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shytiff · 4 years

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Small August Wins

1 - DL, did my part for PKP, read a bit about leprosy reaction (PKP related), watched a cute movie tune in for love, ara stayed over at my home, edited 1 pld article

2 - exercised a bit, edited 3 pld articles, DL, finished ppt tinpus PKP, walked to the nearby lake with ara, ate nasgor smoked chicken (been a while!) and jco donuts and my tummy is happy, felt afraid with DV exam huft. I hope I can prepare myself properly

3 - DL, edited 1 article, went to school together w ara, deep fried by dr adhi for my minicex (but i am grateful for the opportunity), emir took a while to pick me up (he left home 1530 and arrived 1715) so i did some status work, arrived at home super hungry but moms food is delicious and wow glucose is finally in (after previously supported by nasi uduk and 1 jco donut) and the pain from today sort of fades away.

4 - DL, tried to study as much as i could (the panic is real), went to kencana to get dr adhis signature at 12 but he replied my chat at about 1330 🙃 , finished self reflection, group called with my group for exam prep

5 - did not DL bcs i fell asleep!! Thank god for streak freeze, met up with dr adhi in poli regarding minicex bcs turns out he brought my status etc, hes very kind 🥺 dr yudo kindly took his time to answer questions via wa voicenote even though he had a tiring day 🥺 bless all the kind people in this world

6 - DL, alhamdulillah passed the exam with dr sondang and dr larissa even though i was being a dumb ass student (thankfully theyre patient enough). Honestly panicked during the morning, i was super afraid. Searched some drug dosage for renata. I hope she passes the remed!!

7 - slept and lazed all day :( edited 1 article, dv closing. Managed to say thanks to dr yudo even though i was lowkey near tears bcs i cant for the life of me say something even mildy emotional, DL at like 15 mins before midnight

8 - finally at lvl 3 DL by cheating with my notes lmaoo, ate burgers and half pizza by dcheese pizza but had mencret2 the next day lmaooo, watched bosscha virtual sky sightseeing

9 - DL, watched Summer Vacation, edited 2 articles, put some sheet mask on (the numbers surely diminished since my cousin took some 🙂 ), pretty much watched youtube all day. At night i dreamed going to a villa that kinda looks like matamori, and the villa near it was also booked by other groups of friend, and i was recording snow falling from the sky and snow on the cliffs, but there was also a snake under the bed, and writing patients resume -_-(?)

10 - DL, read pem psikiatri cbt batch 1 optima, 25 CBT PADI, a fruitful 2,5 hr discussion with dr Heriani, SpKJ

11 - DL, poli with mendel hari and dr Khamelia, SpKJ, mustered some courage to do the ppt, phoned the patient to ask a little bit more, fell asleep and thank god i’ve prayed isya

12 - DL, lazied and played get rich, felt sick and was sick, nose congested, head starting to hurt, i dont know what is it that triggered my emotions but when my dad asked "tiff kok bersin2?" i felt like i have no privacy and they were too intruding and i wept silently in my room (bcs ppl outside can hear) and yall my nose just goes 100% blocked. aint accepting air today. Massaged my face around the sinus area until i can somehow breathe nicely and fall asleep. (took about half and hour of snot cleaning, drinking and mulling around)

13 - since i felt bad abt lazying i started my day early. Woke up at 5. Put on tretinoin, 15 CBT PADI, DL, naskah psikiatri WIP (Work in progress). It rained today. The sky was grey half of the day, which I LOVE. I felt better and more cheery, especially at abt 4-5 pm when it was raining hard and im snuggled in bed. The laptop stand arrived and bitch it was fucking amazing. My back and neck muscles felt less awkward and/or sore working at my ergonomically-awful table and chair combo turned ok thanks to laptop stand!!

14 - DL, poli with dr cika, crashed aras place (drank thai tea, ate flip burger and sausages), it felt refreshing to be in a different place rather than seeing my room all day everyday. Afterwards ara indah and i ate po noodle bar, the taste was kind of herbal (not brothy) in a good way. Tried some sort of gyoza, it was good too. Juan got accepted at USU civic engineering. Went to atikahs place, passed a red light and i got ppl a bit annoyed lmao sorry :(((, talked with atikah until 1-2ish pm

15 - richeese and fried rice for brunch time, went back home (felt socially refreshed!) to see 2 bottles of sbux coffee i ordered, claras nastar and vit d supplement from tokped. Did RPS and ikhtisar for naskah. DL. Sbux' coffee still upsets my stomach lmao but it did keep me awake and focused enough til 11 pm

16 - DL, after staying over at friends place i feel.suer content to be just at home. Ate while watching erna limdaughs vids, sleeeept

17 - DL, naskah WIP, whipped myself to go do naskah by drinking caramel macchiato and playing coffee - bts. It tasted better when i hear jks soothing voice

18 - DL, finally panicked a bit and did ppt, read a bit abt bipolar, chugged hazelnut dolce latte and somehow its not bitter anymore it actually tasted good. Talked w mendel and hari a bit abt the patient

19 - the dr actually showed up to zoom while i was opening other screen and i didnt realize (ultra embarrassing!!!) basically my diagnosis for axis I and II were wrong. She was kindly explaining and i was more dissapointed with myself but at least its all over? Talked w hansel a bit. Revised a bit of naskah. Submitted hardcopy of naskah and refleksi to mbak Asma. Went to ara. DL, ate gwen's dimsum (quite good and fulfilling). Planned to go to kashiwa but we ended up getting bakmi akiaw. Went back "home" to DM, took only 35 mins.

20 - DL, slept half of the day since im on my period (what even is daily structure), woke up in the evening, decided to start “the folk of the air” series. Binged the first book in one go, from 8 pm to 1 am lmaoo

21 - DL, finished the series at night. it’s nice but not as good as six of crows duology. bts comeback with dynamite!! :) i love them. its scary to think they are still progressing and going up and getting better stats. When will it all stop?

22 - discussion with dr natalia spKJ at 7.30 am, DL, drank matcha latte at starbucks airport hub (been a while! It doesnt taste quite good as i remembered) while backing up HD data at drive and some padi CBT (finished TO 3. After all this time, only to 3?!), felt a bit better after i went out, read a falling cohabitation again

23 - DL, danced to baepsae, slept in the afternoon (my body is too weak nowadays)

24 - DL, psychiatry closing, 1 pamela reif vid, 2P (CBT PADI)

25 - DL, made latar belakang for propeks nemo

26 - DL, 4P, rapat nemo

27 - DL, met up with atikah pupuy @ toska, tried yogurt and fruit, mac and cheese, vegan mentai rice and had dinner @ bakmi gm. mom somehow told (and allowed) me to go back home (it was 9 am and i was abt to stay over at atikah’s)

28 - DL, i dont feel like doing anything helppp, i know there’s stuff that im supposed to do but i cant bring myself to do it. a week will pass by, a month, and before you know it exam will arrive

29 - DL, ordered burgushi, i literally have no strength to go at static bike (can only do for a couple of mins), didnt rly do anything else bcs im in a slump nowadays

30 - its scary that the month is almost over again. my life just goes away like that but i still dont feel like doing anything, DL, tried to follow some dances on youtube to move my body

31 - DL, 2A, 4P

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talesofthepurplechurch-blog · 7 years

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Seducing The Muse

Some would define brainstorming as simply sitting down with your tablet, laptop or pen and paper and just waiting for the ideas to flow. If that consistently works for you... that is awesome and you deserve a good solid self five. For the other rest of us... sometimes that muse needs a little incentive to visit. I'm not saying you should put on your sexiest number every time you sit down to write. Although if that helps, do it up! What I am saying is that you need to treat your writing with the respect it deserves. Tip Number 1. You Need A Happy Place If you want to be a writer, you need to have a creative space that's just for you and your writing. After you write a few times, your mind will start to get into a habit. Your little story writing gnomes will realize, "Oh we're sitting in the writing place, it's time to get to work. This will save you a few minutes getting acclimated to your surroundings and allow your brain a little extra energy to get cracking on that story. Your writing space can be an elaborate attic filled with piles of leather bound volumes, and mysterious objects decorating hand carved oak shelves. Or it can be an old arm chair in the corner of your room covered in a soft purple blanket. Whatever your home and budget allows, just make sure that it's your sacred spot where you feel cozy and comfortable. Tip Number 2 Get inspired. Enjoy the fruits of other's creativity for a few minutes each day. Listen to music or look at artwork that fits the mood of what you're writing. Pinterest and google images have tons of cool art that can tempt your muse. Trigger that wheel to start turning. maybe even print out some art or poems that stimulate you creatively and pin them up around your creative space. Tip Number 3 Get comfortable I don't like to wear actual pants when I write. Fuzzy PJ pants are my go to wardrobe for creative time but you do you and wear what you feel most comfortable and confident wearing. For example... if your writing space is at Starbucks at your favorite table by the window... you probably want to wear pants. But if you're in cozy purple blanket chair... pants can take a hike. Unless you like them. In which case, you're different from me and I fear what I don't understand. Tip Number 4. Getting zen. Do whatever you need to do to clear your mind. If that sink full of dishes is getting your panties in a bunch, do it before you write, not after. You don't need the stress or the distraction. Trust me, your gnomes will thank you. Also, you want to be premeditating what you're about to work on. In the morning while you're shaving, making breakfast, riding the bus to work, or while you're falling asleep at night... whenever you have some time to think, try to start forming a strategy in your mind. Try to use time when you're doing tasks that allow your mind to wander This is a type of self guided meditation. Picture one of your characters. See their face in your mind. Ask them questions like you're interviewing them. Make them feel like a real person to you. The more you know your characters, the deeper your readers will connect with them. Try some world building, if it's got vampires maybe start deciding what rules you're going to adhere to. Coffin, no coffin, silver, sunlight, wooden stakes. Just get into the headspace before you ever sit down. I'm personally in that space for most of my day, no matter what I'm doing. But that's only because I want my book to be as rad as possible. Tip Number 5 Outline outline outline. you know all that stuff you were thinking about while you were in the shower. That's right. I'm talking about all those kickass plot points you were pre-brainstorming before your writing session. I know I know... Writing with no outline or "Pantsing" IS super trendy and sexy... and Stephen King does it so we all want to be that awesome... If that works for you... another self five is in order because you are one of the proud few. If you want to have a nice neat manuscript without a bunch fat dangling from the edges, make a time line for your story... make a list of chatacters... choose with care when you want to reveal information to your readers. One mistake I made when writing The Fall was doing a huge data dump about all the characters in the story. My beta's spanked me pretty hard on that one. The most honest of which told me that the story was interesting but the delivery was boring and that from a literary standpoint, the manuscript was unusable. So, I had to go back, and outline a complete storyline where the characters all got introduced slowly into the story. It only took like 3 months and an extra forty thousand words... but in the end, it was totally worth it! That being said... if i had done a proper outline to start with. It would have saved me a couple months and a lot of humiliation. Like 60 people read that first draft, and most of them did not step up for the beta read for the rewrite. But not to worry, there will always be new beta's to step up and give you a chance. As long as your story grabs them in the first few pages. Tip Number 6. The Muse doesn't care if you're not in the mood to write. Accept up front that It doesn't matter if you want to. Even if you're not working on your story. You sometimes have to force yourself to write... maybe, just blowing snot out your creative nose onto the paper is exactly what you need to get to the really good stuff. If you feel like what you're writing is crap, keep writing until it's not. You know that shitty ink that clogs up the tip of your pen makes your words all icky? You gotta scribble that shit out until the good ink starts flowing. Then your writing will smooth out. You have to trust your gnomes and your muse to eventually show up. But you have to get there first. Order the drinks and appetizers, pull out her chair... and be confident that your muse will show up and bestow upon you, an inspiring story idea. One good idea per day is all it takes. But you need to at least write down a few words. You need to be there every day keeping your gnomes limber and your brain nice and juicy. A creative mind is like a flower. you have to water it or it'll shrivel up into a dried up old husk. Make an agreement to carve out time to write even if it's only 15 min. Let's be real, you know you spend more time than that watching fail videos on youtube. You have 15 minutes. Tip Number 7. Family participation. Some writers prefer to be left alone in their creative space of solitude while they write. If you have young kids or babies, I highly recommend asking your significant other to fire up the netflix and give those kids some screentime while you work. I am lucky and belong to a small but Eccentric family and they help and contribute to my work. It is ultimately up to you if you want to hang with your family while you write or be left the hell alone. If it's the latter, make sure you set the expectation that you aren't to be bothered and that your family respects that. Tip Number 8. Set a goal. You can do a time frame like 20 minutes or an hour depending on what works for you. Or you can set yourself a word count goal. Word count is better than page count because it's more accurate. I can write a page in really big font and cheat at page counts. Set your goals small at first. 100 words. Then 200... then keep trying to beat your last word count until you are fast and efficient at what you're doing Tip Number 9. Mind Altering substances. To be clear, I'm not condoning drug use of any kind! Treat yourself to a glass of wine, or coffee, or tea... or whatever your little story gnomes enjoy. Mine like earl gray hot like captain Picard. My husband's story gnomes are annoying and love pumpkin seeds which are the noisiest snack on the planet. Maybe you like smoking out of a pipe like Gandalf while you write. Hugh Hefner does... and he's a very creative man. Whatever makes you feel like a writer, whatever gets your fingers moving... gitcha some!!! But stay in school and don't do bad drugs. Tip Number 10. Watch videos on writing and publishing on youtube to get on the right frequency to work on your writing. I personally like to watch Jenna Moreci, Vivian Reise, and Racheal Stephen for writing tips. I highly recommend that you check them out. And also, of course watch me too. Because I really really want to help push you to succeed on your writing journey. Thanks so much for reading. Please check me out on youtube.com under [email protected]. Keep an eye out for my book The Fall on Amazon and in the Kindle store. And for the love of Pete, go write your damn novel!

#writerslife #selfpub #author

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