus need a Special Term™️ rather than defining eating disorders around the behaviors associated with them, not the body type of those who suffer from them. Just thinking about the way even thinner people who aren't thin enough trying to get treatment and being told they're too healthy or too fat for it makes my blood boil with rage when we would never treat someone who's eating disorder shows up strongly on their frame this way because we'd immediately recognize how disgusting that is.
#winters ramblings#yall gotta check out the podcast maintenance phase and also aubry gordons books#but like the one ep they did they had a guest on whi had an ED at two different points in her life and the second time#she was not extremely thin. she got told when she sought treatment to look at herself and look at everyone else#and then the person asked WHY she was there. SHE ALREADY HAD AN ED. SHE KNEW WHAT SHE WAS EXPERIENCING#how FUCKING DISGUSTING do you have to be to tell someone who just told you they have an EATING DISORDER#to LOOK AROUND BC CLEARLY THEYRE TOO FUCKING FAT FOR TREATMENT. amd what of people who JUST got an ED??#ehat do they have to be on deaths door for you to give a shit?? fuck you thats horrific and cruel and a lot of other words i dont have#like thats just EVIL man. fuckin EVIL and im not much one for believing in evil the way we concenceptualize it#but like holy fucking SHIT how else do you look at something like that??!? why the FUCK would you EVER say#something like that so someone who is TELLING you theyre sick?? and you say NO YOURE NOT??#like the person MP had on had ALREADY been treated for an ED. she KNEW what was happening to her#and this ALLEGED professional reacted like that lioe fucking congrats on potentially making someone WAY SICKER#like i just cant get over that id have LOST IT on that fucking twit at the treatment center. the whole block would have been aware#of what i thought and wjere i wanted that person to go what to do whaen they get there and where to go after that too#like !!!! what the fuck!!!! like if youre willing to let sick people get SICKER just to prove their sickness to you before you treat them#you have NO BUSINESS being in the medial or mental health professions. acting like that you might as well be a cop#like yes i also know that several drs did this exact thing to me but with depression and thats why it hits a nerve#BUT I DONT THINK I NEED THAT SHITTY TREATMENT FROM DRS TO KNOW HOW FUCKED UP IT IS#TO TELL SOMEONE WITH AN ED THAT THEYRE TOO HEALTHY OR NOT THIN ENOUGH FOR TREATMENT#like are you TRYING to make them WORSE??!? how DARE you!!
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place
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,offset)
Several
Char
had to be edited
slightly
The
Orde
r
of
th
e
Ston
e,
Gabriel,
Magnus,
Eligard,
United
By
Soren
Defeated
the
Ender
Drag
on
Trac
in
g
the
word
s
wi
th
hi
s
fi
n
g
e
r
“Right
we
shou
l
d
b
e
going
Now
,
‘’
Shifted
fro
m
th
ei
r
perch,
in
Brigh
t
Light
in
g
Of
Day
Gil,
loung
in
g
wi
t
h
a
cop
y
of
‘Gabriel and
a Guide
to
defense,’
Jess
e
Olivia
+
Axel
Drap
p
e
d
wit
h
‘Log
ist
ics
fo
r
th
e
Loose
assorted,”
By
Magnus
Aiden
a
wkward
ly
Propp
e
d
Wi
t
h,
“Action
ali
zatio
n
fo
r
th
e
il
begotten
~Eligard
and
hi
s
pre
viou
s
dis
card
ed
“Evaluation
E
valati
on
of
Happ
ine
s
s
,”
By
Soren,
some
where
“Aw,
�� I was going
to
read
that
,”
Petra
(newly
Reach
in
g
for
On
e
of
the
many
stuffed
book
shelves
wi
t
h
“Tr
e
e
Car
e
You
r
Guide
to
th
e
Geo
phenomen
a
l
,”
,
“
‘Iv-
and the many uses of Po
-‘
(The book
so scruffed into its corner
that that’s all that could be
re -
,
An
d,
+
“Adventure;
Where
to
find
‘em
,
”
“Not
if
we’re
going
to
mak
e
it
to
th
e
con
ve
n
tio
n
,
”
“Besides
don’t
you
al
ready
hav
e
tha
t
c
op
y,
,“
“Yeah
but
it’s
a
go
od
re
a
d
,
”
“Besides
it’s different from the
traveling
edition
,”
“Trav
el
i
n
g
edi
t
io
n,”
,
Axel
sniffed
,
Lukas,
“C’mon
five
min
utes don’t want to be
late,”
“Con
v
en
t
io
n
s
,”
On
groun
d
Jesse
get
t
in
g
hi
s
pe
t
boar
Reube
n,
for
th
e
trek
To
be greeted by what seem
e
d
like 2 million Quest’N
‘answers
posters
with Gabriel‘s
face
posted
on
it,
“This
is
th
e
bes
t day
of
m
y
lif
e,”
While the others were there to roll
the
i
r
eyes
except Lukas
“leave
it
be,
“
“If it was anyone else
-
I’d have to
carry them off the
floor
to,”
,”
A
“riv
al
,”
Te
a
m,
Cordial
en
ough
wit
h
Luk
as
“Tell
Ethan
I
said
hell
o,
“
Not so much
with
th
e
rest of
them
“Our
Invention
Is
Goi
ng
to
be
Grea
t,
”
“Our
s
wil
l
be
great
er,”
“What
got
in
to
th
e
m,
“
,
“Ivor
fan boys
,”
Axel
Shrug
ged,
“Oh
speak
of
the
Devil,
You might have some company as
Ivor
fan
club
le
a
d
e
r,
Pet
r
a
,”
“oh,
The
m
agai
n,
”
“Wh
o
Cou
ld
n
’t
al
l
t
h
e
books
he’
s
Written
abou
t
po-,”
Fad
in
g
Into
com
fort
able
not
hing
As they made it to the
bu
i
ld
zon
e
And
Olivia
start
e
d
draw
in
g
u
p
sta
t
istics,
for
th
e
build
So you wouldn’t mind
coming with me
and
helping me
find him,
would
you
Jess
e,“
,
“Um,
Ye
ah,
Su
re,
We
should
be
done
here
right,
Lukas
“
Jesse
yelle
d
u
p
t
o
Lukus
Who
gave
hi
m
a
thu
mbs
u
p,
And away about
Olivia who is staying behind to talk to some
planners
“So what’s up with this
Ivor
guy
a
gain
, ”
I th
“I’ve
always
be
en
m
o
r
e
in
ter
es
t
e
d
i
n
Ma
g
n
u
s,
I mean all the
scientific
. .
stuff,
Realiz
in
g
he
had
inter
ru
p
t
e
d
,
”
Slyily
smili
ng,
“Iv
or
is
a
kno
wn
st
u
d
i
e
r
of
plant
s
an
d
the
ir
essence
,
“
“An
apothecary,”
“Not
Quite
,-“
“Huh
I’d
though
t
we
’
d
m
e
et
h
i
m
h
e
r
e,”
“Let
me
go
chec
k
“Jesse
stay
here,”
Please
“ what
are
you
doin
g
her
e?
“
Iriat
te
d,
“Mr.
Ivor
sir,
I
was
hoping
to
give
this
to
you
be
fore
the
sho
w,”
“Yes,
Yes-
Actual
ly
glancing
at
th
e
thin
g
Mouth
agape
at
th
e
“Withe
r
Skul
l,”
She
he
ld
in
h
e
r
h
a
n
d
s,
“ This
is
..perfect,
thank
you,”
“Hel
p
your
sel
f
to
t
h
e
di
a
monds
in
th
e
ches
t
o
ve
r
ther
e,
“
“Sir,
thes
e
aren’t
diamonds,
these
are
moissanite,
.”
“Maybe
we
should
te
l
l
hi
m
“Wh
y,”
“Because
thes
e
migh
t
b
e
im
por
t
an
t
t
o
h
i
m,
”
“Don’t
wanna
mess up the
show,”
,
Petra
&
Jess
e,
Mak
in
g
it’
ba
c
k,
an
d
Me
e
t
in
g
A
xl
e
the
re,
“ Axel
wha
t
ar
e
yo
u
doi
n
g
h
e
r
e
,
”
“Oh hey,”
Munching on
a bowl
of
pret
ze
l
s
“guys,
Gabriel
stop
pe
d
by
our
buil
d,
sai
d
it
was
“Clas
s,
and
gav
e
me
“this
,
[Sev
eral chains with the words
“back
stage
pas
s
e
s,
” etc
hed
on
th
e
m
,”
“ Luk
as
wen
t
t
o
giv
e
yo
u
you
r
s
J
ess
e,”
“Gill
is
geek
in
g
Out
over
Ga
briel,
Olivia’s
tal
kin
g with some
Pl
an
n
e
r
s
,-
“
“Oh
hey
Petr
a,
I requested
one
for
you,
Though don’t think you need it since you’re a
distributor
an
d
al
l,
,”
Petra
smil
in
g,
sly
ily
tak
in
g
ou
t
he
r
“dis
trib
u
tor,
”
tag,
“Anywa
y
we
can
’t
sto
p
t
o
tal
k
no
w
a
x
l
e,
“
“Hav
e
t
o
r
e
tur
n
som
e
th
i
n
g
to
on
e
o
f
th
e
guest
s
,
”
,
“That
woul
d
be
his
Room
,”
Jesse asked quickly as Petra lightly pushed him forward (from be
hind,
as he slid on
ward
s,
“Yeah, t
‘The door clicked
sh
u
t behind
th
e
m,
A flight o
f
stai
r
s ,
“Well,
this
is,
ambitious
,
“
“Are you
kidding
having to build
stairs
all the way down in
ice,”
,
“ I had no idea that Ivor was such a
builder
architect
,
”
“ It’s a shame it’s so
Dark in here,”
light
ing up a
light,
As they made it through what
see
med to be
big
book
shelves
,
The li
ghts
flick
ed
on
sud
den
ly
Jesse
gras
ping a
han
d
on
her
mouth
(For no
part
icular
re
a
s
o
n
,
“ Nice
to
see
me
again,
no,
no,
“
‘B
e
en
a
lon
g
tim
e,’
,no”
“FI
nally
out
of your
sh-“
“Mr.
Ivor,
sir,
“
“Aagh,”
,
Petra
pe
eping into the
dar
k
nes
s, of the
di
m,
ly
li
t,
dun
g
eo
n,
“I’m
her
e
to ask you about the
dia
Pe-
moissan
it
e,
yo
u,
gav
e,
me
,”
-
“It’s
,
”
“Get
Out
,”
“But-“
“Get out before I call
security,”
,
Petra
Slink
e
d,
Jesse
follow
ing
quietly
after
,
“Well
at least
we got
our
an
sw
er.
Come’ on let’s go join the
others
before the
show
st
arts,
“Jesse,
I was lo
ok
in
g
all
over
for
you,
-“
Lukas
“Axel
already
,told
us
,
”Course
he
did,”
gruff
ly,
just
as
pana
l,
Ivor
“Finally out of the dark
nes
s of
your
shadow
,”
“Now how about
a real monster
and we’ll see how we measure up
.”
“Ivor,
th
is
really
isn’t
th
e
plac
e,
-
or
th
e
tim-
,
“
A
Compartment
Reveal
in
g
th
e
Components
for
a
Wither
,
Ivo
r
ad
d
i
n
g
th
e
last
par
t,
a
“Wither
Skull,”
the
Withe
r
Skul
l ,
th
e
On
e
Petra
-
The audience burst into applause as it st
arted
mo
v
in
g believing it to be part of the
show,
Gabriel,
tak
in
g
out
a
wooden
sword
The
Crowd
Disperse
as the
Wither
start
e
d
at
tack
ing
th
e
m,
“Ivor
That’s
Eno
ugh,
Turn
this
thing
of
f,
Lukas
Confronted
“Oh,
I will
One o’
Soren,
Once,
hey
it’s
not
work
in
g,
Ivor pressing the button panicking
ly,
“Hey, guys
what’s going
on,
“
Axel
joi
ni
n
g
th
e
m,
at the cleared out
con
vent
i
on,
“Ivor’s
gon
e
Off
the
Wal
l
s
And
made an invention trying to
kill
every
one,”
Gill
repli
“Co
ol
,”
“ an
d
destroy,”
“ Why won’t
this
stupid
wire,”
“Hm,
Wire
,”
“Axel
,”
Oli
v
i
a,
“ I mean there was a
wire on
the
table,”
“Axel,
what
hap
pen
e
d
t
o
t
h
e
w
ir
e,
“Well,”
Axel
flush
ing,
“I um
I
took
it,”
“AXEL!!”
“What they did say take
whatever
you
wa
nt
,
”
“Wher
e
is-
it-
I used it to add
another light display to the
statue
c-
thing,
“Well you
might
want
to get it
now,”
Backing away from the
destruction
on
stage that seem to get
eve
r
clos
e
r
Stepping
ove
r the
woo
den
sw
ord
The
remote
next
dis
regar
d
ed
i
n
frustration
As they were driven back to the
statue
cr,
“Got
it
,“
“Hand
it
Gill
,
”
Gil
l
Pas
sin
g
i
t
to
wh
o
gave
to
Jess
e
who
Brok
e
it
dow
n,
whil
e,
Olivia
whisper
ed
instructions on how to
put it
together to Aiden
Whil
e
Axel
+
Olivia
play
ed
dis
trac
t
io
n
“Done,”
Tos
s
ed
up
to
Lukas,
Who
went
to
pres
s
th
e
but
to
n,
Only for
Ivor to
sn
atch it out of his hand and do the
Honor,
And,
It
Didn’t
wo
r
k,
“So
Losers
,”
A
Leather
Jacket
Rush
e
d
by,
“ Ethan,
if
you’re
not
goin
g
t
o
b
e
hel
p
fu
l-
,”
Lukas
snapped
but they were already
long
gone,
Trail
ing
afte
r
the
m
To the
Edge,
Ivor
hauling
Gabriel’s
unconscious
form,
“I
want
e
d
to see him
humiliated not
dead
,”
Gabriel
stirrin
g by the
Edge,
Talkin
g
to
“Gill,
you
need
to
tak
e
t
h
i
s
emble
m,”
Tak
in
g
it
ou
t
of
his
coat
,
“Fin
d
th
e
other
s
-
,
”
Pas
sing
Ou
t,
And
Gil
l
Run
n
ing off in the opposite direction with the
wheel,
It’s flashing a
slight blue at Gill’
s
tou
ch
Befor
e
a
brow
n
dot,
around
th
e
ri
m,
Mak
ing a small
streak
pa
t
h,
,
Shifting with the
users
stance to point in a
certain
dir
ec
t
io
n
Tak
in
g
Of
f
Af
te
r
it
A
Broken
Crate
r
Wi
t
h
h
i
m
a
s
K
i
n
g
,
It was
nearly
im
po
s
sib
le
to
m
a
k
e
it
t
o
h
i
m,
“Mag
nus,
Ga
bri
el
Sen
t
Us,”
“ Gabriel
huh,”
Magnus
hol
ding up the
tr
in
ke
t,
Before
throwing him down the pile
he’
d
jus
t
struggle
d
t
o
cli
m
b,
On
top of
Gil
l
Who’d
bee
n
s
u
p
por
t
in
g
hi
m
“This.
is
point
les
s.”
“He
’s
Insane,”
Jess
e
Admit
t
ed
dejected
ly,
Shar
in
g
a
lo
ok
wit
h
Axe
L
,
“Then
we
sh
ould
mo
ve
onto
the
nex
t
one-,”
Axel
shook
his
head,
“ We
need
to get
this
done,
We’re
stay
in
g
he
r
e
go
on
ah
e
a
d
,”
Lukas
Speech
less,
Before
Going
On
ahead,
Aidan
Wi
t
h
h
i
m,
“Hm,
Of
course
I’ll
go
with
you,”
Eligard
far
mor
e
Co Operative,
Soren
“I
should
stay
out
he
re,”
Whe
n
The
y
got
to
Soren’s
hous
e,
“Soren and I .. didn’t leave things off
too
go od
last time
I- we
spoke”
,
“It
would
be
better
if
you
go,
Soren, not so much..
.
Having
taking
to
knit
ting
a
lot,
And
docu
ment
ing his
rare
animal
fin
dings
Not p
l
ease
d
to be distur
b
ed
b
y
t
h
e
m,
How
eve
r very excited to see
Reuben,
Jess
e
’s
pe
t
pi
g,
“Animal
s,
lovely
creatures
,
Don’t
betray you
and take your
th
ings
,
I’ve seen
a few
of course
- but to see it
bonded
with
a
human,
,
You
must
tell
me
the
tale,
Sitting with
Soren
and having
tea
I found
Reuben
(That
’s his
name)
at the
place
we
built
our
treehouse,
”
While
So
ren
knit
Re
ub
en
a
ti
ny,
Sw
ea
te
r,
“Now
back
to
the
point,
we
could
reall
y
use-
appreci
ate-
,“
Soren’s
fac
e
chan
g
ing at his
change
in
words,
“you
r
he
l
p,
”
“I want-
to help you
I really do,
“
Soren
insist
e
d,
“But the Order
and
I, didn’t
leave things on
good
terms,
Hesitatin
g,
Cou,
“Would
Reuben be
t
here,
“
Jess
e
Nod
ded
“And you’d be helping a lot of
animals-“
“Fine-
I’ll
go,”
,
Jesse
em
er
gi
n
g
wi
t
h,
Soren
Only to find
Aidan
an
d
Eligard
No
Long
er
ther
e,
“They
went
ahead
to
th
e
Temple
,”
Lukas
whis
per
ed
Swa
pp
in
g
stories
wi
th
Luk
as
on
th
e
w
a
y
as
he
le
ad
t
h
e
m
b
a
c
k
to
th
e
Te
m
ple,
The
only
thing
left
after
th
e
Wither’s
rampage
“And
our
tree
house
is
ri
gh
t
ov
e
r
th
e
r
e,”
Lukas
poi
n
t
e
d
ou
t,
Petr
a
sho
w
in
g
u
p
w
i
t
h
I
v
o
r,
And
things
clearly
went
down
hi
ll from
th
er
e,
Ivor,
im mediately
taking charge of the whole
op eration
as Soren
watch
e
d
Irr
iat
e
d
o
n th
e
side
lin
e
s,
Goin
g
t
o
g
e
t
Mag
n
u
s
with
t
h
e
sp
ar
e
tim
e
,
“Who
dares-
So
r
e
n,
“
Dro
pp
ing the explosive behind his back as he went to
cuddle
Soren,
who
star
e
d
blank
l
y,
“Soren,
‘how you been
cute
pig,
Always
a sucker for
(cute
animals,
so
how,
“
Holding up the emblem
intimi
datingly
Sw
“Al right,
oh right,
,sure
“
Mak
in
g
it
b
a
c
k
t
o
t
h
e
Temple,
to
he
ar,
“It’s
Done!”
Soren
raisi
ng
an
ey
e
bro
w,
at
leas
t,
“This will
de
activate
the
Wither
storm,
“
“Once
in
walking distance so
of
course,
,”
Shoving
th
e
devic
e
of
f
on
Lukas
Who
went
to
suit
up
as well as the rest of
them,
At the moment
arrived,
“I’ll watch
Reuben
for
you,
“
Soren
Offe
r
ed
Reuben
Could take
a pretty
mighty
pun
ch,
but saf
er
no
t
to
risk
it,
“Sure
Reuben
likes
you,”
As
he
went
through
Sl
ici
n
g
Thr
ou
g
h
th
e
Wit
her
Spawn
ed
hord
e,
The
Wither
storm
falte
r
in
g
an
d
fall
in
g
Com
in
g
ou
t
Rescuing those that the
Wither
storm
had
cap
tur
e
d,
Inc
Lud
in
g
Gab
r
i
el,
Wi
th
Fro
s
t
bi
t
e,
Only
for
it
to
star
t
mov
in
g
ag
a
i
n,
In
three,
“Run!”
Luk
as
Wa
rn
e
d,
They ran, castle destroyed,
and forced to find shelter in a
cave
“This never
would’ve
happened,
“
“Magnus please for once in your life shut your
accursed
mouth,”
Soren
snap
p
e
d
worriedly,
“Eligard help me attend to
Gabriel’s
frost
bite
,”
-
Into the Night
“Ivor,
I can’t believe
so such a fool
hardy
plan!”
Wak
in
g
up
Lukas
an
d
dis
turb
i
n
g
th
e
other
s,
Goin
g
ou
t
t
o
,
“I should’ve
stood up
for
m
yself
a
long time ago
Ivor
Give me that
in fernal device,”
“ it need
s
morganite
,”
“You use
d
dia-
mond,
”
as argument broke out
Lukas,
Petra coming behind
Lukas after being treated
for
minor
frost
-burn
Sm,
“Looks like I actually
wi
ll have use of that
mor
ganite,“
Petra crossed her arms clearly haven’t forgotten the abrasive
behavior
ear
lie
r,
“Pl-
huc
ke
d
Morganite
at
h
i
m,
“Yo
u
should
pro
bably
destroy
it
fo
r
goo
d
m
easur
e
,”
Soren
giv
in
g
Luk
as
h
i
s
s
w
or
d,
“Oh look at
Soren can’t kill an
ender
dragon-
O
op
s,”
“Ivor, you have
never,
Been
helpful
to
any
one
in
th
e
g
r
ou
p
ever”
“I-
Mag
nus
C’mon on
that isn’t
true
right
buddy ,”
Mag
nus
hid
ing
be
hin
d
Sore
n,
Eli
gar
d
Cros
s
in
g
he
r
ar
m
s,
“It’s
time you leave
Ivor,
“
Ivor looking at them before running
into the Wasteland
Of the
ir
ow
n
mak
i
n
g
“Come on we have inventions
to make
and things
to
rebuild
,”
“Is it true that you didn’t
slay
the
end
e
r
d
ra
g
on,
“No,
Aligardz’s
dragon
look
e
d
to
o
m
u
c
h
lik
e
an
an
i
mal,
I lulled
it
to
sl
e
ep,
Not a blade pierc
e
d it’s
pel
t
Soren
Stro
kin
g
R
ueben’s
h
ea
d,
“Ivor’s
ma-
,”
a sound,
“We should get back to
invent,”
So
ren’
s
word
s
fad
ed
of
f
as he enter
th
e
cav
e
Leav
ing
Jess
e with the
othe
r
s
Suit
ing up to take on the
Withe
r
on
e
last
tim
e,
Soren
watch
in
g
Reuben,
The
Withe
r
fell
And
Lukas
Aiden,
Olivia,
Jesse
Axel
and
Gil
l
As
we
l
l
a
s
Petr
a
Be
cam
e
hero
e
s,
Axel
Event
ually
re
turn
in
g
int
o
ac
count
abil
ity
,
The
End
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