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#but it is not my job to keep nursing feelies or doing double the work cause you just don't wanna be bothered with it
xxlelaxx · 1 year
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I'm so over people making their problems someone else's problem. Listen buddy, you got issues, you take care of it. Don't make everyone else around you do it. Figure it out cause everyone else has to do that too <3
#ignore me#today has been a shit day and honestly i cant handle people anymore#we're not in the us you can get a diagnosis i do not care how hard it is or how much you struggle with asking for help#i do not care in the slightest. everyone else struggles with something so figure it out#but it is not my job to keep nursing feelies or doing double the work cause you just don't wanna be bothered with it#i hate this kind of thinking#i hate people who dont take responsibility for shit they do#first my dumb job fucks up and i have to wander threee hours in the cold just to find out that the kid isnt even at school#like you couldn have done one fucking phone call??? and then they say I'm so sorry it went like that???? what do you mean??? it didnt go#like that.. this was fully within your control and you fucked up AGAIN at least dont pretend otherwise#then my family as always messes up telling me stuff on time and planning anything in the slightest bit#like i do not give a fuck i gave you a week to figure out an approximate time slot.. i know it might be surprising but i am also a grown up#with responsibilities and i need to know if I'm gonna get home in the evening or not and how much waiting time i have cause then i might be#able to get some stuff done. i explained this a hundred times. i do not care. figure it out. its not my problem and honestly fuck off#if you need help go to the doctor you pay insurance for. it's not my fault you decide not to do anything about your issues#and my boyfriend has not been doing shit this week. i had to do the household alone again.#get a diagnosis or fix your behavior but its been years and I'm over it#we kicked out two people exactly for that kind of behavior and now you do the same???#do i look like your mom?? do you think I'll care??? if i have to keep asking you to do stuff for more than four months and you STILL dont#do them cause apparently you have the attention span of a fish and cant be bothered to put work into it it is not my problem#i dont care. potential adhd or depression are not a free out of jail card. figure it out. i had to do it too#i hate people so much#also what the fuck is wrong with people flirting on the job??? thats unprofessional and i do not care of youre cute. youre working#if i wanted to fucking get hit on i would go to the club or on dating sites not to the fucking bus driver#what the hell is wrong with people today????
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cheollies · 7 years
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Grief Counelor!Joshua
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THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON ALIVE GUYS. LOOK AT HIM. LOOK AT THAT PERFECTION! he’s actually #3 on my bias list, i know i don’t write about him a lot but look, how do you describe the most perfect man with writing, it’s hard. 
grief counselor Joshua
probably the nicest, sweetest, and understanding person in the entire building
tells everyone to smile
“A smile can go a long way Jihoon”
“Shut up”
he’s too chipper, chipper than everyone else, chipper than Jihoon thinks his girlfriend is
always always does doctor evaluations, will literally track every doctor and nurse in the building down if he has too
“Jihoon there you are”
“Wonwoo why are you in the morgue”
“Jeonghan! Don’t run from me”
just really wants to do his job perfectly but can’t when everyone in the building is running and avoiding him
“I ONLY HAVE TO DO THESE EVALUATIONS EVERY THREE MONTHS JUST LET ME DO IT”
is Seokmin’s main grief counselor and always knows the signs of when Seokmin is experiencing a very hard time
also worked with Seungcheol for a short period
contrary to everyone’s belief that Joshua’s job is the easiest one in the whole building, once the doors to his office closes, it can sometimes become hell
he deals with people screaming, crying, and people who just let everything out on anything near them, often ruining parts of his room
Joshua always remains calm because he knows that anger is a part of recovery
Has really good reflexes because he got use to people trying to throw things at him
if you don’t know the stages of grief, let me just list them for you, the stages of grief come in the order of denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance, people can move in and out of each stage and Joshua understands that
has watched many doctors in the building go through these stages when it comes to the death of a patient
also sees these stages with break ups
will make it known to you if he suspects you are in one of the stages
doubles as an english translator whenever needed
tries to make it clear to every doctor that a patient is more than just a patient, they are scared and doctors are supposed to be a comforting face in an unfamiliar environment
sets up little presentations with doctors (has the board directors make it mandatory) about the importance of having a positive attitude and presence with their patients
also goes through the stages of grief and everyone in the room groans
has to be reassured by Jihoon’s girlfriend that everyone actually appreciates his efforts and they just don’t show it
jihoon @ his gf: please stop encouraging him
Joshua is in fact religious, but that’s something that he cannot bring into his work. stuck between personal morals and work ethic, Joshua often has to remind himself that he can’t outright promote his religion
but he always has the option on the table, he does not enforce it though
you’re not actually a worker at the hospital, you’re a volunteer for the hospital
as a volunteer, you often visit various patients to add a positive face to the crowd
you get people upbeat and in smiles with music
you carry with you a guitar or ukulele and play it cheerfully in front of the patients who will always end up with a smile
you sing about random things, like the birds in the sky, or the lightbulb in the room, or the precious smile on their face
you happened to be in the pediatric unit the day Joshua sees you
he’s walking by when he hears clapping, and loud giggles of children, the strumming of the guitar fills his ears and when he peeks into the unit, he believes his breath his stolen
a little flower crown rested upon your head, your fingers lightly strumming the guitar as you move around the room, dancing lightly as you sing happily about all the colors, all the sizes, all the shapes in the room
the children are smiling, their hands are clapping along to the tune and all the doctors and nurses can’t help but clap along
and Joshua is soo smitten when your eyes catch his who's watching from the door, a little grin on your face before you bend down to a little child, touching their nose slightly, and the sweetest of tone in your voice as you end the song “but the best shape in this room, is your smile”
to his surprise, he seems to be the only one in the building who doesn’t know you
“I just saw the prettiest girl. She was playing the guitar and ---”
Seungkwan: “OH Y/N! I love her!”
cue Seokmin bursting out a door: “Are we talking about Y/N! They’re amazing”
Joshua, not so secretly kind of peeks into the hospital records of volunteers, finds your file, and looks at your schedule
he’s not being creepy, he swears (but he kind of is)
Watches you the next week when you play for the pediatric unit
during the middle of the performance, when you’re in between songs, a little girl tugs at your shirt, and Joshua watches as the girl whispers in your ear, your eyes flicker towards him and you smile with a nod
“it seems like we have a little request. I was just told that Mr.Joshua over there, does the most wonderful rendition of the itsy bitsy spider.”
Joshua’s all flustered and all the kids are screaming because they loove when Joshua sings and he really can’t turn down the children so he slowly makes his way towards you
you’re grinning so big as he stands next to you and you offer to play the tune on your guitar and Joshua sends you a meek smile because he’s never performed in front of a girl he likes before
starts of slow and choppy before he finally gets into it, almost forgetting you were there playing the guitar, and he’s doing the hand motions for the itsy bitsy spider, the kids are all following along since they learned it from him
and omg you’re internally freaking out because not only is this guy handsome as hell, but his voice is so soft and soothing, and the way he’s smiling with the kids and his pretty hands are doing the motions, it’s got your heart melting
after the whole performance, the children disperse back to their rooms (as ordered by the nurses) and all there’s left is you and Joshua
you’re packing up your things and Joshua is there standing nervously, his hands balled into a fist because he’s doing the whole internal fighting with himself about whether he should ask you out for a coffee but then there’s a side that’s like what if she turns you down and he’s all dammit joshua just do it
“do you want to get a cup of coffee with me.”
you’re puzzled, looking at the boy who looks like he’s about to combust from the inside, you give him a calm smile, nodding with agreement and you giggle at the way he says ‘really’ as though he was expecting the opposite
he really was though
that’s how you meet and learn the boy that is Joshua
literally a billion coffee ‘dates’ later is finally when Joshua and you are considered ‘official’
but really Jeonghan and everyone else in the building has been calling you two official after the first three coffee dates because Joshua just cannot stop talking about you
remember how he was all chipper before, he’s even more chipper and smiley now and everyone is a bit creeped out
stores a guitar just for you in his office so that you don’t have to always carry one around, but it also gives him an excuse to always see you and get all mushy feely in his office
he doesn’t kiss you on the lips when he’s in the hospital, he believes to keep it professional, but that also doesn’t stop him from stealing a quick peck to your cheek here and there
now that a lot of his attention is focused on you, he doesn’t spend his time chasing doctors around and everyone thanks you for that
“hey Josh, should I wonder why Jihoon just stopped me in the hallway and thanked the heavens for me”
“Just ignore him”
you and Joshua perform together in the pediatric unit
Joshua plays the guitar as you move and dance around, your voices melting together, and Joshua always stares at you with sparkles in his eyes and blushes every time you look at him and wink
you always help him arrange his office whenever a patient gets too aggressive, but it’s okay, more time to spend with you is enough for him
grief counselor Joshua, despite the title of his job, is the happiest man alive with you right in his arm. He adores everything about you and his eyes are only locked on you every time you step into the room. His soft voice soothes you as you sleep tucked into his chest and everything is just right in the world with you standing by him.
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