#but its not like. completely debillitating. I can just ignore them??

[cheesey-rice]

now that im taking ritalin im mad actually. Like. Is this how neurotypical people thought i felt when I was having my big breakdowns about not being able to work on anything. Like. They thought i was just not deciding to do something. this is fucking insane.

#like im still getting the emotions i usually have about oh maybe this thing will be difficult or ah it might take some time... #but its not like. completely debillitating. I can just ignore them?? #like what?? what the fuck??? #im still so stunned by this #i thought the meds were just going to make me feel like. hyperactive all the time tbh. #because i guess thats the only time i was able to get work done before. #but its like... i just feel normal?? all the time??? like not even normal like its not like I feel good but i feel a way that makes me feel #like every day of my life before this that i thought was normal was like pretty bad actually??? #actually adhd #personal