#but it’s nice that my intrusive nyc thoughts are back i guess.. kinda sad to think about but they give me a goal again 🤔

[jeonqkooks]

help… my new york thoughts are acting up again :/

#they’ve been sorta dormant for the past year but now they’re back and ooooof they are Strong #i’m back to watching nyc apartment hunting vids </3 and it doesn’t help that most of the youtubers i watch live in new york #i’m daydreaming about every single thing again..- #packing all my shit up and moving across the world to be in nyc :/ #unpacking all my shit and decorating my first nyc apartment which will obviously be a shithole </3 #wanting to off myself during my first entire year in nyc but trying to stick it out and not let the city chew me up and spit me out </3 #everyone talks about how lonely is it when you first move there and i know i’ll definitely be depressed all the time from the loneliness lol #i went to a park the other day and thought ‘oh if i try hard enough i could pretend that i’m walking thru central park lololololol’ #i just bought a new york mug from marks n spencer last week lol this is not helping #anyway…….. TLDR: jen is obsessed with new york city #you should’ve seen me 2 years ago. i was insane :/ #but it’s nice that my intrusive nyc thoughts are back i guess.. kinda sad to think about but they give me a goal again 🤔 #sighing so loudly rn #jen rambles